RaeDesu
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Today is the 18th in America, which means it's my sweet prince's birthday~
Happy Birthday, Ruiza ❤️
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This is going to be a really long post, but I literally lost sleep last night thinking about this haha.
I really also don't know why I'm posting this. Maybe I just need to post it somewhere where people will understand. The community that I love so much.
Music really has a way to change us, mold us, and destroy us.
I was super into Versailles when they formed. I had always liked Kamijo, and followed him pretty extensively through his Lareine career; although I had to do it through my friend who liked him, she would get mad if I liked him. But that's a different story.
I had been a fan of Versailles since the day they started. I fell in love with "The Revenant Choir" instantly. And I fell even more in love with Jasmine You, the beautiful, talented bassist.
I ended up spending all of the money from my first job on Versailles and D stuff. To the point where I made stupid mistakes and overdrafted my account and my parents had to bail me out hah. But I knew that I had found something amazing. Versailles touched my heart in so many ways.
I ended up owning (and still do), their entire discography up through Jubilee. Including rare live-only cds and things I had to use shopping services to purchase. I had to have it, I had to support this amazingly talented band.
And then it hit me like a bag of bricks. Jasmine You had passed away. As quickly as they had come, they were gone. And I couldn't handle it. I was such a huge fan of his, I lost it. I had never cried over a celebrity death before, but I literally played "Episode" over 1,000 times, my grief was very strong. I didn't know how to deal with the fact that a musician that I loved so dearly was gone from the world.
I didn't touch Versailles for years. I wouldn't follow them, wouldn't buy their other cds. I was grieving in that way. I didn't want to hear Versailles without Jasmine in it. And whenever any of their Jasmine-included songs would play, I would skip it, as it would upset me to the point of tears. I just couldn't do it.
Last night, I was watching some Kamijo videos. I can listen to his solo stuff just fine. And Lareine, too. Lareine is one of my favorite older bands; so I'm okay with them. On youtube, I was just clicking around. Watching Kamijo video after video. And then I saw it.
"Remember Forever."
A song dedicated to Jasmine, that I had never listened to, because it was on a cd that I had never bought. That I didn't know existed, because I had excluded myself from the world of Versailles. It was a live video, so I clicked on it.
I was not expecting the emotional ride that I went on. Purple lights on the stage; lights for him. For my bassist. And a song that was so beautiful, I started bawling my eyes out. It was written for him, and you could tell. The quietness of the audience made it even more real. But it was beautiful.
After I had finished watching it, I spent a lot of time just listening to Versailles. Thinking about Jasmine, and how happy he had made me when he was alive. And I realized that I shouldn't be afraid of change. I should continue to go on, even if something sad, or horrible happens. And that I should continue on.
Jasmine is a beautiful person, a memory that should never be forgotten. And I never will forget about him. It'll be 10 years in November since his passing. And I think I'm brave enough to play Versailles again. To REALLY enjoy them again.
For Jasmine's sake.
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That feeling when you order vk cds and you have to wait for them to get to you. But you want them NOW.
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I change my purse out today, go to an event, and of course when I get home, my cat has puked all over my good purse -_-;;; Thanks, Onyx
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It snows 6 inches today and the entire state is in panic mode.
Washington, PLEASE. We have had snow before.
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I know people are really not digging One Ok Rock's new album, but I actually really enjoy it??
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Yay, ZenMarket was able to order Ruiza's new album for me! Along with a whole bunch of his solo goods because I am a trash receptacle and love him so much and want to support him forever. ❤️
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I have to force myself to stay awake tonight to get my body ready for graveyard, and I'm just like. What should I do? Watch a series? An anime? A bunch of movies? I have no idea.
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I finally got my Ruiza solo bundle of stuff. It's all so cute, gaaaah. And his new single is so good, he sings again in it and it's adorable. I love itttt~!
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Saw Miyavi last night. It was a lot of fun! I got there at 12:30pm (Haha standing in line early life), and then did the VIP session at 6. I was 2nd in line, and met up with friends I haven't seen in years.
Miyavi put on a really great show, I was 3 feet from him the entire time, I got front and center against the barrier! I enjoyed his performance a lot, and it was a wonderful experience to see him again, it's been too long.
The only downside was that the venue didn't offer us water, or have water available for us, which is very strange, since every other venue I have been to offered water or had it available before/after the show for purchase. So I was dead after the concert, and super dehydrated from jumping around and headbanging lol.
But it was great! Would do it again. A+ good show.
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As the site comes to an end, I just have two things to say.
BONJOUR HONEY!!!!!
followed by
GRROOGUHMESH \m/
Aight, peace my dudes lmao. It's been real.
