dovesi

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Loving the new setup.
Playing Metal Gear Solid on extreme mode with no damage.
 

I, too, used to write gay fanfiction.

I'm not sure if anyone's really influenced my hair, but I've noticed it's kinda similar to Masashi from Versailles'.
 
My makeup sometimes changes, but not drastically. I just like studying VK makeup and finding things I like by accident... and even then, my makeup's not really that VK, anyways. Rip.
  
Oh, well. At least I always make sure to put that obligatory pale stripe down the bridge of my nose.
 
As for my clothes, I want to be a tanbi kei goth-loli. I have a big wish list on Lolitashow, but my bank account says "no" at the moment.
 
Right now, I'd say I'm closer to otome kei than anything. My hair's kinda VK, but everything else just screams "otome". Not that I mind. If I play otoge, I may as well look otokei.

Also, I know you can't see it in that picture, but there's a massive black bow on the back of my head, just as there always is. Just the way I like it.

I am really happy of  move away from where i live with my parents,  finally  my life will change  yahoo, well i can't wait to decorate my  future room  in   White and Black   forniture  and  i will add nice objects too i have also my computer.
The room is big and  i  have also the TV because the old  owners  gift  to me the TV!
The bed is a sofà of color Black  with two beds  and  if  a guest  come can sleep good!
I will not change who i am, i will be a Jrock fan forever and my dress code  will be the same.
I meet new people  and i going to have new friends too 
Good luck to myself  a new  life  on my way  full of love,  happiness and positivity  this   is what i need  in my life💜😘
 
 

https://www.amazon.com/Fashion-Disruption-Principle-Paperback-Common/dp/B00FGVYL3K
 
Saw this on Amazon, not sure what's in it though, just thought it is fascinating
 
It doesn't look like him, maybe some random white guy?
 

Found some old ones
 
and also made a new one
 

I know I am going to open a big can of worms, but being active in the goth subculture for so many years and knowing people in the scene personally who have been part of this thing since the early 80s, I say the whole thing about gawf being a counter-culture misanthropic youth fashion trend is wrong and some cliché that the media came up with during the age of the Satanic Panic and ran with it.
 
It's been (and will always be) about the music and not so much the clothes or hating everyone (lol, most old wavers and goffs I know are so perky you'd think they are all untrve poseurs if you didn't knew any better). I know that's an argument many people do not like, because that means it takes more than heavy eyeliner and tacky shillstar clothes made in Bangladesh - such as actually liking some post-punk and goth music. And many people think they need that dreaded "G" label to prove how different they are from mainstream society and will fight tooth and nail that they "deserve" the label because of how they dress, which is something I don't get.

Also I have never met any of these people who wear 800 euros and more on their skin in the actual real life. These people primarily exist on the web, where they belong in the same bin with every other cancerous social media clown and influencer, or they walk around big festivals to get photographed (but never actually engage with anyone or pay attention to the music). I feel most of these "goff" people who are sponsor for some brand are just some regular alt chicks who realized that selling themselves as rebellious, edgy person makes them somehow different (and thus more authentic) than the hundred other people who do the same, but for some "normie" brand.  Then there are the few cases where people from the scene did become greedy and partake in this shit. But right now there is a nice backlash against it, so it#s not like everyone is okay with it. In fact, people have been arguing a long time that it#s not a fashion contest.
 
Most people at goth (and adjacent) events, club nights and concerts are piss poor or know to spend their money for more important things. If they wear that awful blunder then they usually buy it secondhand. And considering how the scene is slowly falling to gentrification, many don't even dress up anymore, and that's totally okay. It's only in web communities that people get so uptight and act like assholes. Which isn't so surprising, but that's also why I really recommend to get outside more and leave the internet for some time. Ever since I started to go out more again, meeting real people and reducing my online presence to a bare minimum, I have been much happier. 
 
Anyway, my stupid cents on this topic, since it seems to have made some big waves online. And I am glad it does. I think the same can and should be applied to any music scene, culture or just society in general; one doesn't need to worship some fucking brand to feel better about themselves and looks aren't everything. Sadly people give influencers way too much credit, even when they know that these people are paid by companies to sell their trash and will base their entire self worth on some criteria tailored by the folks that run good old capitalism. 

I eat it too. I am a proud Swede.

I don't have any pets atm but during the past 8 years I had several generations of rats living with me.
Sadly I don't have enough space for a big cage to get some again in my new apartment and I horribly miss having rats so much ...
 


 

This is me
 
https://imgur.com/a/ql5glcr

drunk & wanted to try making vintage magazine/booklet-esque photos.
getting back to VK really pushed me to be more theatrical outside my art again, it's funny all I want to do is perform but I have the 'no mouth & must scream' art ability instead lol... Growing out my hair is going well, oddly i feel more confident. I think I will grow it all the way and maybe one day do some sort of real vk inspired look, but right now it's at too awkward a phase (also no, no eyelashes i have trich)


 

It was few months ago, but...
It took me ten years to evolve from vkei child into this, and I'm not sure I'm happy.

Well, you can see that if you've seen my pictures before, that I've changed my overall appearance. I like playing with make-up, I do wear it to work and I let them know if they fuck with me, I have HR on speed dial and HR said I can wear makeup to work, no one cares though that I wear makeup sometimes; so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

Some pics from Saturday. 
 

 

 
 

Neurosis transformed into depression, 4 or 5 years, but I started my therapy only this autumn after one accident... suicide attempts, etc. (the first was when I was 16 years old)
My parents never thought this all is so serious and now it's quite hard to solve all this problems... I started having problems with memory. I'm studying english and japanese in the uni, and as you see both are bad just because I can't learn new stuff, doesn't matter how hard my tries are. Also eyesight is bad as hell (+ astigmatism, which make it worse and worse)

^have tinnitus as well, but since childhood. And it's likely not going away. But so far it's not that loud, so most of the times the environment noise is loud enough to overshadow it. Only in quiet places and at night it can be annoying.
 
Plus I have been diagnosed recently with an autoimmune disease that affects the thyroids, but had it much longer (it was discovered while making tests for something else). I am still in the process of adjusting the dosage for my thyroid hormones and it's hell. Sometiimes I have symptoms of a hypothyreosis, sometimes of a hyperthyreosis and I don't seem to get better at all. I also have stomach cramps, but I am not 100% sure it's from my illness. And I am afraid that it could be something bad (or another shit to deal with)

Kisaki is a Liar?

Man, this thread was an interesting read. Here's some more pictures of Ki$aki's old bands, just for completion's sake I guess:
 

I noticed some very strange things about Kisaki's bands Levia and LAYBIAL, which were around in 1993 and 1994. For example, this is the tracklisting of the MISS tape by LAYBIAL.

01. Dejavu
02. MISS
03. virginig Plesures
04. Refuse
05. MOTHER
06. One More Love

Official source: http://under-ground-music.com/kisakihppart/english/DiscShosai.php?shohinNo=000009


Also in the mid-90s there was a band called VICE∞RISK. They released the tape Mother and this is the tracklist:

01. Virgining Plesures
02. Refuse
03. Mother
04. One More Love

I saw the lyrics sheet with my own eyes, so I can confirm that it's real.


Now let's look at Levia's KELOID tape:

01. KELOID
02. PRAY

Official source: http://under-ground-music.com/kisakihppart/english/DiscShosai.php?shohinNo=000007


Around the same time there was a band called Nude of J. Their 傷痕 demo looks like this:

01. KELOID
02. 恋に焦がれ愛に埋もれ
03. PRAY

I also saw a sheet of this tape, the tracklist is legit.
I can upload pics of the VICE∞RISK and Nude of J tracklists, if you guys want to see a proof.
 
So.. Can anyone explain this? For me, it doesn't make sense at all.
VICE∞RISK and Nude of J seem to be COMPLETELY unrelated to Kisaki or his bands. I even compared the member names, because sometimes members went into different bands and rerecorded songs they've written for another band, but there's not a single similar name anywhere.
Was Kisaki making things up when he decided to release information about this old bands and just took random songtitles of obscure bands from that time? O:
Or did the bands just covered each other, which is highly unlikely...
 
I know there's a KISAKI history book out there. Maybe someone here owns it, so we could compare the titles? But I'm 99% sure that it will contain the same information as on that UCP site.

Ok, i know this is kinda pointless... BUT for some reason i always have been curious as to the sexual role of the gay guys i know (here and in real life) ... Call me a perve if you must lol. But hey, i'm open about it, so i'll start. Fudge packer or getting fudge packed?
Bottom/Vers.
ps. Also curious as to the fact it can be cultural, statistically latino and more 'masculine' oriented countries have a higher percentage of tops than countries like england and america (which i think have more bottoms). Sydney where i live...there seems to be an abundance of bottoms lol.

The time has come yet again! This time, I only have three things to tell you about, but they look good! I can sort of tell just by looking at them that they should be sweeter than last time.