Manji 卍

exploiting such issues are too inappropriate for a forum like this.
it involves alcoholism,self harm,social phobia,death of relatives,suicide,etc.

i don't wanna look like someone trying to get attention,like: "why is this guy saying such stuff"

i know,when you writte sad things on internet,somehow you want to be noticed, 

and at the same time take a load off your shoulders.even annonymous,it is embarrassing.

i'll try to be as coherend as possible with the forum's policy while i speak out my mind,

cuz making texts is better than hurt myself sporadically. 

i wouldn't come up with any story of mine,now i just thought about some serious thread,basically like the random thoughts thread,but only for "depressive" stuff.

(sorry for the big text)

thank you so much,guys,for caring about.

i feel pathetic for saying it,but this forum became something more to me at some aspects.

i decided not to create it,cuz i am sure,this is really really dark,and i don't wanna get to exposed,nor encourage anyone into such stuff.so...again,thank you so much.

yea,perhaps hiroto is going through some personal thing...

i'll be completely okay if Seiya just follow Ryuya's steps and join some serious band

and do what he likes to do,so we all would get one more great band in the game

Oh... that's odd.i never thought about it before,I mean,I was sure that Deviloof would stay Deviloof. Well, perhaps it won't even change that much. The song baby don't cry is veery Deviloof and correct if I'm wrong but I think Seiya wasn't even present when they recorded that ,so...idk. the X factor is their new guitarist that looks like MiA and Bou at the same time

Their first two looks when ryuya was still in the band were so decent,after that they tried to look as vk as possible and been making REALLY bad choices. The only way is focus on the music and forget the visual shit

@patientZERO  man,that pic made me cringe, what's up with those outfits?! If i didn't know the band I'd never say that they are death core dudes

@merchenticneurosis   I'm seriously thinking about quitting demon for a while and starting over with the dark series, I do have patience (I play fatal frame for example)  and I love the medieval ambient,but I always end up punching my joystick lol

@platy @Licio123 ya,I heard people saying that Demon was the hardest one. And is Dark souls at least a bit easier? Please -__-"

@Elazmus my plan was beat Demon Souls and then start with the Dark souls series,but i simply can't go further lol lol

(Edit: I made the mistake of playing with the knight, and it was impossible,so I switched to the magician)

Now it looks like a strategy game in disguise. I mean,you think that you just need to walk and kill everyone,but you need to memorize the enemy's movements before making yours , however it's driving me MAD

That shit is only for hardcore players

Yea,platy, your text is a fact....and I confess that I had some opportunities to be with real "good girls",I mean ,those respectful girls,but I kinda screwed that up with my approach. I gave up my University bcuz of my depression and now I work as a bartender in a big bar few days a week,and I can tell you that place is a cesspool of promiscuous people and vile girls with no values at all. Yesterday for example I saw my college of work staying there overnight just to have an affair with my boss and he's married with a new born child.i walked back to home wishing I could slit my throat, can't explain my level of disgust for that. In resume, I've been seeing the ugliest side of humans,that plus my previous bad experiences contributes for my lack of faith. 

But I feel like your text gave me a North,so thank you