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@Gesu your early 20s do be like that. Start by filling your time in between job applications with volunteering, at least your CV won't be empty and it'll keep your mind busy. Opportunities are ripe atm with vulnerable elderly being unable to work at charity shops, for example. It'll give you experience dealing with people and it'll give you a reference you can call on for future jobs. Then, like mentioned above, take what you can because any foot in the door is a positive step towards getting smth better. 
 

@Gesu your early 20s do be like that. Start by filling your time in between job applications with volunteering, at least your CV won't be empty and it'll keep your mind busy. Opportunities are ripe atm with vulnerable elderly being unable to work at charity shops, for example. It'll give you experience dealing with people and it'll give you a reference you can call on for future jobs. Then, like mentioned above, take what you can because any foot in the door is a positive step towards getting smth better. 
 

Job searching is never easy. Anytime I've switched jobs I've had to apply to nearly 100 and I might get a reply back from 1-4 places give or take. It gets easier as you gain more experience, but that first step is hard. Honestly, job hunting still makes me uneasy after all these years.

It's tough finding someone who believes in you, but you just need one person or group who sees your potential. I'm not sure what field you're trying to get into but you just gotta keep building your skills however you can. Most importantly, don't be afraid to ask for help wherever you can find it. No one makes it alone and there's no shame in seeking help.

It's tough out there but keep your chin up. Stay positive!

@Gesu This may vary depending on where you live or your situation, but if you're struggling financially and need the income I'd say lower your standards and take whatever job you can. Even if you're not, your first job most likely won't be anything worth staying at anyway. All my past jobs have pretty much been crap, with my first job at some food manufacturer right when I got out of high school. I've also done dishwashing, housekeeping, and a custodian job to name a few....If you don't mind customer service/talking to people you may have more options. My current job is not even something I'm entirely proud of, but it's one of the better jobs I've had that helps pay the bills/school tuition, and gives me a flexible enough schedule to work on things on the side. If you can't get a job because you need 'experience' you could also try volunteering to build some. Anyway, like ghost said, it's tough, but I wish you the best of luck!

Japanese, Thai, Vietnamese and Korean are all veggie/vegan (ish) friendly and I love spicy stuff, however I'd love to get more into chinese cuisine but real chinese food has a lot of meat so I haven't had a proper opportunity yet.
 
African food also has a lot of meat based dishes, but otherwise is fairly similar to brazilian food and the things I have tried are all great.
 
Real Indian/Pakistani food = awesome, but I have less opportunities to try it.
 
I love latin american cuisine, of course I'm biased to Brazilian food but that's one of my favorites. From pastries, to an incredible range of deserts, best cheese, best breakfast, variety of beans, fruits, vegetables... LOVE IT ALL.
 
I think any country whose diet revolves around rice and veggies ends up on my favorites list 😅

Japanese, Thai, Vietnamese and Korean are all veggie/vegan (ish) friendly and I love spicy stuff, however I'd love to get more into chinese cuisine but real chinese food has a lot of meat so I haven't had a proper opportunity yet.
 
African food also has a lot of meat based dishes, but otherwise is fairly similar to brazilian food and the things I have tried are all great.
 
Real Indian/Pakistani food = awesome, but I have less opportunities to try it.
 
I love latin american cuisine, of course I'm biased to Brazilian food but that's one of my favorites. From pastries, to an incredible range of deserts, best cheese, best breakfast, variety of beans, fruits, vegetables... LOVE IT ALL.
 
I think any country whose diet revolves around rice and veggies ends up on my favorites list 😅

same energy

and despite all this he still respects the members and label? Right.

and despite all this he still respects the members and label? Right.

and despite all this he still respects the members and label? Right.

Time to serve some boiling hot tea today, folks...
 
Seven years after leaving AvelCain, Kasumi has written a sort of exposé of his time in the band, notably the moment when he wanted to leave the band due to his illness, but was ultimately turned away by management. 
 
Quick summary as I cannot provide a full accurate translation:
Kasumi valued his time in AvelCain, but due to suffering from facial paralysis and alopecia areata (bald spots) at the time, he was unable to continue and he requested that he leave the band. The president of Shimizuya Records turned him away, allegedly stating that they "didn't care for his story". Kasumi considered suicide as an only way out of the band, and he even tried jumping off of a 4 story condo (as he lived in a rural area) but fortunately came out unscathed. He has since recovered from his conditions (although he still suffers from paralysis when he gets tired) but he still suffers from depression as a result from his experience from being in the band, which included being naked in front of female staff, being beaten in front of his members, and even licking the nipples of a senior bandman. Despite all that, he still respects the band members, the label, and the bangya who have supported them. 
 
Full blog entry below:
 
https://ameblo.jp/avelcain/entry-12615608636.html
 
He has also posted additional tweets on his Twitter account about not being paid for songs he composed, band merch, or several fees he's paid out of pocket (transportation, costumes, recording, shooting) even after he had left the band. Overall, he states that this is a warning to young bandmen and hopes that this behavior still isn't going on today.
 

I have endometriosis which comes with a variety of crippling things such as sciatica and IBS. Compared to other sufferers of the condition, I have it really good. But it's still debilitating. Mental health is a whole other story, no diagnosis of anything but thanks to therapy I can lead a fairly normal life (I think) 

same energy

I only listen to REAL music ✔️🎵 and I respect the legends! 😤🙌 Kids these days don't know what REAL music is! ❌🤬 
 

After reading this thread I think we deserve a 'vomit' reaction, 'yikes' and 'wtf' aren't enough

On the Juka scat story: his ex who was also a MDM staff member was a customer of mine when I was a host in kabukicho, she told me lots of things but nothing ever with scat haha.

Just a random picture, I think. 
 
Here's a terrible rumor about the all-mighty Tsuzuku because I know you all just love him, lol:
I remember people saying he's emotionally abusive and would self-harm in front of girlfriends to manipulate them. I almost hope it's true because I can't imagine anyone being sick in the head enough to make that one up. Some Tanuki users would say that he hits his (former) bandmates.
If it's not true, it makes me wonder why some people have it out for him enough to say shit like that.

Pretty sure that was something made up by foreign gya and/or taken from some fucked up rapefic.
 
But other rumors about KISAKI..?
 
 
TLDR: He's a shitty person who ends up always giving STDs because he never wears condoms.

I believe that is called fanfiction

Are there any other rumors beside that? I remember hearing one about Kaoru being raped by Kisaki. 

Don't forget they said that he has so many [STDs] that his dick looks like cabbage.

My favorite is that Ryuutarou from plastic tree has a raging fetish for smelling the scalp of women he sleeps with. Also Meto and another member from a band I can't remember started fighting or smth and fell out of a window together?? 

Sometimes i wonder what some of you use as Profile Pictures. 
 
 
 
For myself, at the moment i use Ryo (joppin:cal, m:a.ture) from his Esolla/ Sound of drug times 
 i literally just saved the photo from mercari,
 https://www.mercari.com/jp/items/m67191477845/  someone photographed it of to sell XDDD

This was an incredibly difficult exercise. Tough to define your music tastes with just 5 artists. I tried selecting artists that cross a lot of genres or have a fairly diverse discography. But I think it can be summed up as:
 

 
 
Within just Japanese artists:
 
Dir en grey
Joe Hisaishi
Kumisolo
Nujabes
Rina Sawayama
 
 
All music (thought it was fair to bump it up to 10 artists here):
 
Alcest
Charli XCX
Dir en grey
GosT
Igorrr
Kevin Penkin
Macross82-99
The Midnight
Sewerslvt
Tyler the Creator

Currently Mako from deadman. ♥