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I went to Anime USA this weekend and cosplayed The Gallo with one of my friends. We were in the middle of getting ready when I checked my phone and the announcement had just been made that Hikaru is leaving.

This exactly. At first I was like "I hope he's just being dramatic because he's Karma" and then I felt bad for being a dick if he really was that sick... but then I was right.

emmny - I envy that you can look so cool in a nonchalant way

Sorry, but I've never heard any of those songs before. Missalina Rei - Tokimeki Violet Narcissus - Vampire Orivia - Flower's for... Lareine - Stranger in New Days Das:vasser - Shiroi Kimi, Kuroi Tsuki Baiser - Ragnarok L'yse:nore - Pharacy II Rapture - Kanashikute... Speed-ID - Evil Moon Rising Cynthia - Destiny Damn my shuffle really decided to show my age tonight.

Adding that I also identify as genderqueer (more specifically, agender) but still go with female pronouns because I'm not really open/comfortable about this yet and because that's just the most comfortable thing for me. I'm usually not too comfortable talking about this, but it looks like a lot of people here feel similarly, so I'm glad this is sort of a safe place. I don't really identify as female or male, but it's more of a "neither" instead of "both" sort of thing. I do have dysphoria because I have a VERY feminine body (this is basically my body type), so it makes it very hard to be the kind of androgynous I'd be comfortable presenting like. I discovered visual kei when I was about 15 or so. It was a really big deal to me. Before then, I had that weird lurking feeling of not wanting to be female or male, but I didn't know how to present in a way that was comfortable for me. I did have an interest in fashion and makeup and I wanted to be attractive and beautiful, but I didn't really know how to put all of that together in a way that wasn't specifically female. So of course, the initial allure of visual kei was that it was all of those things. Really enjoying the music solidified my interest in it. I had always been very skinny, which was awesome for my situation. Unfortunately, I rapidly put on a lot of weight when I was 19 and that caused a lot of changes to my body shape. It was a huge blow because at that point, I had found the thing that finally made me comfortable in my own skin and it was being taken away from me again. I also didn't know that identifying as non-binary was a thing until I was like 25, so the feelings I was struggling against were very private and alienating. I haven't been able to lose and keep off the weight, so I'm still EXTREMELY uncomfortable with myself and most of the time I feel like I have no business in a style meant for skinny attractive men, but I don't really know what else to do with myself. I'm also often very afraid to be open about my identity and have it misunderstood as "taking my visual kei obsession too far" because that's not true at all. I already felt like that for a long time before I knew anything about being genderqueer or even what being trans was. The previous talk of visual kei fans "faking it" to be cool is exactly what I'm talking about here. Also, it's possible to come out and take steps towards exploring your identity within a particular group or scene, but still not be out with your family, work/school, and friends outside of that group/scene. Many people don't realize that you don't just come out all at once. You come out over and over and over again to different people. You come out in different ways and at different times based on a lot of situation factors. I don't think it's fake at all to present as male and ask for male pronouns within a group, but still be in the closet in other parts of your life where coming out could be a very dangerous or complicated struggle that you're not ready for.

The whole song sounds very similar to Koi no Bakansu, which is an ooooold song that has been covered many times. For the sake of vk, I'll link do D=OUT's cover of it for comparison. As for others (that I don't think have been mentioned yet) oh booooy: Shelly Trip Realize - Haru No Uta is a weird mix of Keyboard Cat and Poison - Talk Dirty To Me Kaya - Epicurean vs Mortal Kombat Sadie - Virtual Fakeman (verse) vs Spider-Man Theme Panic Channel - Kodoku Mousou vs Dir en Grey - Ash Plastic Tree (again lol) - Sick vs Bauhaus - She's in Parties Mid Deracine - The Coma vs Ensoku - This is a Pen (It took me sooooo long to figure out why The Coma sounded so familiar and then I laughed forever) Avanchick - Maria vs Girugamesh - Owari to Mirai (that verse) 176BIZ - Dekiai vs MUCC - Zetsubou (I've heard the same for Awoi - Kanashii Uta and Zetsubou, but I think the 176BIZ song is more obvious) Deshabillz - Kono Tsumi ni Tsuite vs Smells like Teen Spirit Gossip - Psycho Pass gave me flashbacks to Azalea - Horobi no Niwa not overly similar but that intro I guess

I don't know this song, but I like it too. I hope someone recognizes it.

I don't think it's weird to buy like 1 cheki as a cheap souvenir for a live you actually went to, but I don't really understand buying a whole bunch or from random lives you didn't even attend. That said, the fans who do that indeed really give the band a lot of extra money that I'm sure they're grateful for. I just have no idea what I would want a bunch of cheki for. There's no appeal to me.

Lament. - The Unvarnished Truth

Deadman aesthetic for a lolita/j-fash meetup today

Late to the party here, but I'm also asexual. I can't really speak for how I see visual kei differently than a sexual person because I've never been a sexual person. I don't really feel like I experience visual kei much differently than my other visual kei friends, since they're mostly not really sexual about band guys and some of them aren't even attracted to men at all. Or even if they are, I'm not the friend they talk about that with because they know I don't really have much to contribute in a conversation about that. As for visual kei bands being overtly sexual sometimes, that doesn't alienate or bother me at all. I don't speak Japanese and barely ever seek out lyric translations, so I'm speaking more in terms of acting/dressing sexually.This sounds weird, but I actually like sexuality as an aesthetic, but have no interest in watching, fantasizing, or participating in the actual act of sex. I've been questioned/doubted a few times for identifying as asexual and having an interest in "sexy" visual kei, so the closest relevant thing I can compare it to is when visual kei guys love being a murderer as an aesthetic, but probably wouldn't actually kill someone. Not to compare sex to murder in a moral way, but rather that I don't think it's so weird to take interest in something aesthetically without committing to any real life associated behaviors or lifestyle choices. It gets a little weird is if I meet a new person and they immediately get into the topic of sexual fantasies/shipping band guys or something. However, I don't know whether to blame my asexuality for that one. My dad was in a fairly popular hair metal band while I was growing up, then later in a smaller band that I traveled with as their merch girl when I was a teenager. Even if it's partially due to being asexual, I think a lot of being put off by the "desperate thirsty fangirl" type is from always seeing that from an inside perspective. The same applies for my general disinterest in groupie/bangya sex gossip. I literally do not care at all about who is fucking who, whether it's in reality or fiction. Regardless, I don't often get stuck in a conversation about that.

I used to be like "Why does every candy come in grape flavor? Is that really anyone's favorite flavor?" and lately, it has become my favorite flavor. I've been nonstop craving grape hi-chew and grape popsicles.

I've heard most of the big influential vk bands, but I never really got that into any of them, somehow. I'm really lacking the the Kuroyume department, or anything Kiyoharu related. I also only know one Pierrot song. Oops.

Present: Jey (Fixer, ex- Reivier) Jojo (The Gallo) Loki (More, ex-Sugar) Karasuna Mei (Kuroyuri to Kage, ex-Memento Mori) Ai (solo, ex-Deathgaze) Past: Yuina (Lamiel/Blast) Mako (Deadman) Isshi (Kagrra) Kanwa (Allure Idea) Otogi (Awoi)

I'll be at Anime USA cosplaying Andy from The Gallo.

The Gallo - Succubus

I'm basically 12, so the worst vk band names I can think of (aside from the aforementioned Cocklobin) are DixDriver and Laybial.

Cats and dogs, of course. I work at a vet clinic, so if I didn't like those, I'd be in the wrong profession. As for more unconventional cute, I really like pangolins. They're little anteater artichokes that walk around on their back legs and roll up in little dragon egg balls. I can't handle it. Big fluffy moths are so cute. Actually moths in general. They're little bunny fairies. Honduran white bats omg Sea angels. I'm still like THESE EXIST!?!?! every time I remember them.

Last minute thrown together look for a con a few days ago

Not familiar with a couple of them, but overall that's a good list. Also we both somehow started with DEZERT DEZERT - 「告白」 The Gallo - 太陽 DIV - Place Panic Channel - Clear VanessA - B.M.METAMORPHOSE-murder side- Black:List - Melancholy Sel'm - Crimson Fish emmuree - ジザスカ ロクダマカルタ - Skull Bloom Garden Angel+Dust - 17 ~Seventeen~

Being an old visual kei fan and a new visual kei fan at the same time, a tribute version of a Key Party V.A. would probably be the most relevant to my interests thing I could think of. Hold Your Key 2015: A Tribute 僕『しもべ』 (Aliene Ma'riage) - 黒百合と影 Rushed Blue (NOi'X) - MeteoroiD 銀色馬車 (Noir Fleurir) - Elm 白い翼 (Missalina Rei) - Pentagon 華-DEFLOWER- (NeiL) - JILUKA 華麗なるDの惨劇 (Eliphas Levi) - LIPHLICH Susperia (Rapture) - DEZERT Vacillate (Lar~Mia) - Avelcain 華-DEFLOWER- (NeiL) - JILUKA Black Out Ripper (SPEED-ID) - Reign One more One (Noir Fleurir) - MORRIGAN ト・キ・メ・キ (Missalina Rei) - The Gallo 死美人～DELICATE (NeiL) - Avanchick Rebirth (Eliphas Levi) - Sibile Bashir SUICIDE～洗礼の章 (Aliene Ma'riage) - DADAROMA Missing You (NOi'X) - Chanty

Definitely looking forward to this

Yeah I'm definitely here for more of this.

Ikna - I recognize you from tumblr, too!