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  6. Posted

    Well, I think I might be kind of late for this, but I want to share my story nevertheless.

    In my teen days I had a lot of suicide thoughts, probably suffering from depression and people were making fun of me. I didn't get to see a doctor until I was 18. I had like 5 or 6 diagnostics from major depression to cyclic personnality. It wasn't until 2012 than they discovered that I was suffering from bipolaria. I was in high for almost 2 months and spent over 10k $ on electronics, cds and stuff like that. I was interned for 2 months and was also diagnosed social anxiety. 

    I've seen so many therapists, social worker, psychologist and psychiatrist until last year where I found a good psychiatrist. I was then diagnosed with borderline personality (only traits). I'm 28 years old now and well, I'm doing better but everyday I have to deal with anxiety and suicide thoughts. I've been feeling empty, alone and wanting to end this for over 15 years now. It always depends on the day, but overall I'm better with interacting with people and VK really helped me during college. As someone said, VK is the best medecine.

    On a brighter note, I am okay atm, I am still seeking help and taking my medication, seeing my psy and all. This autumn I will go back to university in social working. I want to help others with mental health issues. I will work very hard to achieve that goal, and well, thank you all for sharing your stories, it takes courage to talk about it with someone. Atm, I talk about it freely with people around me but people who are not suffering from any illness can't really understand. I was always ashamed of it but now I can say that I'm kinda proud to be who I am and kinda happy about me and what I have achieve and what is to come.  

    Anywayz, if you seek help for mental illness and find a good therapist and psychiatrist and take medication it will work someday. It takes time, it took me a decade to find good people (well I did lost my therapist last year and waiting for someone new but oh well).

     

    Also, I write poetry it really helps me and I even started a story.

    Just talking to someone that understand really helps sometime. I'm blessed to have one really good friend that I can talk to about anything but I know some people have no one except online.

    (Sorry for my english, I'm french haha.)

    So that was my story, thanks for reading, cheers!

  8. Posted · Edited by Alsdead14

    Quelqu'un parle français ici? Bon j'ai deleté mes anciens commentaires et je suis pas vraiment actif ici, mais c'est toujours sympa de parler de VK avec des gens :D Quels sont vos groupes préférés? Moi c'est ALSDEAD, Dir en grey, lynch., Vivarush, L'arc~en~ciel, Matenrou Opera, Girugamesh, Sadie. J'aime aussi the GazettE, mais pas vraiment les cds après TOXIC. Il y a des chansons de sympa, mais bon. J'aime tout plein d'autres groupes, et je ne suis pas de France, mais du Québec. J'attends vos réponses :) 

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  10. Posted

    I don't know if anyone mentionned this, but the stuff bands release only in japan, like, for example, ALSDEAD's last live DVD. In 7 years, they never released any dvd but they released it only in japan, and I had to paid like 100$ for that god damn dvd, and got it like 2 years after it was released. Why the hell didn't they released it internationally? I wanted to hear them live so bad, they even played some shows in the US. They are my favorite band, and it was killing me not having their dvd. I was searching for it everywhere and couldn't find it. I agree with most of what people said. The fan base is also a pain in the ass. I don't have friends that like Visual Kei, I tried several times online, this year I even joined some facebook groups, but god damnit, all they could talk was The GazettE and only that one band. I've been following the scene since like 2006 and never made a online friend that I could share my passion with. People often judge me because I listen to japanese music. I remember one girl that once said to me, "Why don't you listen to music like everyone else?". I also hate the live-limited releases. They cost so much if they someone wasn't kind enough to share it. And well, the shipping from Japan to Canada. I bought Dadaroma's DVD and that shit cost me 120$. 70$ for a live dvd is soooo expensive. For an example, I bought like Delain's dvd, it cost me like 40$, but I had 2 live cds with it. Same with Nightwish. Why does VK cost so much? I'm also somehow that likes to buy cds and have a collection. My current collection probably cost me 5000$ since 2008. and well, I often have to download stuff as I don't have much money, and well, when I share stuff it gets uploaded everywhere. I rarely buy stuff anymore except for alsdead (now AllS). Anyway, that was me complaining haha.

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  14. Posted

    On 30/04/2018 at 6:07 AM, echo said:

     

    i haven't heard anything about a new album yet. i doubt they'd have another one so soon haha

    It's all good, I have my Metal Symphonic Bands in the meanwhile haha. (the show I went on april 22th). Anyway, if you ever hear anything, please let me know :) 

  15. Posted

    On 25/04/2018 at 8:02 PM, echo said:

    Thanks for making this thread!! I haven't seen them too many times since they've become AllS. They don't really play with VK bands anymore and I don't really care for the bands they play with now T_T plus the tickets are stupid expensive for a taiban sometimes T_T I've seen a couple of their onemans though! And the are just as amazing as I remember them <3

     

    Maki's English has improved A LOT. it's almost as if he took the time during their hiatus to learn proper English or something haha maybe he did a study abroad program??? lolol

     

    I FUCKING LOVE YOSUKE!!!!! I love how he's still derpy af and they're still playing PEGGY-O!!! That's like the ultimate Yosuke song haha last time I saw them though, he totally fucked up the bass solo and he was so sad hahaha I haven't seen them recently though T_T I hope I can see them again soon!

    No prob, my pleasure. These guys deserve more love :) I'm glad that you came back on the forum! Yeah I remember you telling me that their tickets are expensive af.

    Haha, poor Yosuke. Loved what he did in the live dvd haha, I bet he's way more awesome live. Maybe one day, I'll finally see them live. Did you heard anything about a new single or album? I know it's only been like 6 months or so, but I want new material :D.

    And indeed, Maki's english is way better :) Maybe he did that haha.

    Cheers!

  19. Posted

    6 hours ago, xLIZ4 said:

    True, I had the same problem and then tried bank transfer... doesn’t work either. I PMed them and they replied with the same as they said to you.

    The website is not really friendly for countries outside of Japan x]

    I can read the Japanese that is used, but for many people that can be a problem too.

    You can change the language to english, but anywayz. They are still trying to figure out what's going on as someone from the America completed an order as a guest with her VISA and when I use mine, it says the same message of error. They are still answering me atm. Hope it get fixed, I want that image signed haha and the Mademoiselle single.

  20. Posted

    4 hours ago, xLIZ4 said:

    They’ve opened their international webshop:

    https://kerberostore.official.ec/

     

    “Every person who places an order this month will receive a personalized signed image from the members of Vivarush (please note that because of this all orders will be mailed out at the end of the month)”

    I tried to order from their webshop but the credit card system doesn't work. I contacted them on facebook and they said they are looking into the matter and trying so solve the issue. 

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