Manji 卍

Tried to do things right, changing my habits, abandoning my vices, but I've just climbed to fall from a higher place.it was extremely frustrating,but not the first time that I fail,not at all. I'm a "problematic person" since I was 14 when my mother and grandmother died. Nothing works my way since then,I always fail

Feeling absurdly idiot writing all of this,you guys have no idea,but thank you for caring about. I know everyone here has a sad story to tell or some problem to deal with as well. I know that I'm not the only one. I'm not sitting here making drama on the internet and consuming alcohol. Actually,I do the best I can to not lose control and just carry on my life,I live by myself,paying my bills and stuff,but you know what? It doesn't worth it.

i must say i genuinely respect you for having strength to say all of this. and i'm sorry for your loss.

so now you've quitted your job and haven't got a new one yet? can't decide what to do next?