あなたは私のすべてでした....
For 3 years you gave me the world, you gave to me a charity of affection...a rich amount of love. You gave me a purpose, a reason to get up from slumber every single day, a smile, a deep warmth in my very being. You put me on the highest of pedestals feeling as though i would be able to look of the horizon itself. I felt invincible...your love was better than any drug...more intoxicating than any kind of liquor. It was the ever so radiant sunlight, not a cloud in sight. Now the sky is plagued with ugly, swollen clouds. As gray as a cloud of smoke, and as dreary as a mortuary...you disappeared, and you took with you the affection you blessed me with experiencing. You took with you my sanity, my will to live and my strength. You were my happiness, my rock, my air I breathed. I cannot stomach this feeling of dread, I cannot stomach this everlasting sorrow. Over and over again I relive my mistakes, I relive the constant reminder that you will never return...and that is the worst pain of all. It feels like death has come early for me, it feels as if it's finally my time. I cannot escape you, as hard as I try...you do not disappear..it drives me deeper into madness everyday that I spend in this solitude. You've entangled me in a bondage of chains, i'm constricted, I cannot move. These feelings will never reach you again...you have drifted away farther and farther..this pain is as if i'm laying on a bed of rusty nails..everyday feels as though I'm walking on miles upon miles of broken glass. This pain is monstrous...my gut wrenches..my bile churns...as I grow weaker and thinner.