Bear 1817 Posted June 15, 2017 8 hours ago, K-x-H said: To put this really blunt, 2017 ruined my year this fucking year, because of all the conflicts and issues i'm facing right now in RL, my year in this year is also good because of some of the other things that makes me really so happy, and this is why my year within this year is both good and bad the same time. so hopefully..... i am betting that 2018 will be more of a better year than this year i hope. Xzibit, is that you? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Lestat 2167 Posted June 15, 2017 Hoping to leave these horrible two weeks behind me soon. I have pretty much been in a constant state of anxiety (fight or flight phenomenon) and the anxiety has turned physically on my throat. I constantly feel like I am being choked, making it hard to breathe which causes me to hyperventilate, which continues the cycle. I lost 2kgs already because it's very comfortable to eat too. I had to start medication to help keep the anxiety in check too, something I never dared to imagine hearing all the horror stories about anti-depressants. It's difficult to even leave the house and visit a store at this point. Ever since I officially got diagnosed with autism last year I've been under layers of stress due to multitudes of psychiatric appointments and I have developed symptoms I never previously struggled with due to said stress. Honestly, I wish I could go back to the time before the diagnosis, my only issue back then was that it was difficult –or rather impossible– for me to find or hold a job. I barely know how to deal with all of this. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Zeus 7997 Posted June 15, 2017 3 hours ago, Lestat said: Hoping to leave these horrible two weeks behind me soon. I have pretty much been in a constant state of anxiety (fight or flight phenomenon) and the anxiety has turned physically on my throat. I constantly feel like I am being choked, making it hard to breathe which causes me to hyperventilate, which continues the cycle. I lost 2kgs already because it's very comfortable to eat too. I had to start medication to help keep the anxiety in check too, something I never dared to imagine hearing all the horror stories about anti-depressants. It's difficult to even leave the house and visit a store at this point. Ever since I officially got diagnosed with autism last year I've been under layers of stress due to multitudes of psychiatric appointments and I have developed symptoms I never previously struggled with due to said stress. Honestly, I wish I could go back to the time before the diagnosis, my only issue back then was that it was difficult –or rather impossible– for me to find or hold a job. I barely know how to deal with all of this. But you are still here, so you'll find a way. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JukaForever 758 Posted June 16, 2017 Why the hell does cheerios tastes sweeter with regular milk as opposed chocolate milk? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
itsukoii 1300 Posted June 16, 2017 was supposed to go to this big thing today for school, but since it's supposed to rain all of my friends cancelled, so i did too. i didn't wanna go, and i'm happy i don't have to. but i woke up, got outta bed, got dressed, and brushed my teeth only to find out THEN that nobody was going. so now i'm back in bed but won't be able to fall back to sleep because i've already been awake for too long... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ArtFart 375 Posted June 17, 2017 Found a Tenacious D CD while out with my mom today. I hope my dad doesn't have it already cause it's now his Father's Day present lol I'm jealous really cause I like Tenacious D lol 1 itsukoii reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
platy 3018 Posted June 17, 2017 Not being able to see friends or even have a nice day out coz no money. I thought I'd be able to have a fun summer after so long but wake up everyday with financial stress on my head. I have a holiday booked for September and I need to save up for that or I won't be able to do anything except for being stuck in a hillbilly town while my debt to the bank deepens. I know it's temporary bad times but ughhh I wanna have a year where I don't have to stress out about anything. 1 PsychoΔelica reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nekkichi 6043 Posted June 17, 2017 (edited) On 6/16/2017 at 0:22 AM, Lestat said: hearing all the horror stories about anti-depressants. you're not necessarily put on anti-depressants for anxiety, especially the kind you're describing, however having not heard the horrorz in question and being on various activating anti-depressants for good part of past six years or so (I'm not tracking time at this point already) and rotating them once in a while, I'd take the medicated giving no fucks vegetable state that I had on zoloft over my ~natural~ God-given zonked out non-vitality. that being said I'm not meaning to discourage, there's a very recent very good write-up on someone who really went into a better place on a Rx that sucked entirely in my case — https://www.nytimes.com/2017/06/06/opinion/antidepressants-depression-creativity.html?_r=0 I'm not sure how much having autism affects the way meds work at all, antidepressants are in a very gray area because often times their effects are not entirely understood, they just work for straightening specific brain-related things. Edited June 17, 2017 by nekkichi 1 Zeus reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Pretsy 1343 Posted June 18, 2017 (edited) Why do certain people become so fixated on this idea of "ugh bed wenches" or "ugh coal burners" whenever there are otherwise "unexpected" dating choices in their circles? Y'all people who admit thinking and stating them out loud should just idk, deal better with your emotional outburts or complexes that made you do this BS - or you will never be "the" friend nor "a" friend for that matter if you insist. Edited June 18, 2017 by Alroy Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ArtFart 375 Posted June 19, 2017 3lbs weights don't feel that heavy until you lift them for 15 minutes. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
itsukoii 1300 Posted June 19, 2017 tfw u wanna get rid of ur bangs after years of having them but ure not confident enough... plus u still wanna look edgy... but how do look edgy without bangs... ?? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
YuyoDrift 1540 Posted June 19, 2017 If Yiruma doesn't play "When the Love Falls", or anything else besides "River Flows Into You" from First Love at his concert, I'm going to kill him. I don't give a fuck about all the Twilight humpers and their BS, I actually want to see an impressive performance, so you better not half-ass it. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JukaForever 758 Posted June 20, 2017 What is up with people going to a Japanese restaurant and specifically asking for miso soup? The thing is complementary .... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ArtFart 375 Posted June 20, 2017 The shit hit the fan at work. And I get to be the only one to deal with my hella drama filled manager today. I wonder if today will be the day I just quit working there? I love waking up panicking every morning I go to work. It's so so nice to be in such a hostile work environment. Incredibly unprofessional too. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nekkichi 6043 Posted June 20, 2017 TIL 1 suji reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
platy 3018 Posted June 22, 2017 My sciatic nerve pain has got to a point were I'm currently unable to move from the position I've been in for the past few hours or I'll be in physical/mental agony. I Don't know how to deal with this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
violetchain 912 Posted June 22, 2017 No one will ever know. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ArtFart 375 Posted June 22, 2017 (edited) Guess who got a new job at a bakery that will actually really try to work with my school schedule! Time to put my two weeks notice in at my current job, that will be fun.... Edited June 22, 2017 by ArtFart 1 Biopanda reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
doombox 4421 Posted June 23, 2017 Every time I see a post about Sonic Death Monkey I think of this. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ShTon 268 Posted June 23, 2017 ^^^ I just started listening to them and now I see them mentioned everywhere. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nekkichi 6043 Posted June 23, 2017 I'm just catching up on britney's bizzare promotion for that album from 2013, why doesn't she do anything like that anymore Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
plastic_rainbow 2162 Posted June 23, 2017 saw the thickest fog ever early in the morning. wish i could've taken some photos but i was on my way to work.... :/ Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ArtFart 375 Posted June 25, 2017 Went to the ER and got a CT scan for the first time ever lol just really bad migraines or cluster headaches. I now have temp medication till I go see a brain doctor and get an actual prescription to help the headaches. I also ran into one of my mom's old friends while I was there, so this was an interesting night! 1 platy reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
plastic_rainbow 2162 Posted June 25, 2017 OMGGGGGG they brought back old school pura (except for kenken tho). wish i had the chance to attend this live T^T 2 Jigsaw9 and platy reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites