RoseOfHizaki

Im being sarcastic actually, If you cant tell.

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Simply demanding someone be fired does nothing for anyone.

 

It does if youre Sir Alan Sugar.....

 

I'll see myself out....

BF4 'feels' alright so far.... it feels more like BF 3.1 then BF4. A lot of the people I play with though arent diggin' it as much and quite a few of them have cancelled their pre-order. 

 

I like the look of it generally, it plays well. but the China map would have been pretty good if DICE didnt give people the opportunities to get onto roof tops - At least make it harder to get onto roof tops or make it so there are only a few buildings where you can climb onto rooms because Snipers are like a nasty infestation of bedbugs - Once they get onto the roof its hard to get them off it then depending on which side is losing the game, everyone on the losing side just morphs into a sniper like a power ranger. 

 

If people are doing it in the beta - they sure as hell will do it in the final game and that just annoys me immensely in the game - faggot snipers camping on roofs picking off stragglers because their too dumb to realise that Battlefield is a team based game and being on a roof doesnt help the team unless their spotting armor for engineers but even then how many armored vehicles are there going to be? Not even 5. youre not gonna be very useful if youre gonna try and spot tanks from a rooftop a mile away from where the action is.

 

My setup

 

Intel [email protected]

2x MSI 680 OC in SLi

Asus X79 Pro

16GB DDR3 2133Mhz Kingston HyperX Beast.

 

Running on Ultra and easily get a steady 100-130fps. Ive heard people complain about frame drops but i havent experienced any.

 

 

Not too sure if im gonna cancel my pre-order too and put the money towards titanfall, BF4 will be good but it wont be revolutionary by any stretch of the imagination and its definitely not a huge step away from BF3. One thing i hate the most is that im gonna have to unlock everything all over again and i havent even unlocked all of the stuff yet on BF3 as i dont play it 24/7. Thats particularly a big issue for me. 

Add me on lastfm or i'll eat your camera.

are you a girl?

Let me get this straight....

 

you hate hate music with jazz, blues, funk, folk elementals. seldom listen to symphonic metal. - BLUES which forms the basis of which Rock was derived from which then went onto evolve into metal/heavy metal/<insert metal subgenre here> but yet you listen to and like melodic death metal, thrash metal, groove metal, math metal, djent, progressive metal & possibly Alt metal which almost all of them take some elements & fundamentals from the genres you hate to make music??? many prog metal bands use jazz, blues and folk/funk chord progressions and fusions in their music as well as djent/math metal bands

 

and yet you create/write your own experimental music? 

 

Sorry, but i cant take you seriously. 

Add me on lastfm - Or ill eat your dog

My memories better with flashbacks lol. Im 28 but I can still remember a chick i dated back in highschool when i was 16 or something - we broke up because people started rumors and rather than talk to her i decided to keep her out of it - If people had issues they could come speak to me, not go after someone i cared for.

 

I never had the balls to explain or say i was sorry and I hung on to that all the way through school, through college and pretty much throughout the Emma saga till I randomly bumped into her in the street when on the way to work, Called in said i would be a little late and took her for a coffee and a long awaited apology, Ive been waiting 8-12 years just to apologise and i never once forgot about her.

 

I tried dating her again after that, we were both single after all. but she was playing hard to get like me holding on to a 12 year apology wasnt good enough but it was just something I had to get off my chest... 

I didnt mind anyway but she wouldnt give me her number as she wanted me to work for it.

 

Sadly the company she worked for relocated down the road to another property and i never saw her again. I dont know if she was transfered to work elsewhere but I havent seen her again nor has she knocked on my door and she knows exactly where i live.

 

I think it was fate that we met again otherwise she would of kept haunting me.

 

 

Such is life, Some of us are born to walk this earth forever alone.

Well, I only listened to a album preview/sampler on YT but one or a few of the tracks were like acoustic ballads? I didnt like the first few tracks where it was all poppy and technocat kinda stuff.

 

I prefer 1D over Cher

I use some imported Hi-Fi man RE-400's with my SGS3 sound pretty decent. quite a balanced set of headphones though the highs might be slightly lacking. Mids are great and the bass is pretty tight and packs enough punch, my EQ is tweaked a little to balance out the mids and highs otherwise it just sounds wrong.

 

Prior to the RE-400's I was using a set of RHA MA-350's which were a replacement for some original old skool Sennheiser CX300s, the MA-350's are similar to the CX300s in the fact that they are complete bass monsters. MA-350s can produce some powerful bass but it can be extremely overpowering and come out very muddy with a little break up. It lacks highs but the mids are pretty sweet once everything is balanced out. I found it difficult to EQ the right balance between bass a highs for these headphones as the overall bassy sound doesnt respond well. you can either have it bassy or not bassy at all, there is no middle ground for adjustment.

 

For pc use i run everything through an old set of Logitech Z5500's which have been connected to quite a few Asus Xonar's in the past. Im more of a gamer though so i switched back to using creative audio cards.

 

Eventually im gonna ditch the Z5500's and soundcards for Onkyo amp and some bookshelf speakers (need a subwoofer too - If i cant feel the bass shaking my soul then Im not alive)

<3 Dream Theater

Well.... I dont have a 'song-for-the-moment' but certain songs just suddenly remind me of things. either of people I loved or knew/was close to or places ive been. I can only really think of one off the top of my head (my mind is a little disorganised like that...) so I will add that for now and include some more later as i start remembering them.

 

 

 

One of my most heartbreaking memories was when I broke up with my gf of 4 years which Ive partially gone into in the single peoples thread

We met on a chatroom thing and we kinda got talking, we were talking for at least 3-4years before we decided to meet up but m heart kinda fell for her before we even met, I live in london and shes like 3hrs train ride away from me up north somewhere. I was working at the time so going to visit her wasnt that much of a problem though train tickets here in the UK are beyond extortionate. 

 

Met up a few times (at my expense of course - She was 18 and didnt have a job at that time cuz she was still in 6th form or in college) and we both enjoyed our time together so I asked her to be mine one day, like random off the bat thing and I was very very shy about it back then but I really really really loved and wanted her and she was totally my little cuddle bunny till things went sour.

 

Her name was Emma, but I called her Emmybear cuz that kinda made her go silent every time I called her that - Its like one of them words that make your heart stop ya know? and it had that kind of effect on her. And she loved to cuddle so i used to cuddle and hug the shit out of her when we met up - hence the pet name Emmybear.

 

I met her parents, they seemed to like me and we got on just fine, I think they liked me even more because her dad plays bass, little brother plays drums and she played a little guitar, and because i was a musician I kinda fit in with her family.

 

Things were great over the next few years between me and Emma but unfortunately things werent so good with her parents,  they started arguing and fighting a lot, mum tried to push dad down the stairs and dad found out that wife was an alcoholic that owed a 'friend' a lot of money.

 

During this time I took time off work to make more visits to make sure emma was fine, I tried to get both parents to talk things over rather than kill each other but since im an outsider theres only so much I can do to help. Sadly the situation didnt improve and they eventually separated and Emma was totally heartbroken. There wasnt anything I could do or say to make her feel better and things just started going downhill from then on. she started to isolate herself from everyone and wanted to lock everyone out of her life. I stuck by her all through her parents break up and still carried on being there for her when she started pushing me away from her saying she didnt feel 'ready' for a relationship.

 

till this day im not sure If it was the truth or not but i had a huge suspicion that she was just after a way to break up the relationship. Before the issue with her parents ending up in an epic train crash of all train crashes, I said to her that I 'felt' deep inside that she was my soulmate when we were having a cuddle, whether she believed in the whole soulmate thing or not is anybody's guess but i thought she was because she was big on the whole astrology thing. Anyway, she avoided answering me and changed the subject and Instantly picked up on it but let the subject drop instead of letting it ruin the mood but It was always in the back of my mind because I thought she felt the same way about me.

 

Anyway - shit happened. parents tried to kill each other, got separated and she was totally devastated. I stuck by her and comforted her at every opportunity i got and I still persisted even when she started pushing me away and i carried on persisting, trying to get her to talk and open up to me. but she wanted to put us on hold and to have her own space for a bit so I stopped seeing her. We still kept talking on the phone and texting each other but that kind of faded out and then somewhere along the line I hit depression in a big way because I felt that I had failed both of us. 

 

In my previous relationship it was dating a girl who also lived outside of london, I didnt have much money back then so I couldnt go see her as much as i wanted to so that relationship failed and I swore to myself that I would never let myself suffer like that again and that determination drove me forward.

 

 And here I was.... getting close to £400 p/w, NEVER short of cash and still back in the same boat lost at sea with torn sails, rotting hull and oars that are too small to row myself to salvation in waves that would even hide moby dick if he thought he was a flying fish. 

 

I lost my job. I locked myself away and didnt want to deal with people anymore.  and I was totally doomed. I had completely no more hope in life but i couldnt bring myself to commit suicide because I was such a fucking coward.

 

And i lost everything, couldnt pay bills, had repo men knocking at my door. and all i could do was sit indoors and cry about how worthless my life was.

 

First year of depression was bad, second year it was a little better, third year i felt mentally stable enough to attempt to pull myself out of the deep dark hole and try and recover what was left of my life and start all over again. 

 

If you've been unemployed for 3 years or longer here in the UK, finding a job is like crawling through shit because nobody can account for where you've been or what youve done and employers need to know this or they wont hire you because you pose a security risk or they will think youre some sort of degenerate scum too lazy and happy to sit back and collect handouts from the government. 

 

I did manage to get a job eventually when I was for another 5 years before losing it due to budget cuts but thats a story for a different time.... 

 

During the 5years I worked for this company I was contacted by my ex who had went through a lot just to get in touch with me as i had changed my number a few times since the break up. She had just left hospital after trying to commit suicide, we got talking again but never met up in person - filled me in on the goings on since our break up which most of the details are covered in my single persons post. Never talked about the past and I just tried to be a friend to her even though I still loved her inside though if she didnt want me I wouldnt really care so long as we were friends and i could be a creeper and watch her from afar. Sadly that fantasy was short lived as she started to ignore me again.

 

When i finally got her to talk to me, she said she didnt want to fall for me again and she could feel it happening,

 

Not really the answer I was looking for, neither does it answer any of my questions regarding our break up but after being in depression for so long over her I just didnt really care enough to give any fucks anymore even though the thing about her being cheated on by a married guy hurt me inside a little but the other part of me inside just kept screaming at me inside that she deserved it.

 

Well, I talked to her a little longer, Said I was in a position where I could transfer to a different office to be closer to her and get our own apartment yadayadayada if she still wanted to have another try.

 

Obviously she didnt and we parted ways again. 

 

-- I made a video of her and uploaded it to my old YT channel because I wanted a memory to be floating around somewhere on the net and hoped that one day she might stumble across it. Unfortunately that channel got harpooned by a bunch of copyright trolls and blocked but the song i used is

 because the (translated) lyrics spoke to  my heart and very much reminded me of her. I still have the video on my NAS so i might re-upload it at somepoint. but its really nothing special - just a karaoke with japanese and translated english lyrics with her picture in the background after a brief introduction at the start of the video.

 

late last year i started listening to an Aussie death/symphonic metal band called 'Make Them Suffer' and they have this song called

which greatly describes my exact feelings and thoughts i was having every day during the first year of breakup when i went into depression. The aggression in the song and the vocals describes my thoughts and feelings perfectly. It just makes me think of her every time i hear it...

 

 

Oh, And

 was classed as 'our song' when we were together because of the distance between us.

Just saw this now. 

 

I actually am pretty much disemboweling Aoi Mochi and RoseOfHizaki. Y'all bitches better pay homage to the true God of this world.

 

The album is amazing, better than your faves tbqh. 

 

And Nick you know BETTER than to mention that whiny dog in this thread.

 

 

"Goddess" actually, calling her a God would be insinuating that Cher is male, which at this stage in time neither is correct.

 

I cant really fault her for wanting to carry on working and making money. but there comes a time where enough is enough and its really time to put down the mic and bow out gracefully.

In Cher's case she hasnt done that, all this plastic surgery, botox injections and face lifts. Here you have someone who seems to be obsessed with chasing her youth and 'trying' to look younger so she might appeal or looks more appealing to her listeners more. 

 

 

Better then my fave?? So what is my fave? you seem to know so much more about me then i know about myself when it comes to personal musical tastes.

 

 

 

On a more positive note though, at least shes stopped using that godawful autotune. But i still think she needs to retire. 

 

NOT THAT I LISTEN TO OVER COMMERCIALISED POP TUNES ANYWAY

Egoist - All Alone With You

My hair's about this short cuz i had it cut anyway...

 

 

But it used to be past my waist.

Looking at mens hair styles and came across this...

 

 

This dudes hair style would get me so much pussy if i had it but my hair is too thick and wiry to be like this and I cant afford all the hair treatments to make it look similar

Well thanks for letting me know, could it be random DDoS attacks? ;p maybe the server which the site is hosted on is shared with other sites and they are experiencing heavy traffic?

I like my boobage Natural kthnx

 

 

 

epic sax guy or reincarnation as a Haro?

Battlefield 4 Beta!!

 

(track is just awesomeness)

Born in London, UK but of Chinese Descent

I think animated gifs on avatars and sigs should be banned. Those definitely put more stress on server loads. I go to other forum sites where animated gifs aren't allowed, and they load up fast.

 

This would be a good place to start - Most forums ban animated avatars & sigs so I dont see why the same rule shouldnt be applied here too if the site is running slow.

 

Of course the animated avatars and sigs look cool but then everyone else suffers from poor site loading times because you opted to have something flashy

Yohio was fine when he was trying to be HIZAKI but when he started doing every stupid VK stereotype it all went down hill from there.

 

I actually hated him for trying to be like hizaki and not more original, but then again it looked good on him so i dont care too much...