Bear 1817 Posted February 21, 2017 16 hours ago, patientZERO said: I wish I could have a job that lets me chill and play video games! I don't always get to chill though. After all, I am working 1on1 with a 6 year old kid diagnosed with autism and ADHD, and they've also seen signs of epiletic activity in his brain. So it's usually a bit more action during my days when it's regular school. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
emmny 4139 Posted February 21, 2017 no1 gets how much i love tomo like its so embarassing I HAVE A BOYFRIEND BUT TOMO IS MY BOYFRIEND Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aferni 2381 Posted February 21, 2017 MH has a hilarious community. 1 Takadanobabaalien reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
patientZERO 1066 Posted February 21, 2017 8 hours ago, Bear said: I don't always get to chill though. After all, I am working 1on1 with a 6 year old kid diagnosed with autism and ADHD, and they've also seen signs of epiletic activity in his brain. So it's usually a bit more action during my days when it's regular school. Oh wow. That's incredible! Not everyone can do that type of work. I didn't mean to downplay what you do. I just figured it was like an office job or something that let you chill when things got slow or something. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tokage 5930 Posted February 21, 2017 i had like a pretty fucked up case of depersonalization last night just seemingly totally out of the blue and im still vaguely shook by it tbh Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
saishuu 3220 Posted February 21, 2017 14 minutes ago, Tokage said: i had like a pretty fucked up case of depersonalization last night just seemingly totally out of the blue and im still vaguely shook by it tbh ugh, depersonalization is the most fucked up thing I've ever experienced ): hope you're feeling better Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tokage 5930 Posted February 21, 2017 (edited) 6 minutes ago, saishuu said: ugh, depersonalization is the most fucked up thing I've ever experienced ): hope you're feeling better It was messed up as hell, felt like there was some sort of film of white noise in between myself and my surroundings, and I felt as if my consciousness was just somehow... fluttering about somewhere above my head, but not inside myself. Trying to move felt like being stuck neck-deep in sand, or like one of those dreams where you try to run from something but you keep moving in place. Felt like waking up at a stranger's house out of the blue.. Disorientation, alienation, that sort of thing. I can't even say I was panicked or anything, cuz I barely felt anything at all. I've had some minor instances of disassociation in the past (and I'm pretty sure a lot of people have in some form) but never to this extent.. At least I'm okay for now, but it still startled me Edited February 21, 2017 by Tokage Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
saishuu 3220 Posted February 21, 2017 15 minutes ago, Tokage said: It was messed up as hell, felt like there was some sort of film of white noise in between myself and my surroundings, and I felt as if my consciousness was just somehow... fluttering about somewhere above my head, but not inside myself. Trying to move felt like being stuck neck-deep in sand, or like one of those dreams where you try to run from something but you keep moving in place. Felt like waking up at a stranger's house out of the blue.. Disorientation, alienation, that sort of thing. I can't even say I was panicked or anything, cuz I barely felt anything at all. I've had some minor instances of disassociation in the past (and I'm pretty sure a lot of people have in some form) but never to this extent.. At least I'm okay for now, but it still startled me yep, that's depersonalization. that's exactly like it feels and it's scary as fuck during and after because you feel like you're arrested inside your head, feeling like someone's body is taking control of your actions. I went weeks feeling like that last year and it was not pretty. I even avoided mirrors at some point because I could not recognize myself at all. I usually feel like this during a big depressive episode, when it's like the dissociation is not enough and depersonalization is the next level, but thankfully I haven't had one in a while now. 1 Tokage reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tokage 5930 Posted February 21, 2017 17 minutes ago, saishuu said: yep, that's depersonalization. that's exactly like it feels and it's scary as fuck during and after because you feel like you're arrested inside your head, feeling like someone's body is taking control of your actions. I went weeks feeling like that last year and it was not pretty. I even avoided mirrors at some point because I could not recognize myself at all. I usually feel like this during a big depressive episode, when it's like the dissociation is not enough and depersonalization is the next level, but thankfully I haven't had one in a while now. I hope it won't get to that point where I'll have to start avoiding mirrors and such and it'll just remain a 'one time only'-type of thing tbh, but well, you never know with The Mental Bullshit(tm). I admittedly have felt like my headspace's kind of taking a wrong turn again lately & I've been kind of stressed out, so I guess maybe that's what triggered it for me Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
saishuu 3220 Posted February 21, 2017 14 minutes ago, Tokage said: I hope it won't get to that point where I'll have to start avoiding mirrors and such and it'll just remain a 'one time only'-type of thing tbh, but well, you never know with The Mental Bullshit(tm). I admittedly have felt like my headspace's kind of taking a wrong turn again lately & I've been kind of stressed out, so I guess maybe that's what triggered it for me seriously hope you don't have to experience it again, shit's terrifying. may sound cliche, but take care, man. 1 Tokage reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
patientZERO 1066 Posted February 22, 2017 Who would have guessed that the most racist person I would meet in my life would be a Korean woman ... and she's my instructor and my graduation resides in her hands. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Pretsy 1343 Posted February 22, 2017 (edited) 16 hours ago, patientZERO said: Who would have guessed that the most racist person I would meet in my life would be a Korean woman ... and she's my instructor and my graduation resides in her hands. Maybe you should not let your discoveries escalate to the point of typical "All [any ethnicity here] are racists" though? Her perceptions are her own issue, but when it comes to you, such obstacle - or challenge, if you will - provides more opportunities in regards to how you prove your skills' worth (and your worth if we stretch it a lil bit). Don't let yourself down because of this: chin up, you will definitely graduate. Just acknowledge that if you keep your cool and do your thing with some devotion, you will be always smarter than her in that sense. Most people that face racism should acknowledge that "handle" somewhere around them exists - something they can grasp onto to reach up and further from the cesspool of hate that victims of perceived racism usually resort to as the means of self-defense. Don't be like them (there are some in MH unfortunately) Edited February 22, 2017 by Alroy 2 platy and patientZERO reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
patientZERO 1066 Posted February 22, 2017 36 minutes ago, Carmelzors said: Maybe you should not let your discoveries escalate to the point of typical "All [any ethnicity here] are racists" though? Her perceptions are her own issue, but when it comes to you, such obstacle - or challenge, if you will - provides more opportunities in regards to how you prove your skills' worth (and your worth if we stretch it a lil bit). Don't let yourself down because of this: chin up, you will definitely graduate. Just acknowledge that if you keep your cool and do your thing with some devotion, you will be always smarter than her in that sense. Most people that face racism should acknowledge that "handle" somewhere around them exists - something they can grasp onto to reach up and further from the cesspool of hate that victims of perceived racism usually resort to as the means of self-defense. Don't be like them (there are some in MH unfortunately) Oh, I definitely won't resort to "all Koreans are racists," in fact, quite the opposite. I don't think that an entire ethnicity is racist, but it just surprised me that a person of her stature would constantly remind me that I'm a white male (as if I didn't already know) and how that means when studying another culture. Pretty much, she told me that my thesis paper proposal was bullshit because I was born to caucasian parents and with a penis. Because I had any choice in that matter. I'm really just frustrated because my paper's grading pretty much presides in personal opinion and I feel that since she's already decided to knock me down a peg based on my race and gender, little of what I say about my chosen subject will do anything to impress her. I honestly thank you for your comments, though. I legit have nobody to talk to about them because I fear pissing off someone higher up and them tanking my GPA or whatever. I just can't wait until teacher evaluations roll around. 1 Pretsy reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Delkmiroph 1649 Posted February 23, 2017 (edited) New metal-kei band has formed lol The release cover art PV What do u think @Jigsaw9? Edited February 23, 2017 by Delkmiroph 2 suji and platy reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
suji 8317 Posted February 23, 2017 hoooooooooooo lawd... 1 itsukoii reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Komorebi 2193 Posted February 23, 2017 The HeviSaurus are actually really good, I listen to them XDDD Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
orange~ 387 Posted February 23, 2017 Few people outside Finland know that there is actually another big contender in dinosaur-kei: SauruXet They happen to look exactly the same as HeviSaurus, because why not? 4 Chi, Zeus, Delkmiroph and 1 other reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
patientZERO 1066 Posted February 23, 2017 Happy birthday NEW mother fucker. Really Grieva? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tokage 5930 Posted February 24, 2017 thats what you're legally obliged yell straight into your newborn child's face as it pops out of its mother's vag, otherwise the doctors instantly put it up for adoption 7 cvltic, AliceParanoid, itsukoii and 4 others reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
patientZERO 1066 Posted February 24, 2017 In the same sing-yell-talk way they do in the song? It sounds so much like ISABELLE. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nekkichi 6043 Posted February 24, 2017 2017 goals 2 suji and saishuu reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aferni 2381 Posted February 24, 2017 Looks like someones not leaving the house today <3 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
YuyoDrift 1540 Posted February 24, 2017 I sometimes wonder: At what point does a place have to get, before they would even consider contacting me about my offer? Perhaps they are afraid of what I'd do? Could they be taking it as some form of intimidation? Maybe they believe I am so brash, that not being apathetic as they are is seen as wrong. Oh well I guess. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
platy 3018 Posted February 24, 2017 Holy shit hevisaurus is the best visual kei band I discovered in 2017 1 Koike reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
