JRD

This breaks my heart because I've been following his activities since aya and GeNe(which should have lasted longer than they should). I swear I was looking up info on him a week ago to see how his condition was going. He's been fighting cancer since somewhere around the breakup of aya and the formation of GeNe, I believe. Which is like almost 10 years ago. I think it first went successful then it came back and got worse. Most people would have given up, but I think him just wanting to live and make music helped him going.
 
R.I.P Kentz

I bet for over 10 years I've been on this forum, some of you probably wanted to know how I looked like. If I was a guy, if I was a girl. Well both is correct, because I identify myself as gender fluid. I've always find myself reclusive and introverted and now since I fought my demons I just want to be a new me and just be me.
 
This is when I feel like being a guy.
 
Somewhere in between being a guy and girl.
 
And when I want to be my girl self. And Yes I do go out wearing makeup and all that jazz because California rules.
 

Showing what makeup and haircut can do to your face. So the different faces of JRD
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Also I lift, so don't come for me.
 
 

I want this. Sounds like a masterpiece written from the gods!
 
Also fakkin live
 

Showing what makeup and haircut can do to your face. So the different faces of JRD
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Also I lift, so don't come for me.
 
 

People WHO DON'T HAVE ANY ANXIETY ISSUES to talk about others that do shouldn't say anything. I suffer from extreme anxiety and have to take meds. Especially cause I overthink things through, what can go wrong, what will go wrong, how will it go wrong, constantly going through your head. Seeing how people are judging you. So if you don't have anxiety you don't know shit about what others go through. Not everyone thinks of the world as sunshine and rainbows and everything is fine. Extreme introverts like myself have a difficult time with dealing with anxiety, and your negativity on the situation just shows how much you know on the subject.

I highly believe I am asexual, but I would rather not label myself as anything other than myself — seeing as I bear no interest in sexual activity, I feel it's unneccesary to call myself anything –sexual at all or leap into any social construct regarding the matter. I am not sexually attracted to people, but more or less aesthethically. Surely, there are people I find immensely beautiful and alluring to look at, but I could never imagine myself sharing a bed with them for any other reason than actual sleeping. I grow uncomfortable when people touch me for extensive periods of time, and I had rather not even shake hands with people whom I have not known for at least a month or two. I do not know if these experiences are an extension of Asperger syndrome —they very well could be— as there are plenty of people on the autistic spectrum who have no problems with sexual activity and attraction whatsoever, or if they are two separate things altogether. I have had some boyfriends in the past, but I would always grow anxious the moment anything started to happen beyond kissing. Not wanting to have sex with these boys always lead to me being cheated on as I could not and did not want to please their physical needs. This has also lead me to not desire a relationship for myself, either. I do not know if I can ever see myself in a relationship. If I were to have sex at all in this life, I wouldn't have it before marriage. I need to be certain of the person, however it's always unclear whether you will be spending the rest of your life in the same relationship. This is conflicting and currently I am leaning toward not ever having sex at all, even in a potential marriage. Unfortunately it's difficult soloing life, especially with how darned expensive everything is nowadays. You can barely keep up a regular household with two individuals, let alone one.
 
I find anything pornographic extremely distasteful and I bear quite the aversion against the openness of the matter of sex in this age. It is everywhere, and it makes me very uncomfortable and dirty. I find the human anatomy very aesthetic and interesting, and to see it being tarnished by sex is —in my eyes— very sad and abasing. Perhaps this is ironic in that case, but I could never see a penis as anything more than an organ meant for urinating, for instance, yet I find it a very beautiful organ.
 
As for the view on Visual kei artists; as I said above, my attraction to some of them is purely based on aesthetic pleasure. Perhaps it is also why I am more or less attracted to so-called femine-looking men, with softer shapes and tones, that Visual kei is an attractive medium. I like pallidness, long limbs and extremities, and ethereal-looking creatures, I would say even androgynous. Anything that would seem to exceed humanity. 

People WHO DON'T HAVE ANY ANXIETY ISSUES to talk about others that do shouldn't say anything. I suffer from extreme anxiety and have to take meds. Especially cause I overthink things through, what can go wrong, what will go wrong, how will it go wrong, constantly going through your head. Seeing how people are judging you. So if you don't have anxiety you don't know shit about what others go through. Not everyone thinks of the world as sunshine and rainbows and everything is fine. Extreme introverts like myself have a difficult time with dealing with anxiety, and your negativity on the situation just shows how much you know on the subject.

Showing what makeup and haircut can do to your face. So the different faces of JRD
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Also I lift, so don't come for me.
 
 

恋-れん-(Ren) releases free sampler CD for their latest album "LAST FIRST LOVE" for international fans.
 

 
Tracklist:
01 Sign...～Unplugged～ (Sample Ver.)
02 シロノヤクソク (Full Ver.)
03 哀愁思ひ出”雪”日記 (Sample Ver.)
04 Little Circus (Sample Ver.)
 
The sampler is being made available through RarezHut to gauge interest in an international release of their album "LAST FIRST LOVE".
For more details, and to get a free copy: http://www.rarezhut.net/ren
 

People WHO DON'T HAVE ANY ANXIETY ISSUES to talk about others that do shouldn't say anything. I suffer from extreme anxiety and have to take meds. Especially cause I overthink things through, what can go wrong, what will go wrong, how will it go wrong, constantly going through your head. Seeing how people are judging you. So if you don't have anxiety you don't know shit about what others go through. Not everyone thinks of the world as sunshine and rainbows and everything is fine. Extreme introverts like myself have a difficult time with dealing with anxiety, and your negativity on the situation just shows how much you know on the subject.

I bet for over 10 years I've been on this forum, some of you probably wanted to know how I looked like. If I was a guy, if I was a girl. Well both is correct, because I identify myself as gender fluid. I've always find myself reclusive and introverted and now since I fought my demons I just want to be a new me and just be me.
 
This is when I feel like being a guy.
 
Somewhere in between being a guy and girl.
 
And when I want to be my girl self. And Yes I do go out wearing makeup and all that jazz because California rules.
 

Showing what makeup and haircut can do to your face. So the different faces of JRD
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Also I lift, so don't come for me.
 
 

Showing what makeup and haircut can do to your face. So the different faces of JRD
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Also I lift, so don't come for me.
 
 

V.A. - Deep More Deep #4
Link - Departure

Any more arguments and this topic gets locked, and posts get deleted. Keep it civil, you guys!

It was a joke hahaha. This is when they tried to sign a record deal onto their company and the girls had to choose a band. Who knows? Maybe one of them digged rino and he's been doing side projects with them discreetly.

Showing what makeup and haircut can do to your face. So the different faces of JRD
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Also I lift, so don't come for me.
 
 

LOL dont scare me like that!

It was a joke hahaha. This is when they tried to sign a record deal onto their company and the girls had to choose a band. Who knows? Maybe one of them digged rino and he's been doing side projects with them discreetly.

He was secretly working with PASSPO☆after they saw this performance.
 
 

Showing what makeup and haircut can do to your face. So the different faces of JRD
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Also I lift, so don't come for me.
 
 

I bet for over 10 years I've been on this forum, some of you probably wanted to know how I looked like. If I was a guy, if I was a girl. Well both is correct, because I identify myself as gender fluid. I've always find myself reclusive and introverted and now since I fought my demons I just want to be a new me and just be me.
 
This is when I feel like being a guy.
 
Somewhere in between being a guy and girl.
 
And when I want to be my girl self. And Yes I do go out wearing makeup and all that jazz because California rules.
 

Showing what makeup and haircut can do to your face. So the different faces of JRD
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Also I lift, so don't come for me.
 
 

I'm not gonna even answer with a reply because of how much a hole you dug yourself and midi:nette pouring dirt on you.