CELESTIAL CIEL

Ugh, I understand that. Those kind of relationships do a lot of harm, but you have to keep in mind you can only grow from here on and things will take a turn for the best

My self esteem was killed and I'm dead inside and too tired to move on. The whole year I was trying to hold on even if since the last February I don't remember any good moments or nights without tears. It's a huge story behind this words and I'm too weak right now to try to tell what going on even it's about a month since the turning point. I'm not sure I deserve any good words, and any chance to be someone's friend, or soulmate, or lover, or I don't really know what can be above. 

The suckiest thing that everyone who tried to talk with me, or be closer, or told me that this relationships are rotten from the beginning, everyone was ignored and deleted from my life because I was sure this could be a huge gesture of love and feelings if I can forget about everyone for her. I'm such a jackass, I know, and there's no logic in such things, but everything was ruined and there's no way back.