Seimeisen

I'm so here for this! I'm digging all the studio snippets we've gotten on their Instagram. I'm still  d y i n g  for a release date and tracklist for ANGELS though.

I'm updating this to say that I texted him a couple days ago asking if we could talk soon only to get no response.
Today my coworker informed me that he just put on Facebook that he has a girlfriend... He never added me on any social media btw so I would have never known otherwise.
 
So if anyone reads this and is in a similar situation that I was in, please follow the advice in this thread and let go of the person, especially if they're unwilling to face you and talk. If there are so many red flags than pay attention to them and don't let yourself be blinded by how much you like the person.  You're worth more than that and deserve to be treated a lot better

I hate BP Record's phobia of dynamic range.

Kisaki apologizes

This much of a nosedive
 
 
 
 
 
Yoshiki x Avril collab
 
A US-made documentary on visual-kei that only discusses X, Gackt, Miyavi, and The GazettE with 0 mention of the indie scene or any other founding fathers / influencers. Endingo is interviewed
 
More of those visual-kei covers anime omnibuses spring up, in addition to ones where they cover Western acts. Dezert covers Metro Station, Soan Project Feat Mikiru from Dio cover Greenday, Dadaroma ""reinvent"" "Wreckingball" and the visual-kei facebook group tries their damndest to shill their effort. Kim Petras is not featured
 
More vkei x Drag Race cross pollination happens. RuPaul eventually says "Eroguro" and twitter creates discourse on how problematic the scene is due to the lack of Korean pop inclusion / they find out that 90's bands used swastikas as an aesthetic

The only song I've heard there is the 黒百合と影. I do recognise a few other band names though, just never got to listening to them.
 
Between The Buried And Me - Lost Perfection: a) Coulrophobia
Between The Buried And Me - Lost Perfection: b) Anablephobia
DIAURA - If
ザアザア - 雫
the GazettE - DISTRESS AND COMA
Variable Messiah - 転生の果てで
THE GAZETTE - LUCY
Plastic Tree - サーカス (Live Arrange Version)
DEATHGAZE - abyss [from THE CONTINUATION]
THE NOVEMBERS - 236745981
 
I! Was! Shook! That iTunes kept both parts of Lost Perfection together! Coulrophobia and 236745981 are the top two. I'm thinking about deleting DIAURA's If because it's kind of bland; their cover of endless loop is way better.

the three dark age covers are my favourite!!!

Wow does this take me back. I went through something quite similar two years ago.
 
......
 
You seem to be handling this better than I did...
and you've gotten further than I did
 
When the guy in my story stopped texting me, I got angry-sad about it, and whenever he'd come back, I'd think I'd have forgiven him, but then I'd get angry again, for the first year I had no idea how I felt about him as an individual, I totally flip-flopped. At the end of the year, I wanted to meet up with him and try to reconnect like you did, but then I saw a new guy in his Snapchat story, and it looked like they were being all cutesy and shit, which really bothered me. A week goes by, I stop kicking the air, delete him on social media, and declare hatred. Another year later, today, that hatred completely fizzles out into "I don't know her"
 
Enough of my rant, yes it's okay to ask if he's seeing someone else. As for continuing a relationship with him, definitely do not pursue dating this guy any further. Just don't! If you think you can be platonic friends with him, not resent him for being out of touch, and most importantly, stomach the sight of him being serious with someone else, go for it. And if you ever have the opportunity to, tell him about your feelings, at least for the sake of clearing the air. Be honest with him. However, if you have even the slightest problem with a strictly platonic friendship, drop his ass. If he can't make time for you, he doesn't deserve you. Plain and simple!

Wow does this take me back. I went through something quite similar two years ago.
 
......
 
You seem to be handling this better than I did...
and you've gotten further than I did
 
When the guy in my story stopped texting me, I got angry-sad about it, and whenever he'd come back, I'd think I'd have forgiven him, but then I'd get angry again, for the first year I had no idea how I felt about him as an individual, I totally flip-flopped. At the end of the year, I wanted to meet up with him and try to reconnect like you did, but then I saw a new guy in his Snapchat story, and it looked like they were being all cutesy and shit, which really bothered me. A week goes by, I stop kicking the air, delete him on social media, and declare hatred. Another year later, today, that hatred completely fizzles out into "I don't know her"
 
Enough of my rant, yes it's okay to ask if he's seeing someone else. As for continuing a relationship with him, definitely do not pursue dating this guy any further. Just don't! If you think you can be platonic friends with him, not resent him for being out of touch, and most importantly, stomach the sight of him being serious with someone else, go for it. And if you ever have the opportunity to, tell him about your feelings, at least for the sake of clearing the air. Be honest with him. However, if you have even the slightest problem with a strictly platonic friendship, drop his ass. If he can't make time for you, he doesn't deserve you. Plain and simple!

Wow does this take me back. I went through something quite similar two years ago.
 
......
 
You seem to be handling this better than I did...
and you've gotten further than I did
 
When the guy in my story stopped texting me, I got angry-sad about it, and whenever he'd come back, I'd think I'd have forgiven him, but then I'd get angry again, for the first year I had no idea how I felt about him as an individual, I totally flip-flopped. At the end of the year, I wanted to meet up with him and try to reconnect like you did, but then I saw a new guy in his Snapchat story, and it looked like they were being all cutesy and shit, which really bothered me. A week goes by, I stop kicking the air, delete him on social media, and declare hatred. Another year later, today, that hatred completely fizzles out into "I don't know her"
 
Enough of my rant, yes it's okay to ask if he's seeing someone else. As for continuing a relationship with him, definitely do not pursue dating this guy any further. Just don't! If you think you can be platonic friends with him, not resent him for being out of touch, and most importantly, stomach the sight of him being serious with someone else, go for it. And if you ever have the opportunity to, tell him about your feelings, at least for the sake of clearing the air. Be honest with him. However, if you have even the slightest problem with a strictly platonic friendship, drop his ass. If he can't make time for you, he doesn't deserve you. Plain and simple!

I usually don't make plans for Valentine's Day, because I've always been alone, and I still am, but because I have nothing going on that day, I thought I'd make plans. I think I'm gonna spend the day drinking an entire bottle of red wine, binge eating candy, and watching movies, ones that have little to no romance. And I might ignore everyone on social media who is in a relationship.
 
Or maybe I'll drink whiskey... or vodka... wine is great and all, but being wine drunk lasts FOREVER and it's fucking annoying.

Wow does this take me back. I went through something quite similar two years ago.
 
......
 
You seem to be handling this better than I did...
and you've gotten further than I did
 
When the guy in my story stopped texting me, I got angry-sad about it, and whenever he'd come back, I'd think I'd have forgiven him, but then I'd get angry again, for the first year I had no idea how I felt about him as an individual, I totally flip-flopped. At the end of the year, I wanted to meet up with him and try to reconnect like you did, but then I saw a new guy in his Snapchat story, and it looked like they were being all cutesy and shit, which really bothered me. A week goes by, I stop kicking the air, delete him on social media, and declare hatred. Another year later, today, that hatred completely fizzles out into "I don't know her"
 
Enough of my rant, yes it's okay to ask if he's seeing someone else. As for continuing a relationship with him, definitely do not pursue dating this guy any further. Just don't! If you think you can be platonic friends with him, not resent him for being out of touch, and most importantly, stomach the sight of him being serious with someone else, go for it. And if you ever have the opportunity to, tell him about your feelings, at least for the sake of clearing the air. Be honest with him. However, if you have even the slightest problem with a strictly platonic friendship, drop his ass. If he can't make time for you, he doesn't deserve you. Plain and simple!

maybe the real ANGELS is us, the fan's....

@Ultra Silvam Hi! I see that you are fairly new to MH, and so firstly, I'd like to greet you and officially welcome you to the site. Thank you for joining us here on MH, and furthermore, I appreciate you being open enough to share your experience with us.
 
To answer your question in general - no, there's absolutely nothing wrong with asking that question. That's generally something you'd want to establish prior to embarking on a relationship with anyone.
 
Now to address your situation. I'm going to be straight-up with you. I won't presume to give you any advice, but I will relay to you the truth as I see it, based on the information that you've provided. I apologize in advance if my comments seem harsh or insensitive, but I assure that is not my intention. I empathize with you because I've also been in similar circumstances before, and I know how it feels. So with that in mind, it's my hope that something I say will help you to avoid unnecessary heartache in the future.
 
There's no easy way to say this, but this guy is not looking for the same thing you're looking for. He said so from the jump:
 
This is all code for "I'm going to waste your fucking time". Two things to look at here.  #1: He said he "didn't mind" - not "I want to" - showing that he doesn't really care either way. That's NEVER a good basis by which to approach an intimate relationship. If he's not intentional, it's very likely that he's on some bullshit. #2: He said he "wasn't looking for anything serious". What does this mean? What's the point of entertaining a relationship if you're not going to be serious about it? He's basically telling you in so many words, "yeah, I don't mind hanging out and having sex with you, but don't expect me to commit to you". aka. He's going to waste your fucking time.
 
If your heart is important to you, it's absolutely worth guarding. It's not something that should just be handed out to anyone. You want to be with someone who is intentional and serious about guarding it. Not someone like "i don't really care either way", ya feel me?
 
Some more things to look at:
Words are something else, right? The right ones will make you feel all giddy inside and send you over the moon. Here's a general rule of thumb about people: Listen to them intently. Most people will tell you who they are without even realizing it. But words can also be deceptive. So more importantly than listening to people, you also have to observe their actions and see if they line up with their words.
 
Check this out. He tells you "he likes you" and reiterates the fact that "he isn't looking for anything serious", but then he proceeds to have "unexpected" sex with you? Many unexpected things happen in life, but sex is never one of them (unless it's rape).  Conventional wisdom won't tell you this, but contrary to popular belief - sex is actually quite serious. Let's examine your own words again:
This world will quickly sale you on the idea of 'casual sex', but I don't believe there is such a thing. And just because it's "the norm" doesn't mean it's functional. Here's why: Sex cannot be divorced from emotion, or family, or responsibility, or respect, or children, or love and so on. The idea of 'casual sex' would have you believe that it's just some standalone act done for fun and pleasure, but sex itself is innately intertwined to too many other critical components of life for that to be so. Your own emotions are a witness to this truth. So it's no wonder that you've developed such feelings for this guy as a result. You've engaged with him in a deeply intimate manner. But it's all good, don't beat yourself up about it. Just know that these things are bound to happen when being intimate with others. So you have to exercise due caution in this area. If a guy is willing to have sex with you, but is not willing to commit to you - what does that say about this guy? And what does it say about you that you'd allow such a guy to have sex with you? There's absolutely NOTHING wrong with having standards. In this world you'll need them.
 
Let's continue:
If I had to guess, "busy" is one of the biggest bullshit excuses ever used. Some people do get genuinely busy, but even if they do, they'll let you know that they're busy. You won't have to guess. Likewise, If someone is truly into you, you won't have to guess. Trust what your gut is telling you. You probably already know what the deal is, but whether you want to believe it or not is another story.
 
A bit more:
I'm going to address the text that I highlighted here:
 
It seems to be me that you're giving this guy way too much leeway to walk over you. If he can't be arsed to communicate with you regularly, what makes you think it will get any better down the road if you WERE to enter a relationship with this guy?
 
"I'll hang out with you, but I don't know when" - Damn, this guy must be the BUSIEST GUY IN THE WORLD HOLY SHIT!!!! His schedule is just THAT jammed pack that he doesn't know when he'll be able to kick it with you? Fuck outta here bro. This guys is on bullshit and is just stringing you along.
 
If a guy really likes you - he's going to MAKE time for you. It's as simple as that.
 
 
I'm really sorry that you're going through this, and you'll have to excuse my bluntness, but I think the real questions you should be asking is "why am I allowing myself to be treated like this?". "Why am I fawning after someone who has clearly demonstrated that they don't value me?". Seeking the answer to these questions will likely yield you better results. I believe you already know the answers to the questions you want to ask.
 
Now obviously what you choose to do is completely up to you. There's no harm in expressing your feelings to this guy, but based off of what you've told me so far, he seems highly unlikely to truly reciprocate.
 
Personally, I think you'd be setting yourself up for undue heartache and should just leave this guy alone before incurring further damage.  He's already made it clear where he stands - and several times at that. Furthermore, his actions have solidified that stance. Take heed to yourself, because I know from experience that we often get lost in the clouds and make the mistake of projecting our own needs, desires, and fantasies on to other people instead of looking directly at what's in front us, and facing reality. In doing so, we often break our own hearts.
 
Once again, I apologize if I was a bit too coarse with my words, but I do hope you can glean something from this. And if not, that's fine too. Whatever the case, I hope that you're able to learn from the situation - whatever the outcome - and move forward in a good direction.

New song is out. It's definitely different...
 
 

Uroboros remaster is poop

Ughhh, Chizuru isn’t that great of a song imo, I find it a bit boring and I skip it on Stacked Rubbish each time, I’d rather they surprised us with something energetic than a ballad 

deg themselves are fantastic, their fans are among one of, if not the worst out of any japanese band/group/musician  fandoms 

"OMG they are totally disbanding this time"
Seriously though 100% I want they to go as soft as possible. No screaming, no skank beats, no downtuned riffage, no exaggerated kyopera. Just pretty, wholesome music like "Higeki wa..." or "Namamekashiki...". The heavy stuff wore out its welcome.

""hiatus""
 
wow, such surprise, much shocking
 
If Tenten starts another band, I'm straight up ignoring them

Their hiatus will begin on 2019.05.30.
 
https://ameblo.jp/lack-co-official/entry-12435713522.html
 
Their final album 『離脱る』(Ridatsuru) will be released on 2019.03.27.
 
https://ameblo.jp/lack-co-official/entry-12435714012.html
 
TYPE A : 3240 yen
CD :
1.emergency
2.色眼鏡 色彩皆無(Iromegane shikisai kaimu)
3.心理学(火花散らしたら)(Shinri-gaku (hibana chirashitara)
4.幽囚谷のバッタ(Yûshû koku no batta)
5.人間博覧会(Ningen hakurankai)
6.溝鼠讃歌(Dobunezumi sanka)
7.Camaro69′
8.芸学(白昼夢) (Geikaku (hakuchû mu)
9.農学(本当の自分の物にナッテイナイ物) (Nôgaku (hontô no jibun no mono ni naitteinai)
10.数の原理(Kazu no genri)
11.マグロ(Maguro)
12.鶴の恩返し(Tsuru no ongaeshi)
13.教育(Kyôiku)
 
TYPE B : 3240 yen
CD :
1.切断(Setsudan) 
2.玩具眼鏡 Googly eyes (Gangu megane)
3.ほろ苦ィ。(Honroiga i)
4.液体(Ekitai) 
5.葬学(循環) (Sô gaku (junkai)
6.百足(Mukade)
7.雨の怪虫(Ame no kai chû)
8.幸甚に存じます。(Kôjin ni zonjimasu)
9.滅亡のブルース(Metsubô no blues)
10.時間学(PM5:00) (Jikan gaku)
11.青春狂騒曲(Seishun kyôsô kyoku)
12.つまらぬRock BANDに人生捧げないで(Tsumara nu Rock BAND ni jinsei sasagenai de)
13.紫外線眼鏡 終焉詐欺(Shigai sen kagami shûen sagi)

don't forget the ~mistresses~ who act all holy and mighty and bitch at anyone who interacts with them. not to mention when they take requests, they cast you aside because you weren't ~specific~ enough in your message
 
you know who you are