Gesu

*insert lewd body part joke here*

Just finished best bo- uhh, I mean, Shikishima's route (hence my new profile pic) and holy fuck, the soundtrack in this game is great. For a game with only eighteen songs in it, they sure knocked it out the park. So glad I bought a Vita. I'm a little late to the party, but whatevs.

Awesome! These guys never disappoint.

I've been waiting for this~! ❤️💛💗💜💙

What job was it? I think if it's a retail job, they often say they want someone "outgoing and extroverted" because they're usually seen as better at talking to customers. I'm not sure if you're outgoing/extroverted but if not, you might have better luck looking for something that doesn't require you to talk too much; not because I think introverts are objectively incompetent at that kind of thing but because the employer would be less likely to care about it. Otherwise, I'm not too sure why they'd reject you because that seems to be the only personality trait a lot of places really care about 😕 Anyways, I agree with you wholeheartedly. The problem with education/employment is that they only really care how good you are at a specific time with no regard to your intelligence/personality in any other aspect because nerves totally aren't a thing, no siree. *hugs*

My college let me on to the second year of my A-levels despite my pitifully low grades but told me that if I don't improve by October, they'll kick me out. By "improve", I mean write about twice as much in my class essays which for some reason is practically impossible for me. I don't know what it is but no matter how hard I try, I always fail in that regard. I think it's because I'm just not into writing essays unless it's something I'm extremely passionate about and if my heart's not in it, I'm not going to perform well (not to mention they always tell me to write slowly because of my poor handwriting). What is it about that that the education system don't understand? If someone doesn't like it, they ain't gonna do well and we should stop "pushing" them to do well in their subjects (most of which are pointless) and start "encouraging" them to do the things they like and give them a broader subject range from an earlier age. A very cynical part of me hopes they'll kick me out because I just don't want to do it anymore, especially media because that involves doing creative projects by a deadline and sharing them with people which just makes me anxious as fuck. I'm going to try because I wouldn't feel right if I didn't but I almost want to fail. Getting up before 8am doesn't help either because I have insomnia during the night and it just makes me feel like a ragdoll until I can get home and nap for a few hours. I think the only reason I don't just drop out, get a job that suits me and return to my education when I feel a bit more motivated is because I know my family will be disappointed in me if I do that. I know my brother dropped out but his reason was that his course wasn't actually teaching him anything he didn't already know, not "I don't fucking like it". I also know it's technically my choice and I'm normally quite confident when it comes to doing the things I want if I have the option but I just feel kinda restricted right now. My only real motivation to carry on is knowing that the only reason I got held back a year in high school and have had to drag myself through this slog for a year more than I'd like is that my mother took me out of education for a year when I was fifteen so I guess it's largely not my fault (I'd also wager that my terrible sleeping patterns back then are what brought on my insomnia to this day). My grandma even told me today that if she were me, she'd "fuckin' do it just to spite the bitch" (in those exact words, love you grandma x) but is that really right? Like dgmw that was a kick-ass thing to say but would it really be right for me to do something I don't want to do just to spite someone who'll never know about it anyways? I really would like to prove my mother wrong because she thought I was the biggest idiot on the planet but I'm never going to see her again - hell, she doesn't know I'm even at college - so what's even the point? Godfuckit.

Good luck!

Why's it written in the Final Fantasy font? Is this just gonna be a cheap knock-off of the Phantom Train theme from FFVI?

That was awesome, as always with DIAURA! They never disappoint me this was a fantastic birthday/Gumin day present, thank you.

I've not played this game yet but a friend sent me the soundtrack and holy fuck is it good.

Changed it to a new FFXIV one last night. I'm never gonna get tired of the beautiful scenery in this game.

Also Hybrid Truth

Long post incoming:

Also Beauty And Stupid

What if your partner's not comfortable with having sex? It's easy to say "dump 'em" if they won't have sex with you but I'd feel awful if I did that. I'd feel like I was putting pressure on them and making them feel worthless/unloved purely because they didn't like something. Way I see it, friends talk to each other about porn quite a lot and they can have a laugh about all the porn they've watched, recommend some to each other, etc (generally speaking, anyways). Chances are, then, that you'll have done that with a partner for some time before you got with them. It just seems a little off to me to have to suddenly give all that up the moment you get together. I'm of the mindset that love and sex are two entirely different things and that the two aren't necessary for the other to exist in a positive way. That doesn't mean I condone cheating because I don't in any circumstances but if you wanna be in an open relationship, go for it, as long as you've negotiated it. Furthermore, if you wanna be in a sex-free romantic relationship or a romance-free sexual relationship, go for it. I think that if sex is a be-all-end-all of your relationship, you're not really in a relationship so much as you are in an arrangement and people shouldn't have to feel like their partner is the only person on Earth they can be physically attracted to. Sex is something to be discussed, not demonised. Idk if that sounded a bit rambly/judgemental but that's not how I meant it and I'm sorry if it came off that way. That's just my take, I suppose.

An Cafe - Smile Ichiban Ii Onna LM.C - Punky Heart DIAURA - Lost November

God do you ever get it when you have a project you're working on and it's all going fine and dandy and you know exactly where it's headed but then A NEW IDEA JOINS THE BATTLE but you know you gotta finish the first one before you start on the second one or else you'll never finish either

Gackt - Vanilla the GazettE - Shiver Versailles - Masquerade

What the fuck, man!? These guys were actually really good.

Jazz; it's such an underrated genre.

Processed cheese is so fucking delicious. I could eat that shit all day.