I just happened to find the scene by chance when I was young and then it was very exciting. I didn't really think anything of it then (I was 11) but as years went by I admired them more and more and began wishing, yeah that's me, I guess. Cliche statement: Growing up I always felt different with everything and everyone but didn't really put anything together until a few years ago.
I'm not a teenager and this is not a phase. People always do that shit ten years ago everyone was bi! It's a very serious thing to me which only 3 people knew about until now...which makes me say, Naaaaani, not cool.