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3 hours ago, KrumpingChihuahua said:

Need someone to talk?

Thank you! It's not like I have a lot to say though I guess lol

In more random thoughts now ... Anyone else have this issue where they really want to start a project/something (small or big) that really matters on a personal level and can't start it at all? Wonder if it's anxiety to commit/not fail or something, but it's like I can't do anything if it's not spontaneous.

On 7/19/2020 at 7:26 AM, Keiyuh said:

No need to be so dark 

If you really want affection try to get closer to people without giving yourself away that's how I lived for 18 years

Dunno man at this point its less "wanting affection" as much as it is "needing affection"

Honestly I've never been one to feel despair over being unloved but growing up made me realize it's not easy either to be 100% alone in this big bad world as I had hoped to sigh 

Bills are easier if split and I guess the lack of any punctual human touch to make them "snap out of it" is why some celebs commit suicid*

But honestly @shiroihana IA thats very enlightening. But personally from observation one thing I realized is most people who "lean left" ALSO don't Actually lean left, they're just privileged enough to live the society of the spectacle dream without any actual care for social issues, but it pins them as horrible human beings if they actually admit they don't care on a deeper level for humanitarian issues and whatnot so they throw empty discourse around. In the end, it's ~empty discourse for a lifetime and then we all die ~ from both sides, so your point is totally understandable from my point of view. (That is as someone working in fucking public social work where some Positively Privileged people with an uni degree HAVE to pretend to be amazingly enlightened humans to have some credibility, and boy I've seen SOME SHIT in here lol.)

Also why am I the woman with the candyfloss-haired kpop idol on the avatar saying such deeeeep stuff? Clearly this world's upside down COVID wants us all in hell

I can't write and nobody cares - a post on being unloved I guess

On 6/25/2020 at 5:32 PM, Jigsaw9 said:

I just remembered ICEMAN, who were basically Y2K Aesthetic: The Band ...they're categorized as J-pop tho I think (well, they look and sound like very soft electro-infused vk pop if you squint hard enough). Anyway, I knew some vk fans who were into them long ago, maybe someone here will dig them.

 

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Not just ICEMAN but a whole segment of 90s jpop - through names and acts such as AXS and, well, all of DA Family actually - was very... very Y2K vibes; but I used to think of vk as sort of the antithesis to it, as a whole. Like, where jpop was aggressively Y2K ~trendy bandomen~ were often just vampiresque lol.  So, sadly, nothing to contribute here but thanks for this topic, it's pretty nice!

6 hours ago, Karma’s Hat said:

If you have a bazaar nearby where you're at then I suggest just going for that. When I get back home I'm now on just going to buy most if not all my foodstuffs from old ladies selling things from the back of their truck rather than from some oligarchic market chain fuck that shit. One thing I've actually learned about myself is that I'm not anti-social or introverted, it's just that this bullshit dehumanising society pushed me into thinking I was one. I actually really like small talking with vendors just like I liked talking with customers when I was working in a bar no matter how stupid they are, which I would have never expected when I spent like 25 years avoiding the looks from neighbors and other people in transport. It's just a different, more humane environment where you can be how you are and you're in no rush to get anywhere to slave away for someone else's profit. 

But aren't we all that?

Personally other than homemade foods and such (which I love, to the point I was involved in organizing a fair for crafts and such and made a point of buying at least one product from each vendor for years as a student ; ; ) I love thrift stores but where I live there aren't many good "classy" thrift stores, the nicer ones are pretty much all in the same poor neighborhood which I love as I used to work there and study close by and it's a thriving neighborhood full of small businesses, but people just assume if you're walking there you are either a) a local with little disposable money or b) some politician trying to mingle ... So I used to go there a lot (because I wanted secondhand clothes and toys for my fairy kei and cosplay endeavors and it was close by lol also I'm a collector and there was some nice stuff ... ) but yeah it's kinda frowned upon, people have this idea that you're stealing clothes from the poor instead of buying in chains that employ them. And I get that there's a point, but it's a bit of a loose one (how am I ruining any big chain's business by buying a few pieces secondhand? Isn't that money partly reverted to charity anyway?,) if I can't buy secondhand (or from producers ...) I'd rather not buy clothes at all so nowadays I find myself buying more used clothes from ~j-fashion~ communities than anywhere else. And it's not really something conscious, I just found out that I much prefer getting goods knowing exactly what I'm paying for (instead of "buying" bullshit shenanigans) and at the same time speaking to the vendors/artisans and giving/getting direct feedback feels great. Instead of having something shoved on your face by a poor tired employer who's pretty much doing their best to not appear to be a slave to some big ass chain

There's precisely two thoughts going on in my head right now

The first one is something more or less along the lines of (5th post last to first)

The second one is why the hell aren't they releasing any new Castlevania games? Am I supposed to watch the Netflix show and download the mobage to get my fix? Wonder if the team have become janitors already 

I was listening to some of you guys' works and it's soo good. Keep it coming.

Meanwhile I played one (1) anison on a recorder for school when I was 13

4 minutes ago, ChaoticEnding said:

Ao menos não tento adivinhar a vida de ninguém, só digo o que é evidente. Aliás você agora, como sempre, errou categoricamente tudo sobre mim. 

E veja que não reclamei do aspecto visual de ninguém, mas da mentalidade e das ideias que são transmitidas no vídeo.  Eu achei,  estranho.

"xiu boomer " Meu deus... -.-

 

Enfim.. block. 

Mas acabei de falar que não era sobre o vídeo acima (que me parece uma piada de primeiro de abril por motivos óbvios, fechei gargalhando na parte "Gazette carrega 70% do vk nas costas" lol) e consequentemente não sobre você, nem era pessoal. 

Mas que tem essa cultura "JOVENS SE DIVERTINDO 😕" em comunidades de vk - e metal geralmente ... - tem sim, o que é especialmente engraçado considerando que a maioria das pessoas que tem A Reação é exatamente quem era aquela espécie de jovem. Só uma discussão ampla mesmo, sem zoeira. 

On 4/8/2020 at 6:01 PM, ChaoticEnding said:

Eu passo longe dessas coisas, achei por acaso e slá, de 2006 pra cá ainda tem gente com essa mentalidade, com essas ideias sobre VK.
Eu acho muito estranho.

Mas fazer o que, juventude...

 

 

Adoro os tiozão falando isso como se não fosse o próprio jovem metaleiro do cabelo longo loiro em 2003 

Digo isso porque concordo e nunca discordei do comentário imediatamente acima, mas pessoal do MH me parece muito "ECA!! CRIANÇAS/JOVENS" kkk xiu boomer 

(Não é sobre esse vídeo, que me parece uma grande piada de primeiro de abril.) 

Wtf. I was going to post something heartwarming + insightful about the disease and all of a sudden my laptops internet connection is not working anymore. It's wireless so it's really beyond me why, but wireless connections simply vanished ; Refreshing and nothing, restarted it already aaand nothing. Guess I only have my mobile connection now lol. 

Anyway. Where was I ... 

Myself. Things are hectic. Guess since herd immunity failed us the gv now goin for natural selection. Auths barely think for themselves so we are going back to work bc other countries are too. But our winters happening now 

I work in child care too so. More than anything I've always worried for those kids who have nothing in life but their grandparents; they are NOT few and they are going to shelters if anything happens 😕 more than money which has always failed me/us it's worrying me since day one of these bs happenings. 

I'm quarantined alone (as an essential worker I was asked to return to working locally.) missing my loved 1s ; mental health, never really had it but its worsening ; everything sucks basically. Anyway. Am I healthy in any way right now? Probably not. Will it get better? Hmm, doubt it...? 

So sorry to bring up the elephant but. What dyall think about the entertainment industry, particularly bands etc? Those events got me rethinking certain things which happened in Nov-Feb ... Seeing these in another light. For one. The boy in my pic is a Chinese guy in a k-pop group. He was in a hiatus supposedly bc of mental health issues since Apr/May and it seems he asked to return to SK in Nov/Dec but was refused. At first every fan was mad worried (he's in the company known for ... Expelling Hyunah lol) but now thinking about it, maybe the industry had known beforehand? Not unlikely seeing as lives are ... Absolute nonos in a pandemic (crowds, touching, spitting...) . Kinda makes me see those world tours re/scheduled completely out of nowhere between Nov-Feb in another light too. 

when ya have a rly weird mix of tastes which you share with your 03 friends on Twitter but then you have to delete your Twitter because u found out one of your 2 sole exes actively tried to trick you in a MMO you're playing for the first time in ten years out of Absolute Boredom Lol           

Jesus fuck I try to stay away from everything so I don't get myself in trouble and guess what I got myself in trouble?? I SHOULD be working right now but holy fuck I don't have friends anymore and the dollar keeps on the rise I can't even buy FF7R

15 hours ago, Total Saikou said:

It's penis music lol. Okay, I'm not here to talk shit about pop music, especially not Kpop. There's more artistic merit to it than some give it, and many perfectly sane Kpop fans get unfairly lumped in with the Stans. 

 

But man, I used to be really neutral and happy towards Kpop back when I first got into VK, y'know, being like "Hey guys, let's all get along and talk music and have fun 🤗" but then some of them got into my DMs and completely disrespected my music taste, insisted that "It's all Asian, it's the same, so you should love BTS too or something's wrong with you weeb" and I even got into a fight with one because she said some super ignorant things about--not VK or the band--but just metal music in general (didn't help that she attacked Insanity Injection whom I really like but she said "this isn't music, it's people screaming into the mic" and so I just reversed the logic with "[Kpop] is not music, it's meaningless noise created for brainless consoomers"). All of this shit wasn't even on Twitter, it was on fucking anime Instagram posts and random or VK Youtube videos. And nothing, not even saying "I don't like western pop" or "I'm not fond of Jpop myself" calms them down. I've been called racist against Asians because I don't like Kpop--never mind the fact that I'm on this forum so that says something about what I think about Asian people--I'M FROM ASIA. I don't even pass for white more than like 25% of the time... Honestly, it just makes me more and more irate as the years go by, because I was so open minded about it and willing to be friendly and actually listen to their damn band recommendations. At this rate I'll be an unironic Anti before I'm legally old enough to pour my own drinks. 

 

That background is needed to understand my current stance. I did genuinely try to get into Kpop; I started with BTS like they all tell you to and I listened to about 5 different releases of theirs.

 

 I was far from impressed. They sounded behind the times. Not in a charming way, but in a way that made me feel... Uncomfortable? I recognized the electronica-infused choruses and hip-hop inspired verses from Western pop music and even some elements from 2010s fads like tropical house production [God I hated that fad] and asked myself "Why is this any better than the white people stuff?" I don't think it is. I think it's on par, personally. I think this stems from an issue Kpop fans have. They can't just call a mediocre album a mediocre album, or even acknowledge a bad song/album because of hype. It's all got to be amazing, flawless, like the second coming of Christ. Honestly, even bands I consider to be absolutely amazing have some songs I don't hype because they're a step in wrong direction or have questionable production choices, but when I say "Yeah, this album is pretty great, but stay away from track X Y Z, they're not the best" the person receiving my recommendation often finds it funny and listens anyway, and then we can have a laugh about how weird it was for a VK band to do Ska or for the vocalist to think that now's the time to try opera vocals for the first time in his life. Sometimes I even completely shit on a band I love because they're an acquired taste or have an endearing charm and originality that lacks any and all technical savoir-faire. 

 

 

Personally, I don't understand how anyone from any counterculture/alternative music group (wassup punks and Goths) could be really into something mainstream at the same time, I thought we gathered around this stuff because it was alternative and had messages in it that differ from the mainstream.  Sure, you could remark on all the Oshare bands that aren't particularly deep or meaningful to say that VK in general is artistically bankrupt but it also wouldn't be fair if I pretended that this whole scene is just deliciously layered social/political commentary like Diru or idiosyncratic cultural experimentalism like Guruguru Eigakan.  On the mainstream aspect, I mean, the mainstream kind of defines the space that creates a counterculture. It's not what they are. Well I mean, what's not mainstream is the they, and mainstream is the us. I think this sense of othering VK bands and fans experience is central to the culture's structure, as something that exists as a byproduct of failed standard conformation. 

 

 I don't know how some VK fans can up and leave for Kpop so quick. Maybe they just liked the Oshare stuff, I guess, but I can't believe they would leave behind all the great post-punk, experimental, speed metal, alt-rock, etc. groups behind when Kpop doesn't offer anything similar. When I listen to pop music, I long for that missing guitar solo, or lack of Jpop chords (if it's Western pop music). Also the PVs are completely different--least from what I see. Every Kpop group I've seen is good at dancing. Hella good. And I've been doing dance for 8 years of my life, I know good technique and stage presence when I see it. When I say that, you might be shocked to know that I still prefer VK PVs where the bandomen just stare at the camera and sulk, or dance around while playing guitar or something. There's been masterful executions of this simple formula, like in cali≠gari's 歪んだ鏡 which legit gave me nightmares of Hage Shuuji staring into my soul.  Might be a false positive because that song dredges some mental trauma other than his face but my point still stands. There's also a lot of PVs that don't have killer dance moves but have a lot of creative spirit to them, like BUCK-TICK's EMPTY GIRL or literally anything Malice Mizer filmed, and that's the stuff I like the most. I've lost interest in big-budget MVs, and prefer a smaller scale spectacle.

I agree, particularly with "They can't just call a mediocre album a mediocre album, or even acknowledge a bad song/album because of hype. It's all got to be amazing, flawless, like the second coming of Christ."

Becuase it is what it is. It's a fad, a cultural phenomenon, something that's so good right now! even if it actually sucks, is actually losing its shine etc. because now international media has appropriated it to the point of making it seem like a political agenda its original creators never reeeally intended it to be, y'know. And, well, my point being exactly that they did intend it to be a political agenda... a lot. Just probably not to this degree.

But - it's somewhat akin to what anime was in the past, right? The whole "anime aesthetic", "anime game" (which was literally just: japanese game with cartoon graphics ... lol ; ; ; ), "anime whatever" of the 90s and maybe even early 2000s. And it was cool around the world, and then suddenly it wasn't cool anymore. Before that, the hippies were cool, etc. Think of whatever cultural fad to illustrate my perspective.    

So, I guess what I was trying to argue before is exactly that - sure VK was never terribly mainstream, but everyone who's like 30 now probably lived an era when it was, at the very least ... cool. In a, y'know, oh, ok, these kids with the colorful Final Fantasy hairstyles are actually creating something artistically new. Until, again, it wasn't anymore. And before not being cool anymore of course it was appropriated in many ways - it's not really a coincidence that every bandomen from back then suddenly became ~*multicultural and global*~. Anyway... So it's not really a coincidence that some elements are present in both because, well, pop culture/media/etc works like that. Not to say "nothing is new" but of course some trends will be literal emulations or polar opposites of others. Making these "others"' presence undeniable.   

Ver a galera falando mal do album do Dimlim em peso sendo que a única música que escutei achei "não tão ruim" me lembra como disseram que MUCC acabou em Karma e é o que eu mais tenho escutado nos últimos meses no repeat

I've got atm my old PSP and old DS phat, play otoge and stuff like that sometimes. I def need to buy a PS4 to play the titles I have already bought lol and thinking of buying a retro console too. Still torn between SNES, Saturn and Dreamcast. Although I've played SNES and DC on emulator already so leaning more towards the Saturn now (I've got a few Saturn and SNES titles but getting DC titles sounds ... difficult ...... . )

The idea of creating a retro style neocities to host my stuff because I'm old is dumb but I never said I'm smart anyway

It has just recently occurred to me that Hatenkou Yuugi is already in volume 21 so now aside from Hunter x Hunter I also expect to catch up on that lol. Wish me luck I guess

I came into this topic expecting Hitsugi and I didn't get Hitsugi so here's mr. coffin on the rare occasion where he is smiling for your viewing pleasure! (big "I'm an emo boy who rarely smiles but when I do it's really cute, even though I'm nearly 40" energy)

Thank you, now I can go back to my regular "what's this crushing on visual kei oyaji bs? I don't know any of that" agenda

It's my first time doing this in a very "why not" fashion, expect me to give up in 0.5 days

I'm bad at ratings so sorry if I reevaluate  this in 0.2 days 

I decided to do this because I thought Dimlim's album sucked so bad I found myself skipping all of it and I'm glad I'm not alone in those thoughts lol.

* = It's not yet released OR I didn't listen to the full thing yet so my comments are concerning the MV/previews

J-MUSIC  

• [January 07] [single] グラビティ↗︎↗︎楽しさFULLVOLTAAAGE!!! (Gravity) - 決意ゼロヒャクMAX!! (Ketsui Zero Hyakku Max) - 7/10
  It's... a very solid rating coming from me I swear.
• [January 20] [album] ACME - WE ARE VISUALKEI - 7/10
  This Best Of album is so goooood. The only thing I don't like about ACME, as I realized, is that they somehow got robbed during that US tour if that means they won't want to come/feel safe in my country lol aside from that, I love. Rock on. 
• [January 25] [pv] SHIN x Alice Nine - Velvet - 8/10
  This is a rating pure out of nostalgia because this cover really sent me back to the Rainbows days. Great song and great vocals singing.
• [February 19] [album] Queen Bee - BL - 7/10
  First time properly listening to Queen Bee mostly because of their videos on The First Take and it's pretty cool. Not really in a "ohh my jam" way but it's good and chill music. What drew me to them was probably how the vocalist looks anything but generic j-pop/rock singer but their voice is as generic as it goes, although very skilled.
• [February 26] [single] flumpool - 素晴らしき嘘 (Subarashiki Uso) - 6/10 
  Still need to watch Ahiru no Sora ... I really need to watch it ....... the song is ok but I bet it looks amazing as a TV size opening and I don't want to spoil myself. Because I swore I'd watch it but lol
• [March 01] [album] DaizyStripper - INFINITY - 6/10
  * It's OK and my brain is like "mugen no kanata heeeee" all day lol
• [March 4] [single]  SID - delete - 6/10
  * Technically, rhythm-wise it'd be a 5/10 tops but I adore his voice lol
• [March 4] [single] ACME - 嘘顔 (Usogao)  - 6/10
  * I mean... it's cool
• [April 22] [album] Miyavi - Holy Nights

K-MUSIC

• [February 12] [album]  펜타곤 (Pentagon) - UNIVERSE : THE BLACK HALL - 7/10
  The first full album is definitely not their best but far from being their worst.

OTHERS

A solid "none" currently. Also I purchased Persona 5 and FFXV already but still didn't decide on a PS4 model lmaoo

I SWEAR TO ESDMDMKM I actually tweeted something like "I feel so sorry for the japanese clerk at Mandarake who's gonna pack fifty < 100 JPY lightweight items and be like 'why is this weird foreign girl buying so many obscure blcds... and 90% of them starring Tattsun ... oh no'" because I was embarassed enough at myself already

But then the store formally answered "we won't! Buy to your heart's content!" to which I am ... probably half grateful and 99% embarassed 

(No but really, I did cut down on my purchase a lot since I tweeted that... esp because I found some albums I wanted for a while now... and I wanted a doll too so ... *sigh* I was so happy no clerk would think of me weirdly anymore)

1. Nightmare

2. Shounenki (I kinda like AmaBo but SHOUNENKI ......) 

(abyss, and after that everything is in no particular order probably just whatever I thought of as something I listen to semi/regularly)

3. Gravity

4. Neverland

5. Moran

6. ACME(/DIV)
7. Gigamous

8. HOLYCLOCK   

9. Kiryu

10. Leetspeak Monsters 

Honorable mention to kannivalism/baroque, ViViD and SCREW all of which I have never heard enough since back in the old days but what I have I either like or didn't actively dislike and should listen to more often. If I did, they'd probably replace the last 3 places. Also honorable mention to oldies Miyavi and Abingdon Boys School which I have seen mentioned itt and were my jams in my teenage years along with Ancafe or A9 etc. Actually, honorable mention to every non-vk jrock band standing in that abyss lol

October: saw my kpop boys (A.K.A. Pentagon - no, not that one)  

January: saw Miyavi and I can't really explain my picture in any way other than "I suddenly remembered I didn't pay to get close to him, breathe his air or shake his hand but to take a picture"  

Eai, alguém quer alguma coisa da Mandarake (exceto o que vou comprar e não tem mais estoque)? 

Not to be A Kpoppie but my favorite kpop boys just made a comeback and I've been listening to this for 3 hours straight lol