Luca

This is unrelated, but today three tapes arrived to my home! Very happy. Gonna let 'em get ripped in FLAC for my personal collection.

 
Thanks!!
 

Hello there!
I heard about this community from a friend, Kuroi_dix.
Some of you might know me from my YouTube channel, Cantavanda.
My favourite Japanese bands are MALICE MIZER, LAREINE, ALI PROJECT, AMADEUS and deadman.
Here's my last.fm: https://www.last.fm/user/Cantavanda
My main reason for joining is for the marketplace, I hope that I'll be able to find and buy releases I'm looking for, but it'll be great if I could meet some new people here, and get involved in the community.
I doubt I'll be very active though, since I just can't get into much popular VK bands, or music in general. I'm very picky with what music I enjoy.
So hello!

Don't get me wrong, I think downplaying these events are obviously wrong, and feigning ignorance is very telling of character. Music v. Artist is not what I was getting at in particular (which has already been mentioned), but more of the person v. persona aspect (which is certainly a more complicated topic.) I find the opportunism a bit more of a cynical response rather than a malicious one. I would hope that no one would try to sell stuff solely b/c of this situation, because that would be in bad taste. (I don't intend to sell my rando KISAKI CD from a ClosetChild box until this dies down b/c I've been putting together stuff to get rid of for months now.) I think not caring or not wanting to watch KISAKI in anything is a perfectly reasonable response. What he did is disgusting and horrible, but I could still watch a Lin MV. Then again, I don't really idolize celebrities & musicians the same way as some people do either. Anyway, I'm just trying to approach this from a more neutral state (not with the crimes but w/ KISAKI), since I was never a huge KISAKI fan (moreso Lin.) 
 
Personally, I'm not going to meander though non-KISAKI stuff with how omnipresent he was, but I will continue to have a distaste for his image whenever I see him. He can rot in hell for all I care.

Like i said earlier, he's a pos. These multiple allegations and photos are just absolutely disgusting and deplorable. On top of all the other stuff he's added to his list, pedophillia is a automatic NO.  As a wise philosopher once said  "Fuck Kisaki, That old bitch."

In regards to the Bill Cosby fiasco...America has never been a friend to so-called 'African Americans'.  That's nothing new.  And while it's definitely an important issue - it's not the issue at hand here. I think the quotes below accurately sum up where our focus should be:
 

LMAO my shift manager walked in on me practicing Jigsaw furi in the staff restroom. Time to put in my 2 weeks notice LOL 

Because being a dick head has less to do with sexuality and more to do with being a dick head. You can be an awful human being no matter what you like. I really wish that people didn't use LGBT status as a shield to deflect criticism when their actions are worthy of being criticized. It just promotes double standards and confusions. If you can't deflect arguments on logical merits, take the L and keep it moving, you know?

bleached my hair some time ago
 

NSFW
 
 

Staying too long. Trying to fix things when I know deep down there's no way of salvaging the relationship without losing my sanity. Giving up my own life for the other person's happiness and ego. Pretty much ignoring clearly abusive situations and not knowing how to stand up for myself or how to walk away. 
 
Communicating how I feel is going to be super hard in future relationships because I'm used to just shutting down.
 

i like it when i add an album to itunes & the artist page changes color. i am 12.

me: I think I like someone?
person I like: *abruptly stops talking to me for no reason*
me: I guess never mind..?
 
 

Having a soft spot for someone while at the same time hating their guts and feeling angry to the point of nausea or wanting to cry upon thinking about them is the worst feeling ever. :/

Having a soft spot for someone while at the same time hating their guts and feeling angry to the point of nausea or wanting to cry upon thinking about them is the worst feeling ever. :/

Relationships, while they are cool drain you mentally and physically. Being with someone that doesn't properly reciprocate your feelings is one of the reasons you should kinda stay away from them. Being in one messy relationship after another it's kinda messed me up i guess? Im stuck between wanting a relationship and fuck it, Sometimes I don't know if it's my fault or if i've just a knack for finding the wrong people to fall for? It's confusing  really, I don't feel like my brain works the same way it used to. Relationships just leave me hurt and inquisitive of myself. I hate it when people hit you with the whole "it's not you" it's me thing. Like tell me the truth so I know not to make the same mistake twice.  Sugar Coating stuff like that only makes things worse for people on the receiving end. But it's not like they really care when they're interested in something else so lol

OMG~ this is how I feel everyday. To the point where I actively avoid it now, just so I don't feel like I am on another job.

I hate doing group projects with people who are so damn unmotivated with it and don't care about it at all. I started doing my part of it last week and got it fully finished a couple of days ago and everytime I try asking the others if they've gotten anything done yet I either get no answer at all or a "yeah I've thought about it a bit but haven't actually done anything." And the deadline for it is tomorrow. Amazing.
 

I don't know how to get over a relationship that never happened. Always leaves me emotionally broken, unlike those fuckers who gave up on me. I fucking hate suffering being dumped while the other person has moved on and found someone new already.  I wish I didn't have a heart.

I've given up on relationships for the most part. I'd much rather use my single time for casual dates, maybe play the field a bit while I can.
Apart from that, I haven't dated anyone since a little over a year ago mainly because I tend to have a shitty taste in dudes. Most of the guys I've dated or even found attractive, period, have turned out to be assholes, and most of those times I've either failed to pick up on that or refused to acknowledge it.
That and because most if not all of the dudes that become interested in me seem to think of me as a manic pixie dream girl. :/ It's depressing because I can hardly make/keep male friends without them catching feels.

I've given up on relationships for the most part. I'd much rather use my single time for casual dates, maybe play the field a bit while I can.
Apart from that, I haven't dated anyone since a little over a year ago mainly because I tend to have a shitty taste in dudes. Most of the guys I've dated or even found attractive, period, have turned out to be assholes, and most of those times I've either failed to pick up on that or refused to acknowledge it.
That and because most if not all of the dudes that become interested in me seem to think of me as a manic pixie dream girl. :/ It's depressing because I can hardly make/keep male friends without them catching feels.

So I didn't get moved over to the department I wanted because of recent sick issues that are no longer a problem because of getting my health sorted aka pulled out 6 bad teeth and getting the rest treated. But instead of letting it get to me I've decided to embrace it and be the stronger person in this situation. I've just got to remain motivated and focused!
 

update: twas fuckin awesome. tiny local metal concerts are my favourite thing (aside from some very obnoxious probably drunk moshers running around all over the place)

This is exactly what I'm thinking now: "wait, what?"
 
 

[ramble incoming]
I don't really have this experience here much as I just don't talk on here ever, this is mostly about people on Facebook VK forums, but. Whenever I try to make VK friends, I get a vibe from the people I try to make friends with that they think they're better than me for whatever reason. I want to go like "sorry to burst your bubble but you're not better than anybody, honey".
Then again I could just be imagining it. It's really hard for me to make friends with similar interests, so I think whenever I do find a friend I interact with them too much and freak them out, I guess. So that could be why, idk