PsychoΔelica

I'm feeling pretty today.
#arab_kei

As someone who's had to actually break a relationship off with someone else thinking those words exactly I can confirm it's not that easy to tell them there was something wrong. Or the thing may be that there wasn't. When I broke up with my previous boyfriend I knew there was absolutely nothing wrong with him. He didn't treat me wrong and he couldn't have done anything differently. I feel like it's easier when there's actually something you can blame the whole break-up on. That they weren't attentive enough or that you yourself have to sort things out in your head. But when it's just that you've fallen in love with someone else just because they were a different kind of person entirely, what else can you say? "I'm breaking it off, but don't think there's anything wrong with you, you were perfect, but anyways, so long".
 
Tl;dr IT'S HARD TO BREAK UP WITH SOMEONE ESPECIALLY WHEN THERE ISN'T A PROPER EXPLANATION YOU CAN GIVE FOR IT.

Having a soft spot for someone while at the same time hating their guts and feeling angry to the point of nausea or wanting to cry upon thinking about them is the worst feeling ever. :/

Klaha was a better singer, technically speaking.

Also, kinda related: Does anyone still remember the days when Gackt could kinda sing? Like in Malisu and early solo? Because damn I tricked myself and my husband into watching his latest MV and the cringe was real. He sounds like a duck attempting opera.

I'm feeling pretty today.
#arab_kei

Thanks for the top-notch Engrish, Ai!

I feel like Klaha was better than Gackt if only for all the off-key singing, that makes me cringe. But I find his voice to be much more pleasant and impacting in general.  Such a waste...

The vk scene stepped up their Halloween game this year.
 

Because of you - kelly clarkson

Can you please just love me even everyone hates me ?

Since I'm still here might as well post some new stuff. There'll be a whole lot more emo shit like this. ♡
 
 

From last week. Live drawing
 

I'm feeling pretty today.
#arab_kei

I'm feeling pretty today.
#arab_kei

I would probably be depressed for a while. Then pick some other creative profession because still gotta make a living.
 
How would you deal with living in a surroundings where you'd feel an outcast  but couldn't move elsewhere?

I'm feeling pretty today.
#arab_kei

I myself don't sadly own any pets (mainly because I don't have the time and money, otherwise I'd probably already have bought myself a horse T.T), but my brother has two cute little snakes.
 

 

 
They're both royal pythons, the first one's a 4-year-old female and the second one's a 2-year-old male. They're both so adorable!

Nice cattie, psychodelica
I have no pets right now. Had a hamster for five years (jungarian one?) than a cat for three weeks, because of bite, but we did't want to have one, than next hamster, and after three years... Till now no pets. Sadly

I don't know how to get over a relationship that never happened. Always leaves me emotionally broken, unlike those fuckers who gave up on me. I fucking hate suffering being dumped while the other person has moved on and found someone new already.  I wish I didn't have a heart.

#frombehindtheseemptywalls

I've given up on relationships for the most part. I'd much rather use my single time for casual dates, maybe play the field a bit while I can.
Apart from that, I haven't dated anyone since a little over a year ago mainly because I tend to have a shitty taste in dudes. Most of the guys I've dated or even found attractive, period, have turned out to be assholes, and most of those times I've either failed to pick up on that or refused to acknowledge it.
That and because most if not all of the dudes that become interested in me seem to think of me as a manic pixie dream girl. :/ It's depressing because I can hardly make/keep male friends without them catching feels.

Dragging up this old topic. D:
 
I dated my husband for a year, and then I had to move back to the U.S. to graduate so we we did a year and a half long distance while I was studying and looking for employment in Japan. Then we moved in together and got married. We've been together over 12 years.
 
Not gonna lie, the long distance part was really hard. We almost broke up a few times because our ways of dealing with the relationship was different... For my husband it was easier to try not to think about me and not text or write so he didn't have to deal with feeling lonely and for me I wanted more contact to ease the loneliness, so we fought sometimes about that. But having gone through that, it has certainly made us more appreciative of our relationship and we don't take our time together for granted.

Mid-thirties here and still don't want kids, or even a serious relationship, tbh. Everyone in my family looks at me like I'm an alien because I don't give a shit about marriage or children. I also get tired of people insinuating I'm selfish for not wanting children, like living my life for myself is a bad thing. The world is scary, not to mention over populated as it is. I don't feel compelled to add to it. 

Yo peeps. I wanted to talk about an issue that's very dear to my heart, and that's called planning a family, or a lack of it. Just like the title says.
 
At my age, most women (and possibly also men) are, if not already totally at it, at least planning for their own family. You know. Husband, kids, golden retriever, stuff like that. Most women have silently agreed to have children, even if they don't particularly want them, just because society thinks they should.
 
I stand at the other side of the whole concept: I don't want kids. Ever. I've been told ever since I was a tot that I'll change my mind and when I'm older I'll understand the need to have children. Bitch, I'm older now and still don't want any. In fact, I would gladly have my tubes tied into one hell of a knot to ever avoid even considering the idea that I might be with a child. The idea of pregnancy scares me. The idea of childbirth scares me. I don't like kids. I don't think babies are cute, not in the least. In fact, I believe children up to the age of 10 are, at best, a bore, and at worst, horrible spawns of satan I want nowhere  near me. And yet, medical specialists argue I'm too young (nearing 30 here) to decide if I want kids or not, so they won't perform a sterilisation. Yo, people can decide on a sex correction surgery once they turn 18 but I'm not old enough to know I hate kids and don't want any. And I'm not saying this to mock anyone or say that transgender people shouldn't have the option to do that, but just that both are a part of body autonomy that I think one should have the right to rule over after a certain age.
 
Are there other people who feel the same way as I do? Ladies and gents who just don't want kids, no matter what? Or people who want them but can't have them? Tell me your thoughts and give us some peer support.