Jump to content
Monochrome Heaven is closed. We have moved to JROCK ONE.

少女椿

Hot People
 View Profile  See their activity

  • Content Count

    178

  • Joined

  • Days Won

    1

Posts posted by 少女椿

  4. Posted

    It's so fun to see when people are mourning when celebrities talks about depression or committed suicide, but when it comes to the closest relationships, friends, parents, they always, like, "you? Depression? Pff, no", when I'm trying to describe my feelings and thinking about suicide, trying to get help, everyone pretending that nothing happens at all. I dont want to deal with it. When I was 15, I thought it would be good to die at 35. 

    I'm turning 28 next week, and the last couple of weeks my mind was changed. Doesn't matter how hard I try, I'm tired. I have no interest in life. Tired to change myself for being good for everyone, to be worth to hear a single cheerful word. I'm not sure I want to wait until 35. If life brings nothing but pain, there's no reason to wait?

    Too deep thoughts for the lunch break, huh... I'm working with people who turned 95, 98, 100, 102. I'm here I am, almost 28, moving like a puppet doll, emotionless, trying to hide tears. Forgot how to live without "I want to die, I want to die, I want to die" in my head, every day, every fucking second.

  12. Posted

    I thought I was into girls and extremely unlucky with relationships, and I was that kind of sad old virgin (asexual old virgin) everyone always mention when it comes to talking about poor singles. But then I lost my virginity with the man I love to the moon and back, I'm 27 and finally feel myself ready for this kind of relationships (like, I feel myself hungry and naughty all the time we meet!), so yes, virginity isn't a question of time, but question of your mental state... I feel a bit ashamed of being a virgin for too long, on the other hand I'm ashamed to lost my virginity before marriage, because I was raised like that... 

    nullmoon reacted to this

  13. Posted

    22 minutes ago, carddass said:

    Thanks, that's a great collection of links.

    Gin Satoh, who photographed all of the great early 80s punk and hardcore bands in Japan, doesn't have an instagram account personally but if you search for his hashtag you'll find lots of his great work. His eye and style defined the scene back then:

     

    https://www.instagram.com/explore/tags/ginsatoh/

    Last year his legendary 'underground GIG' book was released again in its longest version yet at a whopping 600 pages. I highly recommend it for anyone who is a fan of photography or the hardcore / punk scene in Japan back then:
    http://www.slogan.co.jp/portfolio/undergroundgig/

    images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRvRTGu7DSrBQ2e9S21u91

    mori reacted to this

  23. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Alsdead14 said:

    Damn... I kinda remember hearing someone jump and tried to kill himself, but didn't remember who it was. Must of been hell, I'm not always aware of what's going on in the scene, but this is not something I would like to go through to play music... I really hope he is okay now.

    It seems he's on the therapy, but overdosing and taking his pills with alcohol... that's scary

×
×
  • Create New...