Kira_Uchiha

I think one of the major standouts recently is Xaa Xaa theyve been extremely active and have released some super stellar stuff definetly worth cheking out
 
 
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There's lots of GazettE rips coming out of the woodworks lately, so you'll love stuff from ゴシップ (gossip). Also SARIGIA hasn't released their first single yet, but they're sounding super promising.
 
 
I would also further recommend anything by DEZERT.

I have a couple of visual kei i will list below:
 
Dezert as suji mentioned is amazing recommend the songs from Zanteiteki occult shuukanshi ① as a start
 
Sel'm is good. Some of there stuff is okayish i usually stick to singles they did pv's on.
 
 
Its hard to put something up similar to alice nines old stuff at least in my book.
I recommend D=Out for this one thats the only thing i can think of at the moment.
 
 
*Updated: Another one to add is AND eccentric agent: They are relatively older but the vocalist's new band is named reign*
 
AND eccentric agent:
 
Reign:
 
As for ONE OK ROCK
 
 
 

if you're not aware, temari did some solo stuff which only lasted for a limited time. now he does session stuff only, i believe.
 
the guitarist of amber gris, kaname, formed a band called Sioux. he does vocals for the band and the sound is pretty similar to amber gris along with the art-kei aesthetics.
 
also, develop one's faculties is definitely worth checking out
 

The only thing that comes to mind is DEZERT. Their earlier stuff is really  worth checking out, new stuff not so much. 

I don't now if this fits the bill entirely, but the new Vamps album 'Underworld' has gone in a very industrial rock vein, much darker and heavier than their first three albums. There are various western rock guests on there, including one of the guitarists from Rammstein, the singer from Motionless in White and Apocalyptica. It might not be to everyone's taste, but I'm enjoying the big riffs and industrial crunch.

Thanks a lot, I'll check everything out when I get back home. It feels like a smart concept though, starting really small and progressively get better.
 
HAH
Dad jokes, hell yeah I'll take you up on that offer
Thank you, with all the help and support I'm seeing on this thread, I feel like I can definitely do it and get better, and I do hope this helps to inspire others who are struggling too.

Yeah I kind of had the same problem at one point in my life with a person I used to think was my best friend but, in the end I was the only one who tried and after I stopped trying I was questioned and then thrown away like one of those gums after you chew them too much XD. 
That helped me learn how to cut out toxic people and just all together know what's best for me. So, I guess experiences like this are good if you pick out the positive things and the lessons from them. 
If you need positive reinforcement or dad jokes or roasting people, my inbox is open any time ✨. Good luck with everything you are doing ☺️! 

No problem. Let the positivity flow my friend
 

For meditation there's lots of different types but they all centre around the same thing. Just pick a type and google a tutorial for the type that catches your interest. It's not complicated you just have to remember the general idea is to clear your mind of thoughts. https://visualmeditation.co/7-types-of-meditation/
 
As for kaizen its a really simple philosophy the key being when starting a project start embarrassingly small. ie if you wanted to start going to the gym, instead of buying a gym membership the first day you would do literally one rep with a dumbbell. This is a good video too:
 

I'm a lil bit overwhelmed, thanks to each and every of you for your replies. To make it clear, it's not clinical depression, it's much less than that. I've got no problems eating, interacting with people when I'm put in a social situation and such. Where it's really affecting me is in my motivation, my productivity, my drive and my relationships outside of people I interact with mostly on a daily basis. It's a state of me most of the time feeling worthless and feeling like I'm wasting my time everyday, not progressing in life, as if I've hit a wall. 80% of last year was spent mostly with uni, not really being able to work on what I wanted to do. The graphic design course doesn't have end of semester exams like other courses, it focuses only on assignments throughout the semester, so I can't really slack on that. When I actually have the time for myself, I feel too emotionally drained to actually get up and get to work on my personal life. I'm aware I'm mostly making excuses, and that's what's making it worse: I'm aware of it, and I want to be able to change my mindset.
 
I'm 21, turning 22 in around 2 weeks. I'm already in my 3rd year of graphic design so I'll finish it, and I do plan on maybe taking on another course, but that would be when I leave the country I currently live in. I live in Mauritius, which is not bad of a country, but not really a good place to be if you're not planning to work "common" jobs such as accountant, manager, and such.
 
I'm trying to slowly work on what I love, that is songwriting. I'm working on it in small chunks though, if I work for too long on it I feel mentally drained, especially since my personal problems are still dragging on my mind a little.
 
Anyway, thank you for your reply
 
Hey it's cool you know, it seems like you needed a small place to vent out too, so don't worry about going overboard here. We all need to let it out sometimes right?
Thanks for your reply, this is the only place I talked about my depression, and tbh just letting it out here felt like it did lighten this burden a little. I do hope it helped you too to vent a little, we're all in this life together, so let's just try and make smth nice out of it.
 
Hey thanks for sharing your experience, right now one of the biggest problems I'm dealing is overthinking everything I do. It's bad, most days I just sleep and eat when my parents aren't dragging me out of the house. But exercising did help me get out a little of this lethargic state. Hopefully I can find ways to stop, or at least reduce how much I overthink, because it's really putting a big burden on my songwriting.
 
I agree with you, especially about the grind. The monotony of this cycle is something I've always dreaded ever since I first experienced it. Having your pay at the end of each month isn't really motivating, it's much more about survival, you gotta do it if you want to live in this society. I'd love to make a living out of music but I know it's not realistic, especially not where I live. I'm still going to work towards this goal though, while trying to find jobs in fields related to music, always good to have a fail-safe.
 
I don't think I've reached the point yet where I need medication, I still have some fight left in me, I want to get better and I want to improve myself, and I don't want to spend the rest of my days hating my life and myself. Thanks for your reply.
 
Meditation is something I've been contemplating for a while, I just don't know where to start. Where did you start learning kaizen?  Online? Or somewhere near where you live?
I think it would really help me especially with concentration and productivity.
 
Heh yeah, doing what you like or being surrounded by people you like is really helpful, but sometimes I just fall back into it when I'm not surrounded by positive stimuli, you know?
But as for travelling, it's something I'm definitely planning. I want to move away actually, I think changing my environment could help. I'm thinking maybe Canada. Japan would be someplace I'd love to visit someday, it's been my dream ever since I was a little weeb.
Thanks for your reply
 
I'm luckily not in the state where my depression is as crippling and/or life threatening. What it really cripples right now is my productivity and my motivation. Sometimes it happens that in quite short bursts I get the urge to actually do shit, and this usually lasts for 2 hours max, and then for a week straight I won't get the courage to do things. I'm trying to slowly work on this, and do small chunks everyday.
I do hope that your case is improving, slowly maybe but surely, take care of yourself.
 
 
Thanks to all of you for your replies, and sorry I wasn't able to reply to everyone here, the posts and support here are just overwhelming, thank you so much. 

I'm a lil bit overwhelmed, thanks to each and every of you for your replies. To make it clear, it's not clinical depression, it's much less than that. I've got no problems eating, interacting with people when I'm put in a social situation and such. Where it's really affecting me is in my motivation, my productivity, my drive and my relationships outside of people I interact with mostly on a daily basis. It's a state of me most of the time feeling worthless and feeling like I'm wasting my time everyday, not progressing in life, as if I've hit a wall. 80% of last year was spent mostly with uni, not really being able to work on what I wanted to do. The graphic design course doesn't have end of semester exams like other courses, it focuses only on assignments throughout the semester, so I can't really slack on that. When I actually have the time for myself, I feel too emotionally drained to actually get up and get to work on my personal life. I'm aware I'm mostly making excuses, and that's what's making it worse: I'm aware of it, and I want to be able to change my mindset.
 
I'm 21, turning 22 in around 2 weeks. I'm already in my 3rd year of graphic design so I'll finish it, and I do plan on maybe taking on another course, but that would be when I leave the country I currently live in. I live in Mauritius, which is not bad of a country, but not really a good place to be if you're not planning to work "common" jobs such as accountant, manager, and such.
 
I'm trying to slowly work on what I love, that is songwriting. I'm working on it in small chunks though, if I work for too long on it I feel mentally drained, especially since my personal problems are still dragging on my mind a little.
 
Anyway, thank you for your reply
 
Hey it's cool you know, it seems like you needed a small place to vent out too, so don't worry about going overboard here. We all need to let it out sometimes right?
Thanks for your reply, this is the only place I talked about my depression, and tbh just letting it out here felt like it did lighten this burden a little. I do hope it helped you too to vent a little, we're all in this life together, so let's just try and make smth nice out of it.
 
Hey thanks for sharing your experience, right now one of the biggest problems I'm dealing is overthinking everything I do. It's bad, most days I just sleep and eat when my parents aren't dragging me out of the house. But exercising did help me get out a little of this lethargic state. Hopefully I can find ways to stop, or at least reduce how much I overthink, because it's really putting a big burden on my songwriting.
 
I agree with you, especially about the grind. The monotony of this cycle is something I've always dreaded ever since I first experienced it. Having your pay at the end of each month isn't really motivating, it's much more about survival, you gotta do it if you want to live in this society. I'd love to make a living out of music but I know it's not realistic, especially not where I live. I'm still going to work towards this goal though, while trying to find jobs in fields related to music, always good to have a fail-safe.
 
I don't think I've reached the point yet where I need medication, I still have some fight left in me, I want to get better and I want to improve myself, and I don't want to spend the rest of my days hating my life and myself. Thanks for your reply.
 
Meditation is something I've been contemplating for a while, I just don't know where to start. Where did you start learning kaizen?  Online? Or somewhere near where you live?
I think it would really help me especially with concentration and productivity.
 
Heh yeah, doing what you like or being surrounded by people you like is really helpful, but sometimes I just fall back into it when I'm not surrounded by positive stimuli, you know?
But as for travelling, it's something I'm definitely planning. I want to move away actually, I think changing my environment could help. I'm thinking maybe Canada. Japan would be someplace I'd love to visit someday, it's been my dream ever since I was a little weeb.
Thanks for your reply
 
I'm luckily not in the state where my depression is as crippling and/or life threatening. What it really cripples right now is my productivity and my motivation. Sometimes it happens that in quite short bursts I get the urge to actually do shit, and this usually lasts for 2 hours max, and then for a week straight I won't get the courage to do things. I'm trying to slowly work on this, and do small chunks everyday.
I do hope that your case is improving, slowly maybe but surely, take care of yourself.
 
 
Thanks to all of you for your replies, and sorry I wasn't able to reply to everyone here, the posts and support here are just overwhelming, thank you so much. 

I wasn't specific into this but i remember mentioning that this isn't for everyone by saying people are different in which i was never specific about
"I know that many people are different and have many things that make them happy."
The advice is more of an encouragement to do said task. Yes some people as you stated might be in capable this is why i wrote Advice next to it.
All in all encouragement for travel because generally some people who are depressed stay in one place and don't wanna do much as you stated. This is encouragement for getting out there.

Not to rain on your parade, and I'm sure not all depressed people are like this, but... If you are severely, clinically depressed, it's hard enough to get out of the bed each day to perform mundane tasks, let alone get out of the house. Travelling in that case is out of question.
 
And another thing people have recommended: the councillors or psychiatrists or therapists. Sounds good, but doesn't always work. And I don't mean the therapy itself. I mean being in a situation where you can see one. Even in the UK, where I live, it seems to be near impossible to get a referral to a psychiatrist unless you're literally moments away from suicide. I certainly didn't get one, and my depression is crippling, albeit not life threatening as it is.
 
Then you have, of course, the private way. And hey, that involves money. Lots of money, from one session with a professional varying from £50 to £100. To have that amount of money to spare, you need a job. To get and hold a job, you need to be able to leave your home and expose yourself to strange or unpleasant situations. And if getting out of bed and taking a shower is sometimes and overwhelming achievement, doing all that is going to be quite difficult.
 
I'm personally not comfortable sharing much about how my depressive mind works, but I have a little wisdom to give: Take the pills if you need them. It's a majorly annoying fad nowadays that people think pills are prescribed for no reason and they just make you sleepwalk through your life, or that you can cure your depression by going out and enjoying the world. If you have a serious problem; if your depression is taking over your life and you can no longer function properly with it, take the pills. The decision to allow yourself to be medicated for a serious condition doesn't make you weak. It doesn't make you "the sheeple of medical industry". If you need it, you take it, and it doesn't make you less of a person.

For me Visual kei music is the best cure idk why it just calms me down and if not then i pretty much do what makes me happy (Video games, friends etc..)
Ive slowly learned that there is a cause sometimes at least for me (Fear is major). The times that there are no cause i wait it out by doing the things i love which make me happy or bonding with people that i know will make me happy. I know that many people are different and have many things that make them happy. Whatever it is hopefully it isn't negative >.<  and Hopefully it makes you happy.
Advice wise:
Experience the world its very vast and big to understand. Some not all but some people don't fully understand that to a point. So Explore get in a car/plane and go somewhere anywhere hopefully no where dangerous. Maybe japan XD. Either way how you travel you'll experience a lot.
(Disclaimer: I have never done this because i was either never allowed or have no money but i plan to)

My way of dealing with it was to develop an iron will through meditation, will strengthening exercises and the Japanese concept of 'kaizen' (seriously google this). Now at every moment of the day I am using these concepts for working on ways to make my life better and avoiding thinking about any negatives aspects of my life. Right now I am learning Japanese, writing a book, and going to the gym which are my three main hobbies. The hardest part is at work because work sucks but I am using willpower to apply for other jobs and meditation has helped trained my mind to avoid thinking of work outside of work hours.
 
I guess it is just distracting myself but that's how most adults live anyway and if that distraction can lead to a positive outcome then it is definitely a good thing.
I know this different from how most people deal with it but the first step is to work out if your depression is a chemical imbalance or caused by your life sucking. If its the former I don't have much advice except see a professional.
 
This is coming from a guy who was a NEET for over a year and has been depressed for years. Since about June I have been mostly happy.

This doesn't solve anything, just distracts you and gives you more problems.
 
Long time no see @Kira_Uchihawelcome back! There's a lot of good advice in this thread. My depression never really goes away, it's just something I've learned to manage living with. Things I've learned: It's okay to let all of your emotions out when you feel them (some days I cry a lot, some days I don't feel anything at all) so just go with it. Put yourself first, even if it feels selfish sometimes, life is short so don't sacrifice what little happiness we can find. A lot of people take sabbaticals from school or work for mental health. Sometimes you get burnt out and want to quit but a little time off/vacation really works wonders, and not everyone works at the same pace even if school tries to force it on everyone. Exercise and music are great hobbies to keep, they're both proven to release dopamine in your brain, so they will help with stress a lot. 
 
My inbox is still open if you ever want to chat. 
 

only gives you happy feeling dor short time or it gives you an even worser feeling.... XD

alcohol x 

What I learned from watching other people is that talking to someone feels nice and even if you don't get a solution to your problem, at least you got it out of your chest. I'm not the type to talk about my problems and I tend to "self-cure" myself too much. But when I actually do talk with people, it feels great. People like friends or my mum. I cut out all the toxic people I used to have in my life and feel way better. And music. That helps calm down my inner "demons".
I also learned from a youtuber that I should love myself more and hate somebody else instead XD.
I never had suicidal thoughts or stuff but sometimes it does feel stuffy and days will end up with swollen eyes from too much crying and anxiety makes me lose it but, I managed to not fall too into deep, because, I was lucky enough to have a mother like mine, who is a combination of an angel and a tornado at the same time. I also have a best friend who annoys me more so that I don't have energy to hate myself.
But in the end, if you feel alone, there is no shame in seeking for help or admitting that you are struggling.

Hey @Kira_Uchiha! Been a while!
 
Depression is a hell of a weight to shoulder. No one is immune to it, and the many forms of depression are still being discovered.
I wish I could share my experiences, but time constraints limit me to do so at the moment. (maybe I will post it here later)
 
The ways I have dealt with depression in the past, required a game of trial and error.
I say "trial and error", because you don't know what will work for you. Mistakes will be made.
Learning to accept that not every method that you read/hear about will work for you, is a great start. Depression is not some cold that will go away with some medicine, nor is it something that once gone, will never come back. The sooner you can see it from this perspective, the less impact/harm it can do to you, whether or not you were to go through depression more than once.
We all know that the only enemies during depression are you and yourself. If you find that the methods you are trying out aren't making a night/day difference, the methods simply aren't for you, so no need to beat yourself up. Move on to the next one.
Now I don't want to change your way of life with this one post lol, but it sounds like your depression has even skewed your outlook/focus.
If I could provide one solid piece of advice, it would be to see the greater picture, and that is your life.
Many people grow tired of their careers, their relationships with friends/lovers/family, and more importantly, themselves. You're lying to yourself, not other people, if you say otherwise. "I'm comfortable", seems the be the phrase I hear the most when trying to argue this. Well, that's fine and all, but "I'm comfortable" is just the first cry for help. It leads to, in you own words, "repetitive and numb", followed by "feeling scared and stressed about my future".
 
"Is this who I've become now?"
"is this really what I want"
"Is this going to be me until I die?"
 
We're fucking human. "Too much of a good thing......" (you know the rest) is an outlook on life itself. Try and understand that your career is not your entire life, and that you have other things to look forward too (girlfriend and your friends, hobbies, etc.), so take it with a grain of salt. I'm sure they'd appreciate it too.
 
What I've learned to do, is COMPLETELY understand that my work, my relationships, things I'm passionate about, etc., are separate entities.
Your career (and all the other areas) has the potential to cross a line, if not set. How can you enjoy other things, if your career is now a part of it? Are you having fun?
I'm not gonna get all deep and shit (I'm busy, sorry) so I'll get to the point.
 
Your career is just that, your career. You want to get paid to do this right? Come in, do some work, clock in/clock out and learn something new the next day. Another day another dollar. It should not require more thought than that. Doesn't it sound really easy when you look at it that way? lol
I suppose your first mistake (and YOU ARE NOT ALONE) can be seen as studying a career field with the wrong objectives.
Your career is a stepping stone to a better you, better opportunities, and not some mattress you can just slouch on for the rest of your life (I hope you understand my crappy metaphor), as that will be seen as the only thing you want to do by others. Don't place yourself there, because it may be difficult to get out.
 
Some food for thought:
If I wanted to do what I was passionate about, I would have studied to be a mechanic instead of Information Security. Eventually though, I would have hit the same point you have, where I no longer feel passionate about it. Keeping my love for working on cars as a weekend hobby, allows me to control my level of interest. same with everything else.
Ask any mechanic who went in because they were passionate about cars, and they'll tell you they hate their jobs and the sight of a vehicle lol.
Wonder why.
 
Anyway......
 
Keep checking up on us more often!
The more we hear from you, the more we become chums!
Don't be a stranger!
 
 
 
 
 

If it's a real depression (it may be something that look like depression, neurosis, dysthymia (chronic depression, as in my case), etc.) - the main point on your way to your mental health is a good psychiatrist and therapy. As any other desease, it should be diagnosted and a person suffering from depression should receive treatment. My life was half-ruined and I was close to death before I was forced to start treatment. Friends, goals, etc. are important, but weak... If you never visited psychiatrist - do it as soon as possible. Life is too short to spend it like this... I also felt better when I left the university. I loved japanology, but I was too scared about my future after graduation. I have a specialty related to medicine, so soon I will look for work (and it sounds exciting for me) I still don't have any motivation, but the treatment of depression is very difficult. I hope it will appear, someday...
Get well soon♡

This is the right section for this topic. Dealing with depression is like learning how to love and have a relationship with yourself all over again.

I actually think more people are depressed than we would like to admit because our society and the way things are set up are not good for our mental health. We get up, slave all day, come home and have to take care of our personal responsibilities before we hit the hay and do it all over again tomorrow. There's a reason why they call it "the grind"; there's really no end to it if you're stuck in a loop doing something that you don't want to do. Having said that, I would recommend to do what you are doing right now which would be identifying and verbalizing the reasons for your depression and finding things to do that make you happy. Medications and counseling may help in some cases, and I really can't say if it would work for you, but I managed to claw my way out of the dumps with sheer willpower. Find what works for you and stick to it. Depression is a bitch because it's a vicious spiral that makes you feel like there's no way out but down.
 
You only get one life to live. There's no point in spending it hating yourself and what you do.

I let it consume me whole
 
For real though, I've been living with this thing for as long as can I remember and the only way I found to be helpful was through meds. Took me a long time to do it, but I saw a psychiatrist (having health insurance helps, but it might not be readily available to everyone) when things got really bad and it's been a relief since then, although the depression still crawls back every once in a while and I just have to wait until it goes away. Other than that, music and other distractions do make it easier a bit as a short-term solution, as well as being with close friends who won't judge you for feeling the way you do.
 
Depression's made me overthink eveything in my life, but there's a few things that it made clear to me after a while: 1) there's ways to go around it if you give yourself some time (we tend to go hard on ourselves for feeling like this, but it's always better to be reminded to be kind and patient with our own process); 2) we all deal with it differently, so try to not compare what you go through with how other people have it. Take it easy on yourself!
 
I don't know what else to say right now, but I honestly wish you the best in dealing with this.