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Now I'm even more curious. That's fair though. 
 
I hope someday dream reading machines become a reality. Dunno if that's a good or bad thing, but I'd be so curious to compare my recollection vs a (theoretically) more accurate capture.

man this shit is too damn hard....
 
 

Care to share any of them?   ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
 
I think too the more you write down your dreams, the easier it gets to write about them. When I first started out writing down my dreams, I usually only wrote down like a sentence or two, and in some cases just words. 

I've actually always wanted to animate or create a video of a few dreams I've had because it's just too difficult to put them into the words to describe the feeling or event. But I can't animate and can't imagine trying to get a crew to reenact a shot dream, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

About due time to cut my hair. Gets wavy and does whatever the hell it wants.
 

About due time to cut my hair. Gets wavy and does whatever the hell it wants.
 

About due time to cut my hair. Gets wavy and does whatever the hell it wants.
 

About due time to cut my hair. Gets wavy and does whatever the hell it wants.
 

For someone who only dabbles this is good! You've certainly nailed the Castlevania style (It definitely has that playstation One vibe)
But as some constructive criticism, I'd suggest lowering the volume and treble on the hats and cymbals.

So, in my free time I like to dabble in composition. I don't really have a style yet, as it's just for fun, and I don't know much about music production.
 
I'm gonna start this thread with a song I started like 2 years ago and finally sat down and finished tonight. It's inspired from Castlevania music (specifically the soundtracks that Michiru Yamane worked on - Symphony of the Night, Lament of Innocence, etc.)
 
It starts off like a requiem but climaxes like an overture. If you like organs, harpsichord, and choral music, you might dig it.
 
 

So, in my free time I like to dabble in composition. I don't really have a style yet, as it's just for fun, and I don't know much about music production.
 
I'm gonna start this thread with a song I started like 2 years ago and finally sat down and finished tonight. It's inspired from Castlevania music (specifically the soundtracks that Michiru Yamane worked on - Symphony of the Night, Lament of Innocence, etc.)
 
It starts off like a requiem but climaxes like an overture. If you like organs, harpsichord, and choral music, you might dig it.
 
 

So, in my free time I like to dabble in composition. I don't really have a style yet, as it's just for fun, and I don't know much about music production.
 
I'm gonna start this thread with a song I started like 2 years ago and finally sat down and finished tonight. It's inspired from Castlevania music (specifically the soundtracks that Michiru Yamane worked on - Symphony of the Night, Lament of Innocence, etc.)
 
It starts off like a requiem but climaxes like an overture. If you like organs, harpsichord, and choral music, you might dig it.
 
 

I've been listening to Merry's oldest releases (for science) and a thought struck me, that if I had to listen to only one band for the rest of my life, it'd be them. I honestly don't think I could get bored of their music. 
 
SO, a question to the masses, what band would take that spot for you? 
 
If you're feeling wild choose one album or even ~le'gasp~ one song. 
 
Mine's as follows: 
 
Band: Merry
Album: MUCC - Shion / girugamesh - girugamesh
Song: Kashiwa Daisuke - april.#02
 

Back with another drawing. I've always wanted to draw a desert landscape so this is my take on it. I started this one last year and then went into a slump. Finally overcame my laziness and finished it.

I actually agree with you to an extent. Truth and truth seeking will never make you popular, and it has never been popular since the beginning of time. Ultimately, we're all invested in deception and our own self-deceptions, and the truth can shatter all of that in an instant. And that's not a comfortable feeling. Similar to that Peterson quote, the truth is like fire - it fucking burns. And who wants to get burnt? The beautiful thing tho is that fire also purifies. But I digress.
 
I can relate to you in a sense. Ever since I started speaking and relaying what I perceive to be "truth" - it's costed me both online and offline.  In fact, there are people on this very forum - people I considered good friends, whom I shared good laughs with an even opened up to on a deeply personal level - who have cut me off simply over sharing thoughts that I perceived to be true. Nowadays, these very same ppl that I used to kick it with don't hesitate to talk shit about me behind my back. It is what it is.
 
But here's what I've learned in my pursuit of truth. The truth does not need a spokesperson. It simply is. Whether ppl want to recognize it or not - that's up to them.  We all have free will, so trying to debate, convince, or beat people over the head with what we perceive to be the "truth" is an absolute waste of time. The best way to speak your truth is to simply live it. To embody it. Those with eyes to see, will see it. Those with ears to hear, will hear it. It'll reach who it needs to.
 
Perfect example: The people I just mentioned that cut me off - did so because of thoughts i've been sharing on social media, and probably because I started posting increasingly biblical things there. It's never my intent to be controversial, adversarial, or contrary for the sake of being contrary, so I was surprised at how some ppl responded. I mean, I've even been accused of being a homophobe (which makes perfect sense with me being the admin of a VK forum, right? 🙄) and lord knows what else.
 
But guess what? No matter what these people say about me - NOT ONE of them can say that I've ever done anything wrong to them, or that i've treated them like shit, or anything like that. In fact, quite the opposite. And to my knowledge, if I ever did offend anyone - I ALWAYS apologized and tried to make amends/work things out.
 
So lemme ask you. What's the weightier matter? What's most important? My thoughts on feminism??? on politics???, or the fact that I treat you with respect and love as a fellow human being???
 
You see, I ALWAYS show love, and I ain't NEVER been a hater. Shit, ask around. The only reason I'm admin here is because ppl trust me and know i'm a cool-ass dude, and they know I've put a ton of time and love into this community. They know my character.
 
So the fact that those ppl cut me off and continue talk shit about me, lets me know that those ppl are not truly seeing me. Rather, they're seeing some imaginary character that they've constructed in their minds based off my opinions on abstract ideologies. So instead of looking right in front of them, and saying "wait, CAT is a cool dude. He's always been kind and reasonable with me. Let me try to understand where he's coming from before judging him or jumping to conclusions" - they  just jump straight to "CAT disagrees with feminism? WOW. HOW DARE HE. HE'S A FUCKING MONSTER. I'LL NEVER TO TALK TO HIM AGAIN!!!"
 
It's pretty juvenile, but it shows you just how willing people are to invest in their own self-deceptions, instead of looking at reality/the truth. People will destroy whole relationships over inconsequential ideological differences instead of looking at the reality of what really matters. We saw a lot of this in the last election with ppl going "Unfriend me if you voted for Trump", and ppl do this all the time in other ways. Hell, people are often wiling to hurt others and even kill over these differences. Which is crazy.
 
I would call this a religious inclination...but I think it's merely an ignorant human inclination...because this tendency to want to divide and antagonize ppl based on their beliefs happens in pretty much every sphere of human interaction - not just in religion. In fact, often times, the ppl who behave like this claim to be the most open-minded, liberal, and non-religious. It's completely schizoid.
 
So this is why I advocate "embodying" and living your truth - because words are abstract. Actions are concrete. Ppl can take your words and twist them, and interpret your opinions in a million different ways, but the best way to see what someone believes is to look at their actions. People can believe what they want to, but actions don't lie.
 
And I always try to act out of love. I don't always get it right, and I fuck up just like anyone else, but I always continue to make that attempt. So to me, how you act and treat other people is more "true" than any abstract ideological or intellectual concepts....or anything you can "say".  Cuz I can go to anyone with all of the proof and empirical evidence of whatever you wanna talk about, but if i'm an asshole about it....if I do it without compassion, understanding, and love - then it's most likely not going to be received - so what good is it?
 
Anyways, i'm just rambling at this point.

I had a weird sensation earlier this week. As I fell right asleep, I dreamt I was falling through a hole and woke up immediately. Felt like I dropped right through my bed. The hole itself looked like the tunnel from Coraline. Probably the shortest dream I've ever had, literally felt like it lasted a quarter of a second.
 

I dreamed that I lost my cat. I went to look for her and I found her. Wearing bride's outfit for cats for some reason.

Last night, I dreamt that I was at high school again and I stood under a CCTV camera. Three other students stood near me and we heard the headteacher's voice count to four over a loudspeaker. For some reason, he was an American man even though my actual high school headteacher was English. Anyways, we thought he was giving us four seconds to get out of sight of the camera for whatever reason until a load of other students stood under it too. He quickly counted to fifty and he gave us all a number (mine was four). Idk why he numbered us. He then told us to race around the school and I guess whoever won got a prize? I came seventeenth so I'll never know.

yo
 

we didn't take a single photo during the anime convention lol 
but my bff insisted that I at least send her the photo of my outfit so here I am, after 13 hours on foot with no AC X'D
 

Back with another drawing. I've always wanted to draw a desert landscape so this is my take on it. I started this one last year and then went into a slump. Finally overcame my laziness and finished it.

Please DO NOT link to porn here. Thanks.

Reminds me of those weather woman themed JAVs. 

Been practicing my vector art. 
 

 

 

Speaking of Ai Uehara, there's a vid where she does just that. Not a duet tho