karai · ebi

Being from a deep south state I can relate. Though I've only managed to have one casual LDR for about a year, but when he moved to Japan we decided the time difference was too much and he wanted to see how guys were there. So RIP that lol. After that I spend all my time alone. I do have a best friend I've known since pre-K, but aside from past jokes we have absolutely nothing in common in interests or aspirations or anything at all.
 
What I learned to accept was the solitude, and my advice is to never go out looking to force friendship or even acquaintanceship. Chances are both parties will be very irritated after awhile and it won't be a fulfilling experience. It seems that the people who will want to hang around or chat casually will come to you, when you're just doing your own thing, it's best for it to happen naturally even if it's rare. (For instance my ex started out as someone I hung with every night on an MMO, thought he was just some rando I'd never see again, but eventually then he wanted to know me more and we moved to things like skype and LINE.)
I'm not sure how or if it's even possible in these areas to just go outside and 'make' a friend lol, and I hear Utah can be a lot like the deep southern states too? Lot of Mormons or something. I've seen people do it but when I listen to them talk it's so superficial it makes me tired.
 
I think it's not worth bothering with if you can't be yourself and share your interests. Sorry not too good at organizing my thoughts, but I think if you stop thinking about it too much then eventually people will come to you when you don't expect it, be online or offline...(usually online lol)
 

Being from a deep south state I can relate. Though I've only managed to have one casual LDR for about a year, but when he moved to Japan we decided the time difference was too much and he wanted to see how guys were there. So RIP that lol. After that I spend all my time alone. I do have a best friend I've known since pre-K, but aside from past jokes we have absolutely nothing in common in interests or aspirations or anything at all.
 
What I learned to accept was the solitude, and my advice is to never go out looking to force friendship or even acquaintanceship. Chances are both parties will be very irritated after awhile and it won't be a fulfilling experience. It seems that the people who will want to hang around or chat casually will come to you, when you're just doing your own thing, it's best for it to happen naturally even if it's rare. (For instance my ex started out as someone I hung with every night on an MMO, thought he was just some rando I'd never see again, but eventually then he wanted to know me more and we moved to things like skype and LINE.)
I'm not sure how or if it's even possible in these areas to just go outside and 'make' a friend lol, and I hear Utah can be a lot like the deep southern states too? Lot of Mormons or something. I've seen people do it but when I listen to them talk it's so superficial it makes me tired.
 
I think it's not worth bothering with if you can't be yourself and share your interests. Sorry not too good at organizing my thoughts, but I think if you stop thinking about it too much then eventually people will come to you when you don't expect it, be online or offline...(usually online lol)
 

Well, I come from a slightly different spot on this topic. Also, it's kinda rambly, I'm sorry.
 
While younger I used to live in a mentally devastating household and that left me with social anxiety and completely closing myself in. Any form of escapism, be it  music, books, games, and later writing and photography were my only solace. So, that equals, nearly no friends or other serious relationships.
 
The person that I am now, is one that has overcome those anxiety issues. Well at least a slight bit, now that I have at least a few people I can trust completely. What helped me, was standing on my own feet at a young age (compared to the norm), own place, job as a bartender (later in sales) and further fuelling myself with things I loved doing while finding new ambitions to strive towards. And while it can be somewhat difficult to catch up to those 20 years of socializing that others had, I no longer care, I give time to people I want and when I want. You seem to cling to what you have, even though you aren't happy with it. People who can't ever be bothered to listen to their friends are meant to be cut off, they aren't worth your time...it might seem harsh, but they don't seem to make you happy.
 
The one major thing I suggest doing is reaching out to your best friend...I really don't know on what terms you have decided to end the friendship, but it might be something to help. 
 
Also, definitely don't force the new relationships that you are building up just for the sake of having friends, it's selfish. I'm not saying to stop socializing, but laying out all your baggage and niche hobbies usually scares people  I know damn well, since I've been there
 
 
Bottom line, what I'm getting at, is that you should lean on the things you love to do, find new hobbies with some kind of artistic expression, take up sports, (all these things come with the added bonus of other people doing them, too, you know, same interests, etc.) lean on your boyfriend, I dunno, anything to keep you from dwelling on the things that depress you and drag you down.
 
I hope it'll get better for you. Also, feel free to message me any time

This could be 3 things. It could be:
 
1. An art project
2. Tsuzuku and Koichi release a sponsor me tape to join a skateboarding team
3. Tsuzuku does some p i a n o 

Please be heavy 

Well,I said that I wanted to hear something different from the usual MEJIBRAY, but that teaser was "too cute", look like those kpop idols,and I'm afraid that this turned out in boring pop music.but koichi and tzk are great,so I guess I trust in these guys to bring something really refreshing to the table, since they adopted this "starting over" vibe

Webiste : http://nakimushi.site/

japanese country music exists, yall
 
 

I now understand @Aferni's post of listening to ピンクマリオネット on repeat 32487h times, can't believe I went so long without listening to this.

My cousin has hooked me up with a cool venom collab at a con, if all things go well. It's all new to me never being a fan artist, but so long as I'm still drawing monsters it's all good ┌(┌゜⊿＾)┐
Still working wip

Fairy's blood - drinking this will grant you the ability to control your dreams.

Not really art but I didn't want to bump the artist thread for false hope.
Finally put a string together to hang up (almost) all the Mei cheki...not sure what I'll do when I get more, maybe under my key collection lol.

Since this is my first collaboration to this sub-forum, I wanted to gift you all with these lyrics, which make this song a true masterpiece of visual kei Engrish.
 
 
Text:
 
Hello shitty pigs
I'm tired of looking at your face everyday
Can't laugh anymore
No point of this child war
I'll just resist with my toy gun
Hello shitty pigs
Your name is fucking pigs
Shit
 
You make everything fucking worth
Racism? Everything depends on the timing
Lip service makes me fucking sick
Hello shitty pigs
My name is destroy
 
What the fuck
Theres a phone on his head
I have no idea what to say
But maybe its a vague there
If so, I won't say anything
 
Hello shitty pigs
You don't deserve to fucking eat
I'm staggered to shit of a golden fish that begs on you
 
If you wanna unite the people, just follow me
Cuz I'm the motherfucking president
 
Hey!! Money whats your fucking name?
Pig!!
What did you say. Hey!
I'm fucking black pig!!
Hey!! Money whats your fucking name?
Pig!!
What did you say. Hey!
I'm fucking black pig!!
 
Fuck this shit
 
What the fuck
Theres a phone on his head
I have no idea what to say
But maybe its a vague there
If so, I won't say anything
 
Hello shitty pigs
You don't deserve to fucking eat
I'm staggered to shit of a golden fish that begs on you
 
If you wanna unite the people, just follow me
Cuz I'm the president
Are you ready motherfuckers!!?
Bounce bounce bounce!!
 
Hey!! Money whats your fucking name?
Pig!!
What did you say. Hey!
I'm fucking black pig!!
Hey!! Money whats your fucking name?
Pig!!
What did you say. Hey!
I'm fucking black pig!!
 
Fuck!!
 
Let's march cheerfully today
Firmly align your feet
So there is not a slight gap
Hello shitty fucking pigs
 
Pig that can't fly should die
Pig that can't fly should die
Pig that can't fly should die
 
 
Credits: the band, for making the text available on the lyric video, and me, for transcribing it

they look GOOD tho

I liked the song Tobiori-Kun better. But hopefully they'll have more songs like that

Well it's been two months. I should've put a wager on this

They are totally out of place! XD To be placed between au revoir and le ciel on the track list is so weird xD 

Paraphrase of a comment I've seen on several vids. of his: 'I don't understand shit, but this man sure knows his.'

I Despise the guitar tone and their riffing style at this point. Sukekiyo is about ten times the band they are these days

I mean, for what it's worth, I DO genuinely like the samples that have the gang vocal bits kicking in quite a lot cuz that's always been a musical trope I've been here for, and I've noted on several occasions that instrumentally  & looks-wise Marco are pretty nice as well, just every single time I feel like I'm in the mood to give them another shot I always end up getting turned off rather quickly cuz it feels like the singer's  just not strong enough to carry the whole thing and I find myself becoming tired of it when not listening to maybe like... one song at a time.
In my personal opinion he just feels like the weakest link in the group at the moment, regardless of whether it's his project or not.
 
As much as I find myself wanting to like them cuz the aesthetic's good shit, it's just not happening yet :/ Totally possible I'll come around eventually and end up liking them anyways tho, since I ended up warming up to Benizemi recently as well after spending like half a decade not really feeling most of their stuff, so...  I dunno. This isn't some ''oh no the evil HATERS are coming to insult my PERFECT BABIES'' shit, this is me wanting to get into a band cuz I know there's at least something good there, but having it just simply not work out every time 

I think I found a pic of you. 
 
 

god i wish they had a better singer

I see that Saïx sketch-  good stuff!

Their look is very basic and boring, moustache man especially does no favours 

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