Zeus
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all this over a bag of illegal nature japan crank one out and light up it's not that serious
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Is this some sort of power move to strike back at Twitch?
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20 hours ago, Zeus said:fuck off yoshiki drop the album or retire
you can donate 10 million yen to the cause without having to toot your horn about it. he had an announcement for the announcement that he's going to be such a good person. what a fucking nut. the effect would be the same whether or not anyone knows about it and altruistic donation does not require public knowledge. this is 100% a publicity stunt and fuck you YOSHIKI for appropriating this tragedy to promote yourself.
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Reminds me of THE FINAL in spirit, where it's an ominous title but it doesn't mean anything bad. I hope.
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10 hours ago, robkun said:I remember hearing a rumor a while back that Dynamite Tommy was a close bedfellow to some yakuza branch.
Probably wouldn't surprise me tbh.
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On 7/28/2019 at 2:20 AM, nekkichi said:did you talk to your dr about your medication possibly, hypothetically, not working with your particular issues?
like I can't tell what exactly is going on in your life because I don't see the full picture (sometimes depression is reactive to ongoing shit you have no control over; meds will take the edge off the negative emotional cycles anyway, though),
but we've had that conversation over a month ago, and that's about enough time for most of meds to settle and give an accurate idea of how your brain is responding to them even by the most conservative textbook efficiency estimates.
I'm also not sure what programming area you're working at, but I've heard enough lowkey brag from people who transferred from high-stress, on-demand bullshit like idk apps into incredibly boring banking and corporate software engineering roles tripling their income in the process while having regulated work hours and other additional corporate perks that they had no idea existed before slapped on top, so that might be worth considering.
I am going to see the person who prescribed it to me this week. I can't tell if the medication is working. Some people say I seem much happier, others say I seem way more depressed. I'm not angry or suicidal anymore but I'm also not happy. I wonder if that's just how my brain is.
I supposedly have a low stress programming job but I think it's anything but. Dozens of demands, too much work being done for free, unequal distribution of said work, and shit pay. I'm supposed to be giving back to science but the people who want this data don't know what to do with it. Even when they do, the programmer who put the data set together is usually the last person to get credit for their contributions. Being invisible has its downsides. -
28 minutes ago, secret_no_03 said:That's your prerogative, just saying, it'd be much easier to read and it's a simple press of the enter key every 5 to 6 sentences. 😊
I'm talking about my mental issues and you're talking about paragraphs like I give a fuck.That's
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" " Here are some more spaces for you don't spend them all in one place.
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My mood has been cratering for the last two weeks and it's getting to the point where people around me can tell. I've untangled some of the reasons why I've been unhappy and it has to do with a lot of the well-meaning things people advise me to do that I take the wrong way. They always come off as suggestions for what to do but how are you suggesting solutions to the problem I haven't explained yet? I'm mentally exhausted when I come home and I do not want to do more programming, fix computers on the side, sell weed, take even more classes after I've finished grad school, earn a license, or start my own business. Those aren't answers; those are distractions. I don't have faith in the capitalist system, so I don't want to look for a "new job". It'll be the same bullshit as the old job in a different sector for as long as programmers are underappreciated and treated as simple code to caffeine converters. I don't like working to line someone else's pockets, and the assertion that one must work for a living is troubling, and also at odds with the depths of laziness some coworkers descend to daily. You can't tell me work harder to find purpose and be happy when business analysts are laughing their asses off on their third Starbucks break of the day. I just gave a 40 minute presentation I didn't feel like giving and certain team members fell asleep, and I got so dejected the secretary at the front sent an e-mail to my manager and her boss because I couldn't find it within me to bother. In fact, I find the assertion that one must better themselves to find happiness at all is full of troubling assumptions about my values. I work hard and I'm not happy, working harder makes me unhappier, and when I come home I'm a zombie and I don't want to do anything. I haven't listened to new music outside of the mix tapes I've been given. Haven't played any new games since I bought em. My Switch is docked up to my TV and remains untouched. Don't even want to watch YouTube videos and that requires me to only pay attention. I'm kinda just walking through life trying to make it to the next day waiting for it to end. Depression is a bitch. If you are wondering why I've been quiet these last few weeks and not writing or doing much of anything, that's why.
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Any reason why?
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5 hours ago, Lestat said:I don’t join if I don’t feel dedicated to the theme. I suppose a lot of people do...
There’s not really a way to implement some harsher rules, is there? At least I don’t see it making sense on a free forum like this.
The more rules there are, the less participation there tends to be. Even simple themes get more attention than complicated ones. We are reflecting on a few ideas of what to do next, but we want to be careful and not ruin a good thing. But then again, members not holding up their end of the bargain also ruins the experience.
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The space race is stupid and motivated by the wrong reasons.
Humanity isn't looking to space out of wonder and excitement at what lies in the cosmos. We're looking because we've messed up Earth's climate here and we're looking for a second chance on a new planet. We're going about this in the wrong order. Our planet is so rare and we haven't found another one like it. I don't see a point in returning to the moon because we can't make much of the floating asteroid. Mars is the new hotness but I'm not keen on living in a bubble in a frozen desert. I want to go outside in a T-shirt and feel the sun on my skin the same way I do today. We need to figure out how to terraform a planet and cultivate nature from nothing before we look to another planet, and I honestly believe Venus is a better candidate than Mars. If you can reverse the runaway greenhouse effect on Earth, you can scale it up and test the same thing on Venus. It's easier to get to and more similar to Earth than Mars too. But the whole point is I don't see the point in turning Mars into Earth while we turn Earth into Mars, and we don't have the technology to move humanity to another planet in this lifetime. We need to triple down and take care of the planet we have, and learn how to terraform this planet first before worrying about how to get to another one. If the universe keeps expanding faster than the speed of light, we're going to need FTL travel sooner rather than later if we're serious about exploring the stars, and we're not close to this.
I fear all this talk of the new age space race is going to distract people from the problems at home.
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1 hour ago, Bear said:I just think it looks really ugly. They're small and boring, and I don't keep my CDs in plastic as I see no need for it, so they would just fall off. They're just not for me, but I don't buy CDs (with a few exceptions, and they're CDs without obi anyway) so it's not a problem anymore.
Vinyls however I do keep in plastic and the big, beautiful obi's just sit there beautifully and does their job perfectly. Which is to be fat and sexy-looking.
Glad to know I'm not the only one that throws those out. I didn't know you were supposed to keep them lol.
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Nefarious script kiddies have been using my personal e-mail to sign up for services. There's nothing like messages from Instagram telling you what's new when you don't have an Instagram account. What's even worse is that their support number is total shit and a farce; the robotic message basically tells you no one is going to pick up the phone. I had to spend time this afternoon manipulating password recovery services so that I could gain control of the accounts and then purge them from their servers (and I mean purge, not that frou-frou deactivate temporarily bullshit). I guess some people would call it hacking, but it's not hacking if I had access to all the pieces in the first place and it's also not hacking if password recovery services not built with security in mind sends out recovery messages with passwords in plain text. Why don't you just set your username as your social security number and post your security questions and answers on Facebook for everyone to see while you're at it?
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On one hand, acting is acting. I like to turn my brain off and enjoy the movie, TV show, or story. If the actor or actress is convincing enough, the accuracy of their portrayal of the character doesn't bother me much. So yes, she's right, she should be allowed to play a wide range of characters.
12 hours ago, secret_no_03 said:
...but not every single character ever. This is the problem I have with her. Plenty of roles are available to her and she's cherry picking the roles least suitable for her, and the roles I'm least likely to suspend my belief over. She's not the only actress in the world. I understand why the trans community was up in arms about the casting decisions made for that movie, and I'm glad she bowed out. I don't have any recs on who would replace her, but that just means it's an opportunity for a new actor or actress to hit the stage. -
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15 hours ago, CAT5 said:But what amazes me is that some people have a hard time even just entertaining the possibility that many things that have been accepted as fact or that people put their trust in, whether we're speaking about history or modern times, could indeed be lies.
I thought about this too and one of my answers is that some people integrate facts with their identity so much, entertaining any possibility that they are wrong is to reject their reality and by extension, them as a whole.
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I've been thinking a lot about the death of the age of individual genius.
No one calls it that, but that's what I've taken to calling it. Humanity has progressed so far that most, if not all, of the "low-hanging fruit" of scientific discoveries has already been discovered, studied, and refined. There are plenty of things left to create and discover, but that will be done by teams of scientists working together. But it is not the same. Humans have a fascination with the number one, because it's one of the few numbers humans can conceptualize mentally. Teams of scientists don't have the same ring to it that "John Bale, M.D." does, and that got me to thinking if Einstein's theories would have penetrated pop culture as deeply if he worked closely with another scientist and they proposed their theories together. A large part of me thinks that it wouldn't have, because "Einstein & co." isn't as marketable psychologically as "Einstein". With one you can spin a story of team work and collaboration, but the other you can deify into a figure whose last name becomes synonymous with genius. Everyone alive is looking for a way to earn a footnote in the history books, and inventing some new math or new technology is an easy way to do it. Or is it? This is where I see the idolization aspects of American culture eating away at cultural progress. Think back to a few months ago when we captured the first ever photo of a black hole in space, and how quick the press was to assign credit to only one person for a good example on this.
Our society is addicted to technology, dependent on it even, and we're constantly pushing people to enter STEM to advance the fields, but we can't name the inventors of many of these technologies without looking it up. Cell phones? Internet? GPS? Wi-Fi? Artificial Intelligence, machine learning, and neural networks? Self-driving cars, voice recognition software, graphical user interfaces? A lot of this stuff expands past casual conversation and requires some real thought to work through, so when things get reduced to simplest terms it turns out that credit doesn't matter if it benefits humanity all the same whether the person knows your name or not. Maybe other scientists read your paper and give you credit, maybe your name hits the newspapers, maybe you win the pop culture lottery and people remember your name for longer than fifteen minutes. Most likely, you'll end your lunch break to get back to those open-ended, graduate level problems in your queue.
When it comes down to it, credit shouldn't matter and the discovery should stand as a testament to itself. But our society requires that you have clout in exchange for funds to continue existing research and start new research, and that begins with making a name for yourself. But it's hard to do that when most work is collaborative and your name never appears first on any of the work you do, and you don't get full credit for the work that you do. It's difficult to see the point in continuing to do what I do everyday when all of these "benefits to science" aren't benefiting my pocket or my resume. I've done some crazy impressive shit while people are waiting for the next Einstein to enter the field and do some crazy impressive shit, and it's almost as if people aren't looking for what they say they are.
It's twice as depressing knowing that yesterday someone gave a 45 minute talk casting doubt many of my clients have on the value of what I provide to the institution, as if I haven't spent five years of my life untangling 60+ TB of twenty seven of the most poorly managed big data sets I've ever laid eyes on.
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that's your mind telling you that you aren't busy enough. be careful not to idolize the person or your crush will crush you when you find out that who they are isn't who you thought they'd be.