crucifiction

Eliphas Levi - 懺悔の朝に・・・  (sealed)
Eliphas Levi - リデルの赤い書物
Eliphas Levi - 冷たいアトリエの魔術師
+ some postcards, flyers, poster and such
 

 
Scarlet Valse's lucky bag (incl. a T-shirt and tote bag)
 

 
V.A. - 2011.3.5 Larme d'ange 三ヶ月連続主催イベント第二弾 超カマ騒ぎ～カマホワイトデー！ March de カマーチ つったかたったった～ 限定
gossip - obscene
gossip - Newborn
Javelin - ～道標～/逃避回路
Zephyr - Primary Colours
Kyoka - M
LUAZY - Misty Blue
関西耽美系～Lily project～ - 華麗なる雪花のアリア
V.A. - HOLD YOUR KEY ～DUAL SHOCK VERSION～ 1999.5.30 渋谷公会堂
V.A. - NEW AGE CULTURE～第一楽章～
Seciliaルナ - Baptism (Type-B)
岡部 啓一 - Piano Collections NieR Gestalt & Replicant
Aliene Maφriage - 傀儡異形のマリア (sealed)
Aioria - 蒼月の陰影
Distray - gene of "D"
岡部 啓一 - NieR Gestalt & Replicant Original Soundtrack
Rosé Noir - Rosé Noir 
Rosé Noir - So One Blue Night (Special mix version) 
Rosé Noir - 1993.03.18 ヤンタ鹿鳴館 - / TAI：LEN - 1993.08.02 難波ロケッツ (not in this picture)

Eliphas Levi - 懺悔の朝に・・・  (sealed)
Eliphas Levi - リデルの赤い書物
Eliphas Levi - 冷たいアトリエの魔術師
+ some postcards, flyers, poster and such
 

 
Scarlet Valse's lucky bag (incl. a T-shirt and tote bag)
 

 
V.A. - 2011.3.5 Larme d'ange 三ヶ月連続主催イベント第二弾 超カマ騒ぎ～カマホワイトデー！ March de カマーチ つったかたったった～ 限定
gossip - obscene
gossip - Newborn
Javelin - ～道標～/逃避回路
Zephyr - Primary Colours
Kyoka - M
LUAZY - Misty Blue
関西耽美系～Lily project～ - 華麗なる雪花のアリア
V.A. - HOLD YOUR KEY ～DUAL SHOCK VERSION～ 1999.5.30 渋谷公会堂
V.A. - NEW AGE CULTURE～第一楽章～
Seciliaルナ - Baptism (Type-B)
岡部 啓一 - Piano Collections NieR Gestalt & Replicant
Aliene Maφriage - 傀儡異形のマリア (sealed)
Aioria - 蒼月の陰影
Distray - gene of "D"
岡部 啓一 - NieR Gestalt & Replicant Original Soundtrack
Rosé Noir - Rosé Noir 
Rosé Noir - So One Blue Night (Special mix version) 
Rosé Noir - 1993.03.18 ヤンタ鹿鳴館 - / TAI：LEN - 1993.08.02 難波ロケッツ (not in this picture)

Eliphas Levi - 懺悔の朝に・・・  (sealed)
Eliphas Levi - リデルの赤い書物
Eliphas Levi - 冷たいアトリエの魔術師
+ some postcards, flyers, poster and such
 

 
Scarlet Valse's lucky bag (incl. a T-shirt and tote bag)
 

 
V.A. - 2011.3.5 Larme d'ange 三ヶ月連続主催イベント第二弾 超カマ騒ぎ～カマホワイトデー！ March de カマーチ つったかたったった～ 限定
gossip - obscene
gossip - Newborn
Javelin - ～道標～/逃避回路
Zephyr - Primary Colours
Kyoka - M
LUAZY - Misty Blue
関西耽美系～Lily project～ - 華麗なる雪花のアリア
V.A. - HOLD YOUR KEY ～DUAL SHOCK VERSION～ 1999.5.30 渋谷公会堂
V.A. - NEW AGE CULTURE～第一楽章～
Seciliaルナ - Baptism (Type-B)
岡部 啓一 - Piano Collections NieR Gestalt & Replicant
Aliene Maφriage - 傀儡異形のマリア (sealed)
Aioria - 蒼月の陰影
Distray - gene of "D"
岡部 啓一 - NieR Gestalt & Replicant Original Soundtrack
Rosé Noir - Rosé Noir 
Rosé Noir - So One Blue Night (Special mix version) 
Rosé Noir - 1993.03.18 ヤンタ鹿鳴館 - / TAI：LEN - 1993.08.02 難波ロケッツ (not in this picture)

My Madeth gray'll shirt came in today. Just in time for the first day of school

I take selfies like once a year maybe so might as well share this rare occasion lol

thanks youtube!

https://www.monochrome-heaven.com/online/

Why not, so y'all can put a face to a username I guess. :'P Here's me normal mode and VK mode lol
 

everyday look
 

serving lewks (at the GazettE concert in Dallas)

It's been awhile, eh? Welp, got a new haircut two weeks ago.

Je ne sure about this pas

Non

You might wanna improve your sample a little bit. There's absolutely no sense of rhythm or tempo... But how about this song?
 
 

all jrockers are rich in std's, and life experience.....

I actually agree with you to an extent. Truth and truth seeking will never make you popular, and it has never been popular since the beginning of time. Ultimately, we're all invested in deception and our own self-deceptions, and the truth can shatter all of that in an instant. And that's not a comfortable feeling. Similar to that Peterson quote, the truth is like fire - it fucking burns. And who wants to get burnt? The beautiful thing tho is that fire also purifies. But I digress.
 
I can relate to you in a sense. Ever since I started speaking and relaying what I perceive to be "truth" - it's costed me both online and offline.  In fact, there are people on this very forum - people I considered good friends, whom I shared good laughs with an even opened up to on a deeply personal level - who have cut me off simply over sharing thoughts that I perceived to be true. Nowadays, these very same ppl that I used to kick it with don't hesitate to talk shit about me behind my back. It is what it is.
 
But here's what I've learned in my pursuit of truth. The truth does not need a spokesperson. It simply is. Whether ppl want to recognize it or not - that's up to them.  We all have free will, so trying to debate, convince, or beat people over the head with what we perceive to be the "truth" is an absolute waste of time. The best way to speak your truth is to simply live it. To embody it. Those with eyes to see, will see it. Those with ears to hear, will hear it. It'll reach who it needs to.
 
Perfect example: The people I just mentioned that cut me off - did so because of thoughts i've been sharing on social media, and probably because I started posting increasingly biblical things there. It's never my intent to be controversial, adversarial, or contrary for the sake of being contrary, so I was surprised at how some ppl responded. I mean, I've even been accused of being a homophobe (which makes perfect sense with me being the admin of a VK forum, right? 🙄) and lord knows what else.
 
But guess what? No matter what these people say about me - NOT ONE of them can say that I've ever done anything wrong to them, or that i've treated them like shit, or anything like that. In fact, quite the opposite. And to my knowledge, if I ever did offend anyone - I ALWAYS apologized and tried to make amends/work things out.
 
So lemme ask you. What's the weightier matter? What's most important? My thoughts on feminism??? on politics???, or the fact that I treat you with respect and love as a fellow human being???
 
You see, I ALWAYS show love, and I ain't NEVER been a hater. Shit, ask around. The only reason I'm admin here is because ppl trust me and know i'm a cool-ass dude, and they know I've put a ton of time and love into this community. They know my character.
 
So the fact that those ppl cut me off and continue talk shit about me, lets me know that those ppl are not truly seeing me. Rather, they're seeing some imaginary character that they've constructed in their minds based off my opinions on abstract ideologies. So instead of looking right in front of them, and saying "wait, CAT is a cool dude. He's always been kind and reasonable with me. Let me try to understand where he's coming from before judging him or jumping to conclusions" - they  just jump straight to "CAT disagrees with feminism? WOW. HOW DARE HE. HE'S A FUCKING MONSTER. I'LL NEVER TO TALK TO HIM AGAIN!!!"
 
It's pretty juvenile, but it shows you just how willing people are to invest in their own self-deceptions, instead of looking at reality/the truth. People will destroy whole relationships over inconsequential ideological differences instead of looking at the reality of what really matters. We saw a lot of this in the last election with ppl going "Unfriend me if you voted for Trump", and ppl do this all the time in other ways. Hell, people are often wiling to hurt others and even kill over these differences. Which is crazy.
 
I would call this a religious inclination...but I think it's merely an ignorant human inclination...because this tendency to want to divide and antagonize ppl based on their beliefs happens in pretty much every sphere of human interaction - not just in religion. In fact, often times, the ppl who behave like this claim to be the most open-minded, liberal, and non-religious. It's completely schizoid.
 
So this is why I advocate "embodying" and living your truth - because words are abstract. Actions are concrete. Ppl can take your words and twist them, and interpret your opinions in a million different ways, but the best way to see what someone believes is to look at their actions. People can believe what they want to, but actions don't lie.
 
And I always try to act out of love. I don't always get it right, and I fuck up just like anyone else, but I always continue to make that attempt. So to me, how you act and treat other people is more "true" than any abstract ideological or intellectual concepts....or anything you can "say".  Cuz I can go to anyone with all of the proof and empirical evidence of whatever you wanna talk about, but if i'm an asshole about it....if I do it without compassion, understanding, and love - then it's most likely not going to be received - so what good is it?
 
Anyways, i'm just rambling at this point.

Here's some of the items I got in the past weeks 🦄✨
 

 

 

 

Crucifixion photosets
らせん - 狂
らせん - Nightmare
La'veil MizeriA x Crucifixion - 蛇影
La'veil MizeriA x Crucifixion - 暁鴉
MaRiLL - 09.01.25.19.01.12 (mail-order version)
 

 
glamscure - Baptisma
Balsamic - 小夜時雨
rephit - ～cure～
Marvelous Cruelty - 素晴ラシキ残酷
Aliene Maφriage - Les Soirée ル・ソワレ～完結篇
Creadoll - Sins Blue
Dears - -yourself-
SHIVA - DayBreak
Agnus∻Dei - valse
V.A. - 闇鍋一丁上ガリ
the bullet & LOGiQ - 『共鳴』～白華蒼影～
 

 
A bunch of LuLu CDs XD
이병우 - 헨젤과 그레텔
GPKISM - Iudicium

Crucifixion photosets
らせん - 狂
らせん - Nightmare
La'veil MizeriA x Crucifixion - 蛇影
La'veil MizeriA x Crucifixion - 暁鴉
MaRiLL - 09.01.25.19.01.12 (mail-order version)
 

 
glamscure - Baptisma
Balsamic - 小夜時雨
rephit - ～cure～
Marvelous Cruelty - 素晴ラシキ残酷
Aliene Maφriage - Les Soirée ル・ソワレ～完結篇
Creadoll - Sins Blue
Dears - -yourself-
SHIVA - DayBreak
Agnus∻Dei - valse
V.A. - 闇鍋一丁上ガリ
the bullet & LOGiQ - 『共鳴』～白華蒼影～
 

 
A bunch of LuLu CDs XD
이병우 - 헨젤과 그레텔
GPKISM - Iudicium

Crucifixion photosets
らせん - 狂
らせん - Nightmare
La'veil MizeriA x Crucifixion - 蛇影
La'veil MizeriA x Crucifixion - 暁鴉
MaRiLL - 09.01.25.19.01.12 (mail-order version)
 

 
glamscure - Baptisma
Balsamic - 小夜時雨
rephit - ～cure～
Marvelous Cruelty - 素晴ラシキ残酷
Aliene Maφriage - Les Soirée ル・ソワレ～完結篇
Creadoll - Sins Blue
Dears - -yourself-
SHIVA - DayBreak
Agnus∻Dei - valse
V.A. - 闇鍋一丁上ガリ
the bullet & LOGiQ - 『共鳴』～白華蒼影～
 

 
A bunch of LuLu CDs XD
이병우 - 헨젤과 그레텔
GPKISM - Iudicium

Crucifixion photosets
らせん - 狂
らせん - Nightmare
La'veil MizeriA x Crucifixion - 蛇影
La'veil MizeriA x Crucifixion - 暁鴉
MaRiLL - 09.01.25.19.01.12 (mail-order version)
 

 
glamscure - Baptisma
Balsamic - 小夜時雨
rephit - ～cure～
Marvelous Cruelty - 素晴ラシキ残酷
Aliene Maφriage - Les Soirée ル・ソワレ～完結篇
Creadoll - Sins Blue
Dears - -yourself-
SHIVA - DayBreak
Agnus∻Dei - valse
V.A. - 闇鍋一丁上ガリ
the bullet & LOGiQ - 『共鳴』～白華蒼影～
 

 
A bunch of LuLu CDs XD
이병우 - 헨젤과 그레텔
GPKISM - Iudicium

10 years after his band disbanded, 廃-sutari- (ex-螺旋錠 (La;Cen-zhow.)) is currently recruiting a guitarist and a drummer for his new band (he already has a bassist) which will be formed in Nagoya. They must submit a demo track with original music. 
 
 

well she probably should stick to playing trees, with her signature wooden acting and botox all over.

pine forest candles >>>>>> tired vanilla/cinammon bullshit FIGHT ME 

I never knew that! The one I’ve ordered comes with two CD’s I believe! 

Initial'L THE END digital single. 
 
I was so shocked to find this in a Polish digital store, I stumbled over my thumbs to buy it in case it dissappeared in the next five seconds or sth. Especially that it costs not even 4 bucks. 
 
If any fellow countryman stumbles here, here's a link. Initialize is also up there woot.