Ultra Silvam

I actually REALLY like censor beeps in songs for some reason and I don't know why.  But when a song has one it becomes significantly more interesting to me and I enjoy it a lot more. 
I think my favorite example of a censor beep is the one at the 2:40 mark in Takadanobaba Ailen by Kuroyuri to Kage.  The placement of it is just perfect; it doesn't cut off any words when it starts or ends.  It sounds like there could literally be nothing that the censor is covering, and that intrigues me so much lol

One of my friends committed suicide last night. The reality is still setting in.

Here is a recording of the live stream.
https://twitcasting.tv/gulu_gulu_band/movie/566243852

I like how it doesnt matter what I'm into at the time, my hobbies are always draining my wallet. Few years ago it wouldve been my weeb shit and countless $100-200 figures, or dropping a fuckton in microtransactions and cosmetics in video games and now that I dont give a fuck about anime or games anymore all my money go to these fucking vk bands lol

For me it's Monochrome by Umbrella.  When I first listened to it I didn't really like Yui's vocals and couldn't hear past the production value, so I never gave it a real chance.  I didn't listen to it again until a couple years later after they released Kinematograph, and I was kicking myself over how much I missed out on. 
 
And this isn't really an album, but almost everything Alice Nine did in 2004/2005.  I was never much of an Alice Nine fan so I never bothered to really listen to their early stuff, but I loved it once I actually did.  The vocals aren't particularly good and the instruments could use work, they were an immature band for sure, but there's a big sense of genuine emotion/desire that I get from those songs that I simply just don't feel in their later works. 

One thing I've noticed about being single is that my anxiety goes down from ~100 to ~10.  In relationships or just when I was crushing on somebody I was always worrying about being with that person and being meaningful to them, and I would constantly have anxiety attacks and crying fits over it.  I would always keep it to myself though out of fear of being annoying and losing that person over it.  
I've been single for some time now though, and I struggle with low self esteem issues so I still have problems in regards to feeling meaningless and unwanted, but my reactions to it now are so majorly different.  I don't have nightly anxiety attacks and I can count all the times I've cried over it in the last few months on one hand.  The thoughts are still there and they still hurt but I'm just so much more calm. 
I don't know if this is because I've never been with the right people for me or if I'm just unfit to be in a relationship.  My self esteem issues point to the latter though.  Being single isn't all that fun because I'm not much more productive and it makes my issues more apparent to me, but I can at least sleep at night and worry (less) about my own self.  

One thing I've noticed about being single is that my anxiety goes down from ~100 to ~10.  In relationships or just when I was crushing on somebody I was always worrying about being with that person and being meaningful to them, and I would constantly have anxiety attacks and crying fits over it.  I would always keep it to myself though out of fear of being annoying and losing that person over it.  
I've been single for some time now though, and I struggle with low self esteem issues so I still have problems in regards to feeling meaningless and unwanted, but my reactions to it now are so majorly different.  I don't have nightly anxiety attacks and I can count all the times I've cried over it in the last few months on one hand.  The thoughts are still there and they still hurt but I'm just so much more calm. 
I don't know if this is because I've never been with the right people for me or if I'm just unfit to be in a relationship.  My self esteem issues point to the latter though.  Being single isn't all that fun because I'm not much more productive and it makes my issues more apparent to me, but I can at least sleep at night and worry (less) about my own self.  

蘭図 (Rands) will release their first full album in 2020/01, they'll have a oneman tour as well
 
 

why does being around people hurt so fucking much, i feel so out of place

Me and my homie Ai from gulu gulu 

Please take what I say with a HUGE grain of salt...cuz I ain't no expert or any of that shit, but imma keep it 💯 with you. We tend to over-complicate things. I think the main reason most relationships fail is because ppl are ultimately more committed to themselves than anything else. I mean, outside of glaring incompatibilities and straight-up abuse, there really isn't much that two ppl who are TRULY intent on making things work could not overcome.
 
But generally, muhfukkas just don't wanna make sacrifices or put in the effort. We generally take the path of least resistance. You also have a lot of ppl that'll deceive themselves and use the flaws in a relationship as an excuse to opt out of that relationship, when in reality, they have ulterior motives and just wanna do whatever they want to do. These are the kind of ppl you usually find jumping from "relationship" to "relationship". But those ppl are idiots cuz guess what?  EVERY relationship is going to have issues. Every relationship is going to face conflict. Why? Cuz ain't nobody perfect. We all fuck up. We all make mistakes. But what makes a perfect relationship? 2 ppl who never stop giving a perfect attempt at it.
 
But see that takes heart. That takes courage. That takes patience. That takes forgiveness (a damn near infinite amount). That takes maturity. But see ppl fuck themselves over thinking relationships are supposed to be all sunshine and rainbows. Ppl think that relationships are for your own "happiness", but you'd have to be a damn fool to think that. Happiness should be a byproduct of your relationship, but it should never be the goal of your relationship. It's a fuckin' emotion - which means it's flimsy as fuck. You're liable to feel a million different emotions in one day, so to make something as unstable as that the very foundation of your relationship is silly. What's gonna happen as soon as you don't feel "happy" anymore? Usually, that's when strange penis and vagina starts looking REALLY appealing to folks   Next thing you know, you dun ruined your relationship over a temporary emotion. I digress.
 
Relationships are going to test your fuckin spirit, and you gotta be prepared for it. Anybody who truly loves you is going to keep it real with you, and so in contending with them, they're going to reveal things about you that you didn't even know. You're going to experience sides of yourself (good, bad, and UGLY) that you didn't even know you had. A good relationship is going to bring all of this out. Suppressed trauma will surface. Scars will be picked at. But you have to be willing to face all of this. The good, the bad, and the ugly. You can't just expect the good, and ignore the bad, cuz that shit's going to get ugly inevitably lol. You have to be willing to realize that, yeah, you do have some bad and ugly parts of yourself that you need to work on. You have to be willing to grow. Your partner as well. That's why patience and forgiveness is so paramount. And it's a neverending process...but it's going to make you a better person and continue to refine you.
 
So you see why commitment is so important. I mean, REAL commitment. Most ppl don't wanna go through all of that stuff that I just mentioned. You'd be shocked at the lengths ppl will go to to avoid dealing with themselves, and a good relationship is going to force you to confront yourself and your issues. We live in age where all ppl wanna do is be comforted. Don't nobody wanna voluntarily put themselves through something like that. Don't nobody wanna jump in the fire. And honestly, a lot of ppl would rather jump ship than face the depths of their very own heart.
 
But anyways lil sis, I know my tone and my language can be harsh, but don't let me frighten you or anything. I'm just trying to keep it real with you and let you  know that relationships take a dead-serious level of commitment and spiritual maturity. It's going to be a challenge. But accepting that challenge is actually way better than not doing it imo. When both you and your partner fully commit and both of you look at the relationship as something you're in together...as "us vs the problems" and not "me vs my partner"...when you're both willing to face that fire together and understand that tough times WILL come...your experience will be much deeper, richer, and fulfilling....a lot more than simply looking for fleeting "happiness" in other ppl.
 
You gotta be willing to make an effort tho. That's actually one of the functions of marriage, aka making a covenant with your partner. You make a vow to stick it out, so when issues arise, yall gotta figure that shit out. Cuz like I said, most ppl will take the path of least resistance and leave a relationship/partnership before even trying to work shit out. Especially in these days where ppl feel like they have infinite "options" via social media alone, and treat ppl as if they're expendable. Shit, muhfukkas is unfriending ppl left and right over simple-ass disagreements these days. Petty shit. That's the kinda world we're living in today, so a lot of ppl have no hope of actually being in a successful relationship being that damn petty lol.
 
Anyways, hopefully I said something that made sense to you. I talk too damn much

nice to see some coherent opinions on here instead of just complaining.you guys kind of changed my thoughts on the Oni album.
i'm sure i'm the only one here,but this is how i'd like Deviloof to sound like.this early Carnifex influence is so fucking awesome
 
 

In addition to the one-man, they will also be releasing a new single, 「首輪教育のすすめ」(Kubiwa kyouiku no susume), in two types (大衆盤 [Taishuu-ban] and ストロング盤 [Strong-ban?]) on 2019.10.22.
 

I hope they embrace this and rename themselves to NOCTURNAL BUDLUST.

page 1: ice cream's pretty bad guys
 
page 14: FUCK TRANNIES & GAYS, IMPERIAL JAPAN DID NOTHING WRONG, IT ISNT PEDOPHILIA TO WANT TO JACK IT TO CARTOON CHILDREN
 
this thread is somehow escalating as suddenly as your average shounen anime

Rands outsold Luna Sea, X-Japan, and all other old farts

サト (Sato), who has been playing as a support drummer for MAMIRETA since the end of March 2019, will officially join the group as the new drummer.
 
 
Twitter: https://twitter.com/SATO_mamire

Also Suehiro Maruo and Jun Hayami used to be one of my favorite mangakás ever,but i remember few years ago i decided to just stop with most of his work because it was  making me..."crave" for all of this exotic stuff,if you know what i mean.nowadays i read them from time to time without any issues,even though i'm aware it's not a very nice content lol .your body is what you eat,your mind is what you read.

Been listening to Oni for a few days now and my opinion is that it's decent.  If you like most of what Deviloof has done than you probably won't be disappointed with this album, but it's probably not going to be your new favorite either. 
Imo there's no reason to listen to the new versions of Kaika and Kodokushi or the SE's.  Kaika sounds mostly the same, the clean vocals in the chorus of Kodokushi sound worse, and the SE's are just standard vkei SE's.
With that said, Aishite Kudasai sounds better and the new songs are fine despite a few hiccups. To elaborate; I think the clean singing in Dusky Vision just seems awkwardly placed, but I've gotten used to it after some listens.  Keisuke's vocals in the middle of Ruten are a bit strange, but it's not enough for me to dislike the song.  The speaking style vocals in Creepy make me cringe lol but I can get through it. 
Murderous Impulse and Kumo no Ito are the highlights on this album.  The placement of the clean vocals in Kumo no Ito are perfect,  Murderous Impulse sounds like a standard deathcore/metalcore song, but it also just sounds really good. 
Summing up my thoughts, this album feels a bit different from what they've done before but it's not a departure.  If you liked the way Devil's Proof sounded than you will probably like the way this sounds too, although it's definitely not a repeat of Devil's Proof.  I don't think they've gotten worse, but they haven't really gotten better, and all in all that's just fine with me. 

finally first ep and limited demo