Manji 卍

Are you getting help for this? I'm sorry, I know that's probably something you've been asked a million times before, but I've seen a lot of stuff like this from you and I can't help but worry. Besides, professional help is going to help you more than any of us can. You can talk to me if you need to and I might be able to do something, but I doubt I'm going to be able to do everything.

I've already said here that I've deleted all the other social media accounts I had few years ago, exactly because I was tired of "shocking" people with these "heavy" posts.tired of my own drama. nowadays all I have is this "small" place in this forum where I can say what's in my head,and honestly,it seems to be enough cuz there's a lot of response,it almost feels like a brotherhood. that's just 1% one percent of all the negativity that's going on in my head,and usually I save it to myself but i was drunk and ended up saying that and fell asleep afterwards.

To say it quickly,I had a nice job and frequenting a nice university ,but I couldn't deal with both anymore bcuz  of "depression" or whatever that was ,it was compromising my behavior and my productivity,so I decided to quit both.Finded a job that I hated, but easy to "execute", something that I wouldn't need to do any mental effort.However,I really hated that job,but after 2 years taking it and a lot of bad things I finally decided to quit this job as well and "turn the page",but again I'm struggling with negative self talking again and anxiety,I'm scared.