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Wow, I wrote these so long ago I don't even remember writing them. 😅 Still good songs tho. And nice to finally see the topic up! 白いゼラニウム is also one of my favorites. Since the time of writing these I think I would also add 嫣然 to the list~ Btw the artwork used in the Morphine #3 video was done by me, thanks for not asking me first or giving credit.....

don't know if i said this before, but i really love your simple and clean style! looking at your art feels very refreshing~

A year ago, heck maybe even a few months ago, I might've said something edgy like "listening to sad music", but nah I'm doing better now (trying to anyway). I try to focus on things that make me happy and surround myself with things that make me happy. It can be anything, no matter how silly other people may think it is. And it really might sound silly because right now I'm addicted to plushies and cute/pretty things that brighten up my day. I want to surround myself in them, and I also want to try planting flowers in my apartment/patio when it gets warmer. I lived in my parent's basement for about a year and half before moving into my current apartment. The ceiling was warping, there were mice inside the walls, half the room was storage for my family, and seeing a bug (sometimes dead) was a common occurrence. I'm happy I got out of there. I mean, I've had other things in the past that f'ed me up, but that living experience was rather awful (honestly, living at my parent's was always awful). Ofc, I will still cry sometimes depending on what I'm sad about, but right now buying things for my new apartment and building a comfy living space makes me really happy. 😊 Also, cutting toxic and abusive people out of your life is really important, if you can. They will drain you and deteriorate your health horribly, especially when you're at your low. If you cannot cut them off, set your boundaries and distance yourself from them as much as you can. Hold on to those who care about you and who will support you in everything you do because you can only do so much on your own. Some people might think they can take care of themselves on their own, but the truth is, sometimes we all need a little help and support from others and that's okay! If you don't have anyone, you will find them someday! I don't know if I consider anyone IRL as someone like that, one of them lives faraway, and I have another friend in town but I think I made it uncomfortable for her several times when I was really down and broken, and I feel bad about that........but as I said before, I'm trying to do better. I do love all of my online friends tho and am happy to have them! ❤️ Please take good care of yourself!

well, after doing some digging here's the list i came up with, there were quite a few i had forgotten about. as always, i'm separating vk and j-indie. i surprisingly had a lot of s/t favorites on the j-indie end. 9GOATS BLACK OUT - TANATOS baroque - peur et puella baroque - sin division cocklobin - iris cocklobin - chronus Dezert - Title Nashi gibkiy gibkiy gibkiy - In incontinence the god and death stars - Dawn of the God (all of their albums were great but i prob listened to this one the most) Kannivalism - helios kebyou - dokushin my bacteria heat island - mimic Plastic Tree - Ammonite Plastic Tree - Ink ...silence - dreamer dreamer ...silence - psycho lens Asunojokei - A bird in the fault Asunojokei - Awakening Behind the Shadow Drops - Harmonic the dresscodes - s/t dummy-xD - s/t for example you sell the sea - s/t FOX LOCO PHANTOM - garden FOX LOCO PHANTOM - dare ga tame ni oto wa naru Ling tosite sigure - still a sigure virgin? Ling tosite sigure - I'mperfect THE NOVEMBERS - to (melt into) THE NOVEMBERS - Rhapsody in Beauty qujaku - pretty much everything by them PELICAN FANCLUB - s/t SHISHAMO - s/t THE TEENAGE KISSERS - Virgin Field World's End Girlfriend - Last Waltz edit: whoops, apparently got the year wrong on one of them....

whoaa long time no photo of me. just playing with some makeup cuz it's halloween. feeling very vk 😎

sounds pretty good and the new look is very nice~

@Gesu This may vary depending on where you live or your situation, but if you're struggling financially and need the income I'd say lower your standards and take whatever job you can. Even if you're not, your first job most likely won't be anything worth staying at anyway. All my past jobs have pretty much been crap, with my first job at some food manufacturer right when I got out of high school. I've also done dishwashing, housekeeping, and a custodian job to name a few....If you don't mind customer service/talking to people you may have more options. My current job is not even something I'm entirely proud of, but it's one of the better jobs I've had that helps pay the bills/school tuition, and gives me a flexible enough schedule to work on things on the side. If you can't get a job because you need 'experience' you could also try volunteering to build some. Anyway, like ghost said, it's tough, but I wish you the best of luck!

Yu-dai from SEX-ANDROID

was not expecting this news at all....he's one of my favorite vocalists of all time 😢 i get the feeling that he'll come back someday and maybe a good rest is all he needs. whatever he plans to do from now on, i wish him all the best~

Been a long time since I wrote in this topic! Here are some stuff I've been trying. Btw @platy sorry to hear that the Soonjung toner didn't work out for you! I went back to it some time ago and I think it's better suited for the evening if you want extra moisture/hydration. Otherwise, you can also use it for the rest of your body if you're just trying to use it up, haha. Cosrx Aloe Soothing Sun Cream - Not currently using this but I loved it during the colder winter months. It's moisturizing enough that I can just skip my moisturizer and apply this on! (drier skin types may differ tho) Klairs Supple Preparation Unscented Toner - Received this from my friend who isn't using it anymore and I'm in LOVE with the serum-y texture. It makes me face feel so plump. I've been using it for a while and don't know if it's actually doing anything anymore though lol. I think I want to try other kinds of serums/essences after I finish this. Otherwise it's still a good basic toner and I may consider repurchasing it because I do like to keep my routine minimal and simple. The downside is that it's a bit more pricey than I thought. Hanskin PHA Cleansing Oil - I've been alternating this one with my Kose deep cleansing oil and I like how light it feels. It's also very easy to wash off and works well as a light exfoliator with PHA in it (a much gentler form of chemical exfoliant compared to AHA and BHA). Even though it's rather gentle I still avoid using it daily because my skin gets angry fast, haha. The Ordinary Niacinamide + Zinc - Finally got around to trying one of their products! I thought I'd try this one out to control my oil/sebum production but sadly I don't think it's working. My skin is just that oily....especially during the summer months. Only thing I've noticed with this so far is that it has made me face feel really smooth~ I'm not applying a lot of it though so that may be hindering some of the results, but I like to be cautious whenever I'm trying a new product so I apply very little at first. I'm actually mixing this one with the Klairs supple toner, which I mentioned above, and I like how that's been working out. Make p:rem Safe me. Relief Moisture Cleansing Foam - My friend received a sample version of this foaming cleanser from a haul and decided to give it to me. I've been using it once a week only because foaming cleansers tend to dry out my skin fast, but they're still great for a deeper cleanse after a long week. This one's the type where you have to foam it up yourselves with your hands or a foaming net, which is rather annoying. It also has a slight shampoo/soapy scent but nothing too overpowering. Once I foam it up I apply it on my face for only about 3-5 seconds and rinse it off quick. Any longer and I feel like I might be overdoing it. Overall, it's just an okay cleanser, I would like something gentler. The only good thing about it is that it does seem to make my face feel pretty smooth. Canmake Mermaid Skin Gel UV - Okay, I'll be honest, I bought this sunscreen for the cute packaging (I have a thing for mermaids too) and was hoping that it would work out for me, but it didn't lol. It made me feel greasy and just felt a bit heavy. I think I'll try it again in the colder winter months and see if that'll work better for me. Also, there are two types for this sunscreen, one is a white type for brightening your face, in Japan they call it 'tone up' which kinda works like foundation to cover blemishes, the other type is a clear type, which basically means without the foundation properties. I bought the clear type. Now for some shampoo~ Shiseido Tsubaki Smooth Anti-Frizz (pink) - I bought this a while ago and loved how smooth it made my hair feel! Only downside is that the fragrance is too flowery and overpowering so I decided try something else after emptying it. I bought the trial set version btw, which was a good enough amount for my short hair to last maybe half a year. I hate how shampoos always come in large bottles.... HMENZ Shampoo and Conditioner - Thought I'd try a mens shampoo this time around to avoid the strong flowery scent, but I do not like this one at all. It feels like the cheap drug store shampoos I've used in the past that never made my hair feel good and always caused my hair to frizz. It's a Japanese brand too so I thought the quality would still be good (japanese shampoos have always worked well for me), but it is not. I'm currently trying to use as much of it as I can before throwing it out so it's a good thing that it comes in small bottle, but it was also pretty damn expensive. I think I will just go back to the flowery scented Japanese shampoos I've tried in the past.... I wanted to mention a bit about some fashion/clothing but this post has gotten long enough. 😓

Top 5 is pretty hard to choose! There's a lot that I enjoy depending on my mood/genre and I just started delving more into old 80s anime in recent years, including other classic stuff that I missed. DBZ and Sailor Moon were my first anime, and Cardcaptor Sakura was a childhood favorite that I do really still love ngl (the clear card-hen was absolute shit tho). Anyway, I'm gonna list by series and movies too cuz there's quite a few movies that I enjoy. Series: (stuff that I've at least watched twice) Mushishi Death Note Saraiya Goyou Aoi Bungaku Series Serial Experiments Lain Movies: Perfect Blue Spirited Away Mind Game Vampire Hunter D (2000) Koe no Katachi Honorable Mentions: Monogatari Series, Kemonozume, Gankutsuou, Monster, Ping Pong the Animation, Elfen Lied, The Tatami Galaxy, Boogiepop Phantom, Kino no Tabi (2003)

i mean, it's mostly just some of my favorite vk songs i've listened to over the years, nothing really special lol. it's a really long list, and i didn't even include everything i wanted, but if you're still interested i can maybe send the playlist to you. not doing this to impress someone at all, just love sharing music

compiling a vk playlist for a friend for when i visit but so many to choose from.......she's not very familiar with vk except for some bands that were big in mid 00s so i have no idea what she likes lol. don't think she listens to a whole lot of heavy music either for that matter so hopefully there will be something that she likes.

Xaa-Xaa has been making some increasingly interesting PVs! I enjoyed their recent one too! I was pretty crazy with PVs back then....even made a ton of gifs lol. There's a lot I can list just out of pure nostalgia. I feel like most PVs these days seem rather generic with little story. Also, I miss those fun oshare kei pvs when all the members were just having fun and fooling around? Some not so old favorites Not VK but I just remember liking the aesthetic/concept in this one a lot Also, why do I feel like a similar topic was already made?

I don't update here anymore lol, but I recently drew a fanart of Lime from Kizu and thought people here might be interested. ^^ Done in watercolor on mixed media paper. I'm also taking commissions in this kind of style if anyone's interested......Check here for more info.