CELESTIAL CIEL

yes

You're right, his new accounts are private. Maybe he's still planning on stuff?

I hope he'll come back with new stuff...(´･ω･｀) i remember his old tweets, maybe around 2014~15, he told he would prefer death than life without (doing) music (i remember context, it was not a certain phrase)

@Manji 卍 now I want to phone them just to talk... It's quite strange to realize that there's something I can't tell even to my parents, like, thoughts about killing myself and how miserable I feel myself because of absolutely sick addiction to my only friend...

I understand you,I'm in need of the same thing,but feels like there's no one that I can open myself about such thoughts. I've tried some therapist and stuff but it feels weird paying someone just to listen to your problems. I think you should try to phone them,you got nothing to lose trying it

You always can call such hotline,

for me nothing works, because I know my problem, and the way to happiness there isn't any simple solotion for. talking with a random person doesn't work, doesn't solve anything. But someday I hope to hit the right road so that I really can smile daily happy! 

Wet dogs and stale alcohol

Ao always reminded me of a farmer for some reason, so I hope it's some farm-fresh scent like hay and manure.

staff guys has really weird tastes then...

Some people are just shitty people. But the only thing you can change is your reaction towards them.

http://www.doctorpuff.com/mental-stillness-and-being-present-key-ingredients-of-happiness/

"I have known people who have been incarcerated, people dying from cancer, severely deformed, or suffering physically. Contrary to what one might think, these people were all completely happy because they didn’t create a negative mental story about what they were experiencing. They were doing everything in their power to make their situations better, and importantly, they were not allowing the events in their lives to keep them from loving life. So, the key ingredients to achieving happiness are two-fold, yet they are really the two faces of the same coin. What are they?"

I am positive you are a loving, caring person. Otherwise, you wouldn't care so much about people who have hurt you so much.

You just need to share that love with people who are appreciative of it.

Some people are huge assholes. You aren't a problem, the others are.

I like Jakura, but I'm not excited about comebacks anymore because given the current direction in the scene they won't sound the way I like it (old school VK).

Which? Their first one or the one that was in Pasha / S for like 5 minutes?

@seikun I'm not sure it will be jyakura comeback, but he's just super excited about his own "comeback"...

@Peace Heavy mk II ye, that guy from pashya  their first vocalist was active until 2017 and suddenly disappeared

Well, their "leader" is actually a two-faced bitch and their second leader is that person who told me drink less when I decided to say sorry right before my last suicide attempt.  I really love them and we were friends, but sometimes I think I want to die bc it's too sad. 

It's personal, anyway.  Nevermind.

Mmhh...  i'm sorry about that, hope you feel better now ; and don't listen all the shit they say. (You already know that it's shit i guess)  How people can be dumb like that...

Happy birthday, QT!

lol wait till you turn 29 and feel 17 inside. It only get sadder that is... hbd!

She judges me because I love her. That's all.

I can feel your exhausting pain through your writing. Even though I don't really understand how a music taste can destroy an entire relationship, especially if she's interested in Japan herself. But I don't need to understand, I just hope you will feel better soon!

It's not about tastes, it's about how hard to like something that also likes that person, when even listening to some bands just brings nothing but pain, and there's a lot of things around that makes me feel worse, because I can't stop thinking about her. When I listen to bands we both like, when scrolling mh news and notice new bands she probably already know... Aah. Is it real madness. IDK... 

Can you recommend any songs? 

@merchenticneurosis
of course! the band have had many lineup changes, and the last lineup is the most stable.
i like this period, the sound is more hysteric than their early works.

 
this one is from their last album^^

one of their early lineup, with totally different sound (but still good, i think...)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMfnVhX39cU 

 

I'm not sure they're easy to get, but I have their discography and i could upload it.

I'm digging, sounds great!

Ugh, I understand that. Those kind of relationships do a lot of harm, but you have to keep in mind you can only grow from here on and things will take a turn for the best

My self esteem was killed and I'm dead inside and too tired to move on. The whole year I was trying to hold on even if since the last February I don't remember any good moments or nights without tears. It's a huge story behind this words and I'm too weak right now to try to tell what going on even it's about a month since the turning point. I'm not sure I deserve any good words, and any chance to be someone's friend, or soulmate, or lover, or I don't really know what can be above. 

The suckiest thing that everyone who tried to talk with me, or be closer, or told me that this relationships are rotten from the beginning, everyone was ignored and deleted from my life because I was sure this could be a huge gesture of love and feelings if I can forget about everyone for her. I'm such a jackass, I know, and there's no logic in such things, but everything was ruined and there's no way back.

Good luck!

Good luck! 

I know it's very late,but good luck!

@AimiGen7 Ao was Miya' guitar sempai and gave him a huge base and inspiration (^^)/ at first, they were under Lighthouse’ livehouse label(?...), and it was fun to read about mucc' first reactions... when mucc were in high school and visited this livehouse for the first times, c≠g always were quite popular!★ Yukke cried when he saw their liveshow for the first time... he was frightened. He was 15 or 16.

@IGM_Oficial ? no, cali≠gari' song was released in ～1994, on the cassete 洗脳。The other 夜明け前 was on 再教育（右）、it was self-covers re-recorded with the other shuji

I still think that misshitsu-inspired mucc was the best... And I'm sooo happy they're still friends! c≠g were guests at mucc live few days ago (^w^)

@DREAMON DREAMER Same. Even though they're still great now, their early era will always be the best

Have fun!

Chuudoku can also mean addiction, which makes sense I guess if you're referring to someone who is always "the other woman"

this is reference not to chuudoku (it also can be addiction, you're right! and i think it also make sense), but to nikochin, really unexpected word play ｗ (at least, now i know counter word(?) for dicks... idk how it will help me in practical japanese lol)

like literally new?

@yomii yea, according to Shuuj’s 「身を削って製作する」、 that probability must be high

hype just got real

i... i mean... diavolo is so pretty... even prettier than both dio and kira (;__;)