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I am so done with today, I just want to hide under my blanket ... I don't have a problem with being the only woman at work, working with about 50 men ... I also don't have a problem when they tell some jokes about women, it's a normal thing to do when you're male I guess ... but aiming those jokes directly at me like one of my coworker does lately is the most fucked up thing ever.

still can't believe how INCREDIBLY underrated Lament. are, still one of the best VK bands of the last decade or so.

kuchiki no tou as a religion

NEGA was a legendary band IMO. 

This is going to be a really long post, but I literally lost sleep last night thinking about this haha. 
 
I really also don't know why I'm posting this. Maybe I just need to post it somewhere where people will understand. The community that I love so much.
 
Music really has a way to change us, mold us, and destroy us. 
 
I was super into Versailles when they formed. I had always liked Kamijo, and followed him pretty extensively through his Lareine career; although I had to do it through my friend who liked him, she would get mad if I liked him. But that's a different story.
 
I had been a fan of Versailles since the day they started. I fell in love with "The Revenant Choir" instantly. And I fell even more in love with Jasmine You, the beautiful, talented bassist. 
 
I ended up spending all of the money from my first job on Versailles and D stuff. To the point where I made stupid mistakes and overdrafted my account and my parents had to bail me out hah. But I knew that I had found something amazing. Versailles touched my heart in so many ways. 
 
I ended up owning (and still do), their entire discography up through Jubilee. Including rare live-only cds and things I had to use shopping services to purchase. I had to have it, I had to support this amazingly talented band. 
 
And then it hit me like a bag of bricks. Jasmine You had passed away. As quickly as they had come, they were gone. And I couldn't handle it. I was such a huge fan of his, I lost it. I had never cried over a celebrity death before, but I literally played "Episode" over 1,000 times, my grief was very strong. I didn't know how to deal with the fact that a musician that I loved so dearly was gone from the world. 
 
I didn't touch Versailles for years. I wouldn't follow them, wouldn't buy their other cds. I was grieving in that way. I didn't want to hear Versailles without Jasmine in it. And whenever any of their Jasmine-included songs would play, I would skip it, as it would upset me to the point of tears. I just couldn't do it.
 
Last night, I was watching some Kamijo videos. I can listen to his solo stuff just fine. And Lareine, too. Lareine is one of my favorite older bands; so I'm okay with them. On youtube, I was just clicking around. Watching Kamijo video after video. And then I saw it. 
 
"Remember Forever." 
 
A song dedicated to Jasmine, that I had never listened to, because it was on a cd that I had never bought. That I didn't know existed, because I had excluded myself from the world of Versailles. It was a live video, so I clicked on it.
 
I was not expecting the emotional ride that I went on. Purple lights on the stage; lights for him. For my bassist. And a song that was so beautiful, I started bawling my eyes out. It was written for him, and you could tell. The quietness of the audience made it even more real. But it was beautiful.
 
After I had finished watching it, I spent a lot of time just listening to Versailles. Thinking about Jasmine, and how happy he had made me when he was alive. And I realized that I shouldn't be afraid of change. I should continue to go on, even if something sad, or horrible happens. And that I should continue on. 
 
Jasmine is a beautiful person, a memory that should never be forgotten. And I never will forget about him. It'll be 10 years in November since his passing. And I think I'm brave enough to play Versailles again. To REALLY enjoy them again. 
 
For Jasmine's sake. 
 
 

Rands isn't getting enough love. The minialbum bops hard and it revived my vk soul amen.

Woke up to this song stuck in my head..... 
 
 

Happy b-day fit! ❤️

all the best visual kei is made between 1979 and 2019. after that it really goes to shit

This place is dying slowly, isn't it?

We are all aware that Mana's music writing skills for Moi dix Mois are totally a flop and 90% of their catalog is worthy of a cringe compilation, but I wouldn't be fair if I don't recognize "Solitude" to be one of the most beautiful compositions VK ever had. I'm totally in love with the atmosphere of elegance and darkness, and overall over-the-top cheesiness Mana put into it, and how well Juka's voice manages to bring all the tragic tone. I feel it on the vibe of Malice Mizer works like "Garnet" and "Gardenia"; Klaha's voice could perfectly fit into it. Same opinion goes for "Vestige", another MdM track with the said vibe. Sometimes I wonder they were tracks already composed for MM before they decided to disband.
 
 
 

There's nothing better than knitting while drinking tea and listening to Final Fantasy soundtracks. Makes me feel so cozy and relaxed.

Merry Christmas~!  
 

Merry X-mas guys! 🎄

Happy b-day Shaolan! ❤️

SLIPKNOT back at it with new awesome MV doesn't even feel like time has passed , thank God they never change.

I just posted a new poll in my blog guys! Check it out, especially you Kiyoharu fans! https://drkreviews.tumblr.com/post/179106980966/drk-poll-4-band-of-the-month

Everyone's praising X for playing to an empty stadium during a storm, but Satsuki has been playing at empty venues for years 

I wonder what everyone's favorite release(s) of 2018 are..

Holy hell, anybody remember Aural Vampire? "Cannibal Coast" holds up surprisingly well after all these years:
 
 

Luna Sea's b-sides are so great
 

You and Yuu from The Sound Bee HD are following me on Twitter! And You replied to my message! Yay! 

Happy b-day Destiny! <3

Happy b-day IGM! ❤️

The first 20 secs of mad K by dimlim are invigorating.