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WHAT THE EFF......WHO WENT INTO MY ROOM AND SMASHED MY BLACK & BROWN EYELINER PENCILS?!??@!?!?!?!?!?

just made myself an omelette... it has cheddar cheese, slices of ham, pepper, salt, parsley flakes and peanuts.......

a little more effort from you would be nice..........

I feel so old... my co-worker 2 years older than me just got married... and my other ex co-worker is 1 year younger than me and is pregnant....only 7 more weeks until she delivers.. I feel so fucking old -_-"...and I have so many friends moving away...so many farewells.. I think it just hit me...fuck I feel old...I even fell asleep so early.....old......when I look at my age number...no not my looks.. my age...and then my sister says "you'll be 50 when you marry" now that really makes me feel any better ^o) ..omg this freak-out should hit me in 3 more years not now....

instant coffee nescafe tastes like shit.. made me throw up...

/facepalm I woke up now can't fall asleep...

wow... 3 hour msn chat with my other sister who never wants to talk to me.... wow does she have problems.......... so I find out she's depressed, has panic attacks and anxiety, crazy mood swings...is freaking out about what to take in university...and apparently wants to die *says this jokingly.. but this is coming from someone who 1 year ago used to cut herself badly....wow so much to take in....I gotta get her some help....somehow...hmm and she thew her anger at me for telling our parents one year ago about her huge shoplifting problem... I was only trying to do the right thing.. ^o) ugh.. so much drama in this house..

why do you worry?... it makes me kind of sad you don't fully trust me... if there is anything I need to tell you I will... I'm not really sure what's making you think I'm keeping a secret from you...if I don't even know of it in the first place..therefore I have nothing to tell you ><".. unless you want me to make up something? :-/

hm.. melatonin is over the counter.. not prescribed.. but yea.. as for as other medicines go.. no I don't...unless the occasional tylenol counts....

made myself a bacon/fried egg/grilled cheese sandwich.... at 1:30am........yummmmmmmm

why do I feel so sad lately? edit: and recently... why is it that every time I use melatonin to knock myself out.. that I fall into a deep sleep.. but in a really bad nightmare....and I usually wake up sweating or with my heart beating...............like one bad trip......is my body saying no to melatonin?...I only took 3mg.. not like 9mg.. my regular dose...

you owe me $70 dollars.... been over a month and you're still giving me excuses.. any longer and I'll blacklist you online like no tomorrow...

1 slice of walnut coffee cake couple of desert bread finger sticks 1/4 grilled cheese sandwich 1/4 grilled cheese and fried ham sandwich 1/4 peanut butter and jam sandwich 1 mini cup of vanilla yogurt 2 scoops of mocha fudge icecream small banana water..... yea...I ate this all after work around 12am heh

woke up like 5x during a 7 hour 'sleep' ...if I should bother calling it that...I feel like shit today.....FU cramps...I feel like knives are in me or something...FU couldn't I skip another monthly? fuck.... ==""""""

............You owe me $68..................................I want now....

Sister banging on my door and screaming at my door like a lunatic for a good 30 minutes and still continuing..I would love to open the door and beat the shit out of her but I can't../ Dealing with people who are mentally unstable is really frustrating..Reasoning does not even exist. "You are damaging my door, please stop. Would you like to watch tv?" .....Like, in my head I'm saying...STFU I can't even hear my music through my ear buds...ugh god..I'm going to bite through my tongue... Rule of thumb dealing with her.. or any other toddler.. Do not give them attention for their bad behavior..... so fucking hard....

STOP BANGING ON MY GODDAMN DOOR. IM TRYING TO GET SOME FUCKING SLEEP....UGH....FIRST WORK CALLS AND BUGS ME...AND YOU COME LIKE 4X AT MY DOOR WITH STUPID REASONS...I DON'T FUCKING WORK TODAY READ THE FUCKING CALENDAR...WHAT'S THE POINT OF TELLING ME TO WRITE SHIT DOWN MOM IF YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING READ IT. YOU DON'T LIKE TO LISTEN OR READ...... WHAT. THE. FUCK.

In pain....can't sleep....everything pisses me off......and I feel like complete shit.....even though I'm overy-ly (is that a word?) stressed out, and skipped july......I still hate monthlys....very bad timing too....my fucking last week of freedom, before school starts.... ^o) .....fuck was going to attempt sleeping ....but I have a stomach ache =="

dear co-worker.....you stupid lying fucker......I hope karma hunts you down......today was beyond shitty............

ugh fuck................now I'm hungry.....awake....and fucked for tomorrow...

I'm addicted to you............oh crap..........

Why the fuck did I buy an extra large black coffee at 12:30AM? ... I'm so fucked for work tomorrow...

dumb piece o shit file...... crashing/freezing my comp for 2 hrs... screw dividing the file into 6....I can't stand working at snail-pace........fuck this.....screw kinkos I'm gona print it my way >_>"

oh fuck I'm doomed....gotta wait for file...gotta find all my loan documents...gotta get to school downtown...gotta head over to metro to buy stuff for my cosplay....gotta head home to work on banner..gotta create business cards....gotta edit file for the printers..gotta reply to this other collaboration...gotta head to commercial drive.....gotta head back downtown to print everything....gotta get a hold of my classmate to use his huge printer.....hopefully he picks up....or else I gotta head to kinkos...which sucks...then gotta head over to meeting near w broadway....hopefully it'll be printed before then...gotta work on banner after meeting....wow im gonna feel like shit........actually I already do feel like shit......then I have to head home and figure out my cosplays...and then head over early the next day for the convention...oh my god gonna feel like complete shit......oh great now that kimchi thing my sis snuck into my food is giving me problems...I feel like puking.....really nauseous right now....

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