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you could take advice from this guy:
 

Well I don't suddenly feel like a fucking prophet...
 

"What if you broke your arm or something before the Yiruma concert tonight. Would you still go?"
 
Even if I were shot, I would still go. Lol.
*Knockonwood*

Is this a tribute song by P.T.P for K? I'm not sure exactly but dang, if it is his band really gave him some of the best tribute songs.

I've been wanting to write some of this stuff out forever because I'm a huge digital packrat and I like to archive these types of things... I don't think any of this has been written out anywhere before, but I'm not sure how much people actually care about the fan culture part of VK here, especially the Japanese fan culture, and especially the online Japanese fan culture. But, just in case any of you are also level 50 Turbo Nerds I thought I should post it here. I hope this is a sensible place to put it??

this piece is WAY too long for how lame the subject is and i'm so sorry
tl;dr: tanuki is old as fuck and there used to be another tanuki and forums are dead, long live tanuki

edit: fixed a number i screwed up
 
 

Flights from SF to LA is $60 each way on Alaska atm. There is also driving, which costs the same, but at least you can drive around and not Uber.

Why does everything and anything P.T.P related cause me to start crying? And I didn't get into them until shortly after K passed away. Someone randomly suggested them to me once and they have ruined my life. I am an emotional puddle.
 
Not sure if lyrics have ever touched me as much as K's have. It's eerie. But they've really helped me during tough times. I started to listen to them regularly when I was deeply depressed and would go for long walks (I think I would walk around for five or so hours a day, just aimlessly, for two months) or bike rides. Kind of associated a lot of their songs with healing.

Why does everything and anything P.T.P related cause me to start crying? And I didn't get into them until shortly after K passed away. Someone randomly suggested them to me once and they have ruined my life. I am an emotional puddle.
 
Not sure if lyrics have ever touched me as much as K's have. It's eerie. But they've really helped me during tough times. I started to listen to them regularly when I was deeply depressed and would go for long walks (I think I would walk around for five or so hours a day, just aimlessly, for two months) or bike rides. Kind of associated a lot of their songs with healing.

Your #kayaforseason10 movement has paid off...
 
Kaya will appear at RuPaul's Drag Con in Los Angeles, California in 2018.
 
http://kaya-rose.com/information/detail.php?id=220
(( THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING GUYS HOLY SHIT))

My friend has had professors she's a TA for ask her to review their syllabuses and go over what they will teach in the course because they feel like they don't know what they're doing. She doesn't even have her MA yet. She is concerned. 
 
Her university doesn't have a great reputation though. She's sent me photos of some of the students' assignments and midterm answers and we both cringed. I was also deeply concerned why the professor of the women's literature course chose to have their class read Twilight when I visited the school bookstore. I'm hoping they chose Twilight for some good reason because WHY are you having a third year literature class read TWILIGHT?
 
 

at this point i feel like some of my professors are just artificially trying to pad out their courses so they don't look entirely useless

I feel like Klaha was better than Gackt if only for all the off-key singing, that makes me cringe. But I find his voice to be much more pleasant and impacting in general.  Such a waste...

This is my entire FB feed ATM and not a huge K-pop fan but even I can't deny how good this is.
 
(Unrelated)
 
SEVDALIZA is a constant on my playlist D:
 
 

when did sm get better music producers/music video directors/better fucking budgets wtf I am slayed

bi tch why is he not doing this when I'm visiting two months later????

*screams in emogaze*

Did not expect this dude I've been talking to to be a L'Arc~en~Ciel fanboy. 
 
It's always kind of odd knowing I have mutuals with tofubeats because he's the senpai of some of my friends. I'm also pretty sure I have friends who know フレデリック personally. 

Honestly, I'm surprised Trump hasn't been assassinated or something yet. 

#frombehindtheseemptywalls

I've given up on relationships for the most part. I'd much rather use my single time for casual dates, maybe play the field a bit while I can.
Apart from that, I haven't dated anyone since a little over a year ago mainly because I tend to have a shitty taste in dudes. Most of the guys I've dated or even found attractive, period, have turned out to be assholes, and most of those times I've either failed to pick up on that or refused to acknowledge it.
That and because most if not all of the dudes that become interested in me seem to think of me as a manic pixie dream girl. :/ It's depressing because I can hardly make/keep male friends without them catching feels.

Yeah, there are a growing number of DINKs (Dual Income No Kids) like my husband and I. With lower take home incomes for men forcing women to work as well,  people getting married later or not at all, and women or men just generally wanting to bow out of this social pressure, not a lot of the younger generation is eager to take on the task. Just the work culture here alone is enough to make you dead inside if you let it.

Oh man, I remember friends telling me how babysitting isn't a thing in Japan. My best friend who is Japanese is stressed because she's not sure she ever wants children or even to get married. She absolutely hates the idea of becoming a housewife although she admires them because of her mother. I know she's definitely not the only J-girl friend of mine in that boat. One of my J-dude friends and I talked about how he thinks the social pressure is so unfair on women and how it ends up affecting everyone, and how better options for childcare need to exist. I think that unfortunately influenced his decision not to become an English teacher despite having the qualifications and taking a higher paying corporate job. 
 
 

I was somewhat on the fence in my teens about not wanting children. I'm in my 30s now and over the years have gradually moved into the "never having kids" zone. The only exception being that should I ever change my mind (not likely but just entertaining the possibility) I would adopt. But, at this point I don't even want that.
 
There are few j-guys that don't want kids, and my husband and I are both only children. The social pressure to have kids here is insane with the declining birthrate and all... Because of outside peer pressure sometimes my husband entertains the thought of having children, tho he pretty much reverts to "ah hell no" status the rare times we babysit for our friends' kids. He tires out easily and gets irritated when he doesn't get a full night's sleep and his free time is taken away from him, so I figure he'd get stressed/sick of parenting really fast. Also ultimately in Japan, the child rearing responsibility would fall fully on me, and so he doesn't try and force that burden on me knowing I'm not interested. However, we discussed all of this before marriage, and still check in that we're on the same page from time to time.
 
Reasons I don't want kids:
 
- I just don't want them
I actually like kids, but only in measured doses. I don't have a ton of free time as it is, and I know I would be miserable having to give that up for someone else. I also enjoy having the freedom to travel, going to lives, go out with friends, etc. with what little free time I do have, and that would be hard to do with kids since babysitting (like calling a babysitter) is an foreign concept to most Japanese people and the in-laws don't live nearby. My (girl)friends with kids hardly ever go out, hardly ever have any time away from their kids alone with their husbands, never have time to care for themselves, their houses are always a mess, and it just feels like they live the same day over and over. Their roles are limited to "mommy". Also they hardly ever sleep and look tired all the time. I mean they're happy so I'm happy for them, but it's just not the life for me. My husband and I have two cats. They provide the same cuteness and affection and are only a fraction of the work.
 
- They're expensive
I would have to work completely from home (instead of partly), and even then for the first couple of years childcare is pretty much a full time job in itself, so I doubt I'd get much done. My husband doesn't make enough money for me to quit my job. (Thanks crippling student loan debt D: )
 
- Overpopulation
This is the biggest one, even if we did actually want kids. There are already too many people on the planet and we're killing it. The way things are going, it's unlikely the earth won't succumb to global warming or war over lack of resources before any potential kids would grow old and pass on. I couldn't have them knowing that, just for vanity's sake of having a mini me or two running around.

Deciding not to have kids is frustrating because most doctors will refuse to tie your tubes or do anything permanent if you're young and/or haven't had kids yet, because they always assume you will change your mind.