Manji 卍

Yea,I can imagine...But 15 years? That's a lot.its been few years since I've been diagnosed with depression, however i can't imagine myself living like this for the rest of my life, or for more several years like u did.we kinda lose our faith sometimes,but deep inside we just wanna be ok, nobody likes to feel like shit 24/7. It's not exactly a tip,but why don't you try to contact with people who overcame depression? Just to make a "before & after" comparison... sometimes I do this on YouTube.Watching people talking about their own experiences with mental illness kinda gives me a light in the dark.

Ohwell, it may seem like it? but i, on the other hand, been diagnosed with BPD; been through months & months of therapy, numerous medications and honestly at this point, I've enough tools (not all of them healthy i admit) to deal with my brain's bullshit and come out not too worse for wear.

it's a bit different with bpd, I don't expect it to ever "end". 

Seeing people who were dealing with the same issues as me though, was a fucking turning point in my therapy tbh, so if these videos help you also? Awesome.

at the risk of sounding way too preachy, I can't recommend cognitive behavioural therapy enough or any group therapy for that matter. if you're up for therapy at all, check it out. I know it's not for everyone.

aaaaand i'll sign out before getting this status discussion way too heavy ^.~  

Your sense is right lol, better stop it for now,from here on the conversation would only get darker. There will always have pm tho.