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Hey

Surely you can hear them too

 

That blue-nosed clown you saw back then

Or the red-eyed hippopotamus

 

Morningrise as the rain falls on a sunday

 

Those colours and scents, you can hear them too

 

The navy-blue curtain is opened

 

My ideals take flight.

“Theatrical Navy-Blue”

For both sides of myself... the time has come

 

As I try to stomach this stale story

As it breaks me inside - am I not pleased?

Someone has to say, “isn’t death the greatest relief?”

So I try to live to want to die

 

If a vibrant life is drawn in twenty four colours of crayon

I’m no more than three dusty colours of pen

 

Shedding the wires of that birdcage

Before my eyes is that navy-blue curtain

To start the show, I alone, draw the heavens

 

“Theatrical Navy-Blue”

I plant the deadly medicine

“Theatrical Navy-Blue”

And to you, I take brilliant flight

To bring these writings more into my heart

 

But still, I can’t heal this emptiness

 

In my dreams of tomorrow, I see yesterday’s scar

Today I’ll try only to walk

To start the show, I alone, draw the heavens

 

“Theatrical Navy-Blue”
Have you become our oxygen?

“Theatrical Navy-Blue”

I’ll repaint it all

To a green visage

 

Those who suffer still are able to walk

 

“Theatrical Black Shine”

I’ll repaint with you

On invisible wings

Why are you
Why are you
Cutting your wrists and wanting to die?

The scar remains

If tomorrow still comes, the tears only return again

 

Why do I

Why do I

Think about living?

Into countless vortices

Let’s join hands and dive

 

One spoonful of happiness...

Like a drug, makes death seem regrettable

 

A dying man needs to die.

Won’t anything you found worth living for

Just be scattered in desperation again?

 

Why do you

Why do you

Live only in annoyance

Unable to be loved

Alone you dive

 

Why am I

Why am I
Bound by living?

In countless vortices

I sing to the scars

 

As you try to fly with only one wing I’ll give you a push...

 

Around the world people manage to live

And think it strange to see a knife in our right hands

 

A dying man needs to die.

I’ll be your one wing

Someday, won’t we be able to find something to live for?

When I ran away from the pain, the angel of emotion fell like rain.

I focused my thoughts...

 

I’m tired of melodrama like the last page of a cliche novel

 

Hungry Psychopath

So I’ll be broken

So I’ll be drowned

Those ambigious magical words

I still love

Hungry Psychopath

So please break me

Drown us both

Those words when we met...

Does your love still wait?

 

Surely these ideals and reality have become a world apart.

A melancholy temperature...

 

I’ll go and pick you

To augment myself

The sky is blue

 

Somewhere behind your ears

There might be another you

 

Hungry Psychopath

“Stealing my heart... what do you mean?”

“Suddenly making your stomach hurt... just like that”

Lyrical with you

I woke up Mr. Rain

Frozen solid until yesterday...

Even if I close my eyes

Even if I talk about it

It comes in

And doesn’t disappear

 

Overdose... Mr. Rain

I’m tired... of thinking about it

Even if I open the door

Even if I walk away

It comes in

And doesn’t disappear

 

Time does not stop even though I act like I’m dead

The attacking arrows are like centipedes frightening me

I’m okay

I cried

If I’m able to live

I’ll show you

The view of the other side

 

Lonely screaming Mr. Rain

There is no death for a god

For the people seeking light

You’re supposed to be that god

 

I’ll listen

To that painful scene

The flightless raven

 

Resonance, a raised flag

The voice is scattered

 

The lynch mob

Lights a fire in the minority

“Don’t die, it’s okay”

Meddling irresponsibly in other peoples’ affairs

Higher powers say “It’s for the future!”

What a headache

For that reason we question every day we live

 

I can’t accept while keeping my mouth shut

The silent judgement from adults’ eyes

The mute keyboard is beaten and discarded, losing sight of tomorrow

The contracted costume

Is swallowed up by modern times

Let go of this thread, let go of ourselves into the darkness of solitude

 

In the morning as you wish to die, even hope melts from your mouth

People in the rainfall don’t notice their surroundings

These black dirty feathers can’t see tomorrow

Even as I wish to disappear into the night, there’s no escape to rely on

I’ve lost sight of anyone who would hold my hand

If someday I see that light before I take off

 

-there is no light-

 

“Hello, flightless birthday!”

 

I don’t know right from left

I don’t know my own self

This cruel world has me saying things like “I want to die.”

This information flutters around the world

Our wounds forsaken

Those words spiral into tears and loneliness

 

As morning comes again, will this voice as well?

Someday those days will come

When we’ll be as migrating crows

Uncaring of the unspeakable scars

Able to shout that I’m alive

 

Even if I live one day I’ll die

Even if I lived once one day I’ll be dead

In this time as I’m alive

Any happiness isn’t enough

The world of coexistance

Now opens new resonance

Eats into imagination’s biscuit

In a game of musical chairs

The fault of hatred

The teddy bear’s not laughing

 

Come, come

The throat gives moistness to

A tasseled, malicous, unknown

Shining, pearl spirit; 420 in the moon

 

Biting

Into pale blue

A temporary mark... it hurts

Wandering to seek a bone

Those days I didn’t know good from bad

Shaking in vomit and love

 

I eat so I can spit out my life

Inverted

Betrayal laughed in the past, asking... eat

I leave myself to the shapeless melody

Grief... is a surprisingly shining transience

 

Again I draw my hands in the delicate dusk

Stirring up a prayer

 

Hey, you can hear it

The shadow thinning out

Clawing open an arpeggio under the sheets

 

To take on this lyric in the shadow again

What you draw will be hidden in the tears

To take on this lyric in your shadow again

It becomes painful and I scream

 

“The separate volumes have become like one”

You said, seeming more like me already

 

To take on this voice as you fall asleep

Crying like a child to the invisible wall

To take on tomorrow against the shadow of now

I glare at the time when I could see nothing

I turned my eyes from that clear day

Inviting a thread of innocence

Was tragedy reflecting through the cracks I had closed?

 

If I put it into words, as only a bitter gift to the past...

Even those memories cut into the skin like glass

 

If it’s what you want I’ll become what you want me to be

The past I’ve turned away from shook with that sound

I closed my ears to the silence that my eyes couldn’t meet

Because I knew your pain too

 

And if I start to ignore it all and pretend to smile

Would you still cry? Or would you smile with me?

 

As though we were falling, our fingers searched to meet

Like a child you cried, and I couldn’t break that image

So I close my eyes

 

If it’s what you want I’ll become what you want me to be

Suddenly tired and crying... as outside it rains

“If I can’t have you I’ll disappear”

Codependent reverberation

 

Were you to suddenly die

I would be relieved

Nothing more to cry over

Nothing more to suffer

Nothing more to love...

“‘I love you’

Was that moment put into words

The abandoned past shook in that sound”

 

“‘Because I love you’ I embraced you as you collapsed

Suddenly tired and crying... as outside it rains”

 

If it’s what you want I’ll become what you want me to be

Counting the blank space in my hands...

Tomorrow is as unseeable as a deep darkness
The past is in full bloom
I fall into a hole without end...

 

Traces of dry rain

And eternity are quietly gathered

Red draws deeply closer

As we go looking for flowers

We block our eyes from that place which hung by chains

 

You somehow disappeared

This world is so vast

What fantasy could have us forget such suffering?

 

Children acting like the devil

Are the soldiers protecting that place

We traded common sense for the guile held in our hands

 

Hatred tangle red world

Hatred hunger red

Everyone flattens others for their own sake

Hatred tangle red world

Hatred hunger red

I’ve lost the words to say ‘I’m just living,’ that even now don’t change

 

From hidden cracks

The kitten’s carcass laughs

If the future were abandoned, I would choose to sleep

 

I am a slave, just something in this world made to be a slave
Will the answer I’ve waited for come? If needed, it’s something.

Light

Hide the moment’s truth

I beg

For a momentary ideal

 

Ah... kick away the countless scattered glass beads

My body is pierced and I tremble in pain

Ah... I don’t want to take in that sight, of falsehood and sheeps’ eyes

Again I’m spoiled for telling myself this is fate

 

Pray... this world is always the same

Ray... I don’t even want to save it

 

Light

Engulf the moment’s suffering

Like embracing hidden wounds

Light

Hide the moment’s truth

I beg

For a momentary ideal

 

Ah, the navy-blue bell sounds, as my fingertips are shaved off

As my freedom is stolen, the gathered eyes are laughing

Ah, “together, shall we break it?” I longed to hear those words

Stolen by the flow of time we run away

 

Pray... this world is always the same

Ray... i want it to be saved

This is just like me

Haven’t you noticed?
Bite and lick

Bite and lick

Bite down and don’t let go

 

Touched with pain

A tearful smile

Bite and lick

Bite and lick

Bite down and don’t let go

 

Even now, when lyrical and free

This mind still lacks the strength to understand

 

As the late show sings its ending

You gently caress my head

An applause of hearts - gushes forth

This familiar fuckup dog is enough for you

 

“Hey, do you know? That food’s got a bad taste”
“Hey, are you listening? Please love me”

Having chewed so many grains

I’m crying, unable to fall asleep

Blurred to hide the past

Unaware, my wounds grow

 

At once, to drink up the platinum

Spewing the smoke of grief

Already driven by these words

“When will it be okay to laugh?”

Knowing that delusion is free

“A body wrapped in affection”

The oath “I will smile! From now on”

Stop it!
“What do you know?”

 

Ah... unrecognized lyrics

Ah... obidient support, ask

 

I want to break. I want to be destroyed.

Taking love in my hand

I can’t respond to myself

I tried to close my eyes and smile.

Stained with an ugly reaction

We keep on living

Those sufferring in the fire are stirred in sparkling pain

A devil without wings surrenders to me

With neck hung, wandering in search of fresh blood

Shaking in the same merry-go-round a pentagram is cut

 

From the shining blue jewelry bowl i eat, misled by nausea

With hubris and pain mourning my own power

Stoke my head... just today let me have some candy

The bestowed piercing sublimates my tired trembling body

 

Loyalty swore

With a grin

To drink from the cup

Until that life is destroyed send to me a prayer

The reward this poem is for...

Loyalty swore

With a grin

To embrace

If that life is destroyed for you i would shed tears

The reward this voice is for...

If you don’t know how to kill, there are ways to dive

 

As long as i live inside you the music flows forth everyday

No sounds are the same; make this world your own

To make that voice heard should be your reason to live

 

It’s okay to live there

It’s okay to just act on the outside

That’s just your part

 

Just as you become my reason to live every day

It’s fun to imagine your world

I’ve come to think i’d like to stay here

I’m not forcing you to live every day

But why are you over there?

 

I should have known really

Because you won’t stop singing over there

 

What you taught me

“I live because I am”

That

 

So close... yet so far

Even with these red shoes

Crying, shaking, i become cristate

If this is the world we choose to live in

“I am you, and you are called me”

Flickering shadows dance

As if prepared to fall

The sweet dream has burned

 

Rustling and flowing

The black-haired puppet

With no corpse to be found

 

Covered in the colour of obscured sin

Ah, ah...

The wings are broken

Buried beyond the burnt scent

Ah, ah...

To be forgotten

 

Light dances from the sky

Piercing my chest

The bright red rain falls

The end... isn’t it lovely?

Light dances from the sky

Plucking off my arms

The past streams down the face

Of this drowned body

 

Relenting for want of love

The egoist relinquished

Hey... shall we dance?

 

My hair grows longer

To cover my mouth

Rejecting the lyrics of despair

 

Dramatic lines again

Make this room feel lonely

Broken sounds play at the ears

 

You dance from the sky

So full of dreams

The rainbow shines dazzlingly bright

I dance from the sky

Dirtying the words

I had bloomed

Soon, i will drown

“So, we can’t afford not to choose. For the future.”

 

A new

Drama

For our future

And for tomorrow

 

“Start moving”

 

Do you know?

In this world that we see

There are different angles.

 

“There is no endless rain”

Is something i’ve sung somewhere, but,

 

As for me

“Endless rain”

I want it to keep falling

Even if it’s not like those drops that fall from the sky.

 

-The End...?-

1- Love Addict
2- Romeo
3- Rover
4- Trauma
5- ByeBye
6- Star Spangled Breaker
7- Dazzle
8- Ugly Duck's Will
9- アイリス
10- Paranoid
11- Rubbish
12- Honesty