A farewell.

[Lestat 2167]

After due consideration, I have decided to end my public posting activities on Monochrome Heaven. 

 

Some might already be aware of my quiet departure, and I initially did not desire to place an open announcement on the forum as it would —so to speak— mean I am giving in to the defeat of feeling undesired, but after two weeks of relief in my absence I have come to the conclusion that I am holding myself back if I were to remain affected by certain unpleasantries that have surfaced around my activity, and prefer to end matters on an 'official' note. A chain of events that occured on another platform but did include certain individuals who are also active on here made me realize that perhaps with my ideals, views, personal opinions and methods of conducting myself in a social area, this is not the correct environment for me. I feel as if I have overstayed my welcome and with that in mind (a mind that is commonly overthinking every possible given situation), I feel as if it is more beneficial for me and my fellow forum-members were I to withdraw. 

 

I wish I could have offered more to this forum or participated in its activities more often. That I could have offered a more pleasant voice to interact with. It was a great wish of mine to be included on the review team as writing is one of my greatest passions (especially when it is tied to music), but I have also realized that writing is one of my greatest flaws — its style and complexity leaving me unable to move past certain barriers and walls I have constructed around myself, thus disabling me from joining that part of the community.

 

Naturally, I have made good friends and pleasant acquaintances on here, as well as crossed people I have no desire of witnessing ever again. I suppose that is the case in every community or social group. Perhaps my sensitivity to 'trolling' and 'shit-posting' has gotten to the better part of me. I feel as if I have reached a point where I need to withdraw completely were I to be able and overlook those things without feeling as if something were to be ripped from within me. I reckon that thinking about my own mental health comes first of all. It's simply not fun anymore if every little remark upsets, or sends one into a melt-down.

 

There is no other community online that gives such a great voice to Visual Kei and other Japanese music as Monochrome Heaven, and it will be difficult to no longer actively participate in conversation about this music, because frankly — no other place believes in it with such passion. 

 

I want to thank everyone who did eventually welcome me, who made me laugh and made me feel like I truly had a voice on here. My inbox remains open if any of you ever wants to strike up conversation. And some of you know where else to find me.

 

 

All the best, and au revoir. 

Lestat.

[Aferni 2381]

Whilst we had our differences sometimes...you were a really cool person and sympathetic person, I think alot of people weren't able to see that. It sucks to see you go, but I wish you luck to where ever you end up, Farewell Rocketeer.

[YuyoDrift 1540]

As someone who I feel shares the same thought process and view of online etiquette as I do, I feel it's my place to say you'll be in my thoughts.

It's unfortunate that some of the users on here have driven you to make this decision, as I'm sure I know exactly who they are. 

 

I know how you feel. If you've followed my postings over the years, you've seen that I've adapted to the trend/theme of what the average user posts. I still disagree with a lot of it, but choose to understand the user and why they post what they do, or choose to ignore their post completely, as it's easier on my sanity.

 

My signature is no joke. I mean what I say. Until you learn to take their opinions/trolling with a grain of salt, and not feed them, I'll be looking forward to your return.

 

I'll continue to uphold the ideals we lead/stand by and speak my mind where I see it's needed. This is an online normality, and if it weren't for people like you and I on it, then nothing on the internet would be valid, I feel.

 

You've been followed and I'll shoot you a pm from time to time to if you'd like. Cya.

[violetchain 912]

Really sad to see this. I've always liked your writing style - it is a little formal in tone sometimes, but I always get the sense that you've put quite a bit of thought into everything you say and that you're not afraid to express opinions that go against the majority. In some of the past tradeoffs, even if I disagreed with what you were saying about a song, I always thought the way you were saying it sounded lovely. That's a wonderful quality to have on a forum, IMO. I'm definitely going to miss having someone around that's actually heard of most of the same semi-obscure hair metal bands I grew up listening to as well!

 

Wishing you all the best in the future! <3

[TetsuAkira 289]

Oh Lestat, no. ;_;

 

We only spoke once or twice but I would give you're banter and wittiness a solid  10/10.

 

See you around </3

[eiheartx 1310]

This is not an au revoir — you know where to find me.

 

[suji 8317]

Aww, I'm sorry to see you go. Oh well, at least we still have the twatter machine. ♥

 

I hope the people involved in this get what they deserve.

Edited April 16, 2016 by MidnightChaos

[plastic_rainbow 2162]

i only started to get knowing you through the dub sessions, and while our tastes differ in some areas i do think you have a nice selection of bands~ sorry to see you depart this way. best of luck to you!

[chemicalpictures 1888]

ouch man, that's sad to hear... all the best on your journey, hope someday you'll join us again!