it's only torturous if you're introverted, bae!!! i typically talk to trees, walls, and my sbux soy matcha!!! I also spiritually #sext Danny sometimes, when he's online on MH.
Everyone goes through it. Some friends'll leave but then there's others who will stick with you for good, through thick and thin. Others who might be around longer than others. It's life, no? Either way, you'll always have a friend even if you don't think you do.