RoseOfHizaki

call me an extremist but if i could achieve it then id do it....Id create some sort of explosion or some sort of man made force of nature that would either wipe out humanity completely or at least bring it to its knees - In an effort to completely eradicate corporate duchebaggery, selfishness and any negative trait among the people. In such a world, any sort of currency means nothing, what will mean something is doing things for each other - trading skills, running errands for each other, just things that help each other out as a community.
 
Of course people will call me a tyrant and a traitor to humanity, but when im long dead and gone either killed by my own plan or later on by the survivors - I hope whats left of the community will continue to grow and that people will abandon whatever hatred, grudges or boundaries they had before that prevent them from growing as a community together and for once live together in peace. The people will call me a traitor but decades from that point in time people will call me a hero for uniting the people despite going into extreme measures and killing so many in the process.
 
In order to evolve and move onto the next level - sacrifices must be made, and if wiping out humanity means that people finally give a shit about each other then maybe the world wouldnt be such a bad place anymore.
 
 
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I dig really feminine guys too but its more of a bi-curious side of me?? but i do prefer women though, but I tend to break my toys so durability is a bonus. not saying that im incapable of being gentle but i like to manhandle fragile things like a bull in a china shop.
 
Otherwise I do find femguys to be slightly more loyal to their partners. either that or I just havent found the right partner for me and its been a long long long time since ive really trusted someone that intimately.
 
 
 
Youre not alone - Im getting on 29 and havent had a date or anyone close enough to cuddle with for probably the same amount of time if not longer. I used to get very sad about it, and to a certain extent I still do, I get jealous of friends who have girlfriends and it depresses me even further.
 
Im neither good looking or rich but im comfortable with the money I earn though It could be a little better. So I waste my money on things that make me happy and but stuff for myself because i have nobody to spend money on - while It does not fix the problem I am able to focus on other things and less about the shit that makes me sad because the last thing I need is to be dragged into that black hole called drepression.
 
and I cry about it when im alone, I honestly do - because Inside im an emotional mess and theres one other thing out there that cuts me deep more than any break up or the feeling of being alone because Its really something I have never had any control over. But I put on a brave face, because deep inside I know Im stronger then that.
 
Ive made peace with myself that maybe I will never find anyone, and even though it doesnt stop me looking back once in a while and crying like a little bitch about it - I know where im going, and what I have to do in life - I might not have anyone to love but i can love those around me, so I help make life a little better for them.
 
and I live everyday at a crossroad not knowing when depression might make me do something stupid but until the day i finally grow some balls and take my own life at least i would have shared my love with my family and friends before I leave it all behind and its something I will never look back on.
 
 
Such is life, and if you get dealt a shitty hand then you deal with it. (preferably with a brave face, cuz chicks dig that - or at least they used to)

Well.... I dont have a 'song-for-the-moment' but certain songs just suddenly remind me of things. either of people I loved or knew/was close to or places ive been. I can only really think of one off the top of my head (my mind is a little disorganised like that...) so I will add that for now and include some more later as i start remembering them.
 
 
 
One of my most heartbreaking memories was when I broke up with my gf of 4 years which Ive partially gone into in the single peoples thread
We met on a chatroom thing and we kinda got talking, we were talking for at least 3-4years before we decided to meet up but m heart kinda fell for her before we even met, I live in london and shes like 3hrs train ride away from me up north somewhere. I was working at the time so going to visit her wasnt that much of a problem though train tickets here in the UK are beyond extortionate. 
 
Met up a few times (at my expense of course - She was 18 and didnt have a job at that time cuz she was still in 6th form or in college) and we both enjoyed our time together so I asked her to be mine one day, like random off the bat thing and I was very very shy about it back then but I really really really loved and wanted her and she was totally my little cuddle bunny till things went sour.
 
Her name was Emma, but I called her Emmybear cuz that kinda made her go silent every time I called her that - Its like one of them words that make your heart stop ya know? and it had that kind of effect on her. And she loved to cuddle so i used to cuddle and hug the shit out of her when we met up - hence the pet name Emmybear.
 
I met her parents, they seemed to like me and we got on just fine, I think they liked me even more because her dad plays bass, little brother plays drums and she played a little guitar, and because i was a musician I kinda fit in with her family.
 
Things were great over the next few years between me and Emma but unfortunately things werent so good with her parents,  they started arguing and fighting a lot, mum tried to push dad down the stairs and dad found out that wife was an alcoholic that owed a 'friend' a lot of money.
 
During this time I took time off work to make more visits to make sure emma was fine, I tried to get both parents to talk things over rather than kill each other but since im an outsider theres only so much I can do to help. Sadly the situation didnt improve and they eventually separated and Emma was totally heartbroken. There wasnt anything I could do or say to make her feel better and things just started going downhill from then on. she started to isolate herself from everyone and wanted to lock everyone out of her life. I stuck by her all through her parents break up and still carried on being there for her when she started pushing me away from her saying she didnt feel 'ready' for a relationship.
 
till this day im not sure If it was the truth or not but i had a huge suspicion that she was just after a way to break up the relationship. Before the issue with her parents ending up in an epic train crash of all train crashes, I said to her that I 'felt' deep inside that she was my soulmate when we were having a cuddle, whether she believed in the whole soulmate thing or not is anybody's guess but i thought she was because she was big on the whole astrology thing. Anyway, she avoided answering me and changed the subject and Instantly picked up on it but let the subject drop instead of letting it ruin the mood but It was always in the back of my mind because I thought she felt the same way about me.
 
Anyway - shit happened. parents tried to kill each other, got separated and she was totally devastated. I stuck by her and comforted her at every opportunity i got and I still persisted even when she started pushing me away and i carried on persisting, trying to get her to talk and open up to me. but she wanted to put us on hold and to have her own space for a bit so I stopped seeing her. We still kept talking on the phone and texting each other but that kind of faded out and then somewhere along the line I hit depression in a big way because I felt that I had failed both of us. 
 
In my previous relationship it was dating a girl who also lived outside of london, I didnt have much money back then so I couldnt go see her as much as i wanted to so that relationship failed and I swore to myself that I would never let myself suffer like that again and that determination drove me forward.
 
 And here I was.... getting close to £400 p/w, NEVER short of cash and still back in the same boat lost at sea with torn sails, rotting hull and oars that are too small to row myself to salvation in waves that would even hide moby dick if he thought he was a flying fish. 
 
I lost my job. I locked myself away and didnt want to deal with people anymore.  and I was totally doomed. I had completely no more hope in life but i couldnt bring myself to commit suicide because I was such a fucking coward.
 
And i lost everything, couldnt pay bills, had repo men knocking at my door. and all i could do was sit indoors and cry about how worthless my life was.
 
First year of depression was bad, second year it was a little better, third year i felt mentally stable enough to attempt to pull myself out of the deep dark hole and try and recover what was left of my life and start all over again. 
 
If you've been unemployed for 3 years or longer here in the UK, finding a job is like crawling through shit because nobody can account for where you've been or what youve done and employers need to know this or they wont hire you because you pose a security risk or they will think youre some sort of degenerate scum too lazy and happy to sit back and collect handouts from the government. 
 
I did manage to get a job eventually when I was for another 5 years before losing it due to budget cuts but thats a story for a different time.... 
 
During the 5years I worked for this company I was contacted by my ex who had went through a lot just to get in touch with me as i had changed my number a few times since the break up. She had just left hospital after trying to commit suicide, we got talking again but never met up in person - filled me in on the goings on since our break up which most of the details are covered in my single persons post. Never talked about the past and I just tried to be a friend to her even though I still loved her inside though if she didnt want me I wouldnt really care so long as we were friends and i could be a creeper and watch her from afar. Sadly that fantasy was short lived as she started to ignore me again.
 
When i finally got her to talk to me, she said she didnt want to fall for me again and she could feel it happening,
 
Not really the answer I was looking for, neither does it answer any of my questions regarding our break up but after being in depression for so long over her I just didnt really care enough to give any fucks anymore even though the thing about her being cheated on by a married guy hurt me inside a little but the other part of me inside just kept screaming at me inside that she deserved it.
 
Well, I talked to her a little longer, Said I was in a position where I could transfer to a different office to be closer to her and get our own apartment yadayadayada if she still wanted to have another try.
 
Obviously she didnt and we parted ways again. 
 
-- I made a video of her and uploaded it to my old YT channel because I wanted a memory to be floating around somewhere on the net and hoped that one day she might stumble across it. Unfortunately that channel got harpooned by a bunch of copyright trolls and blocked but the song i used is
 because the (translated) lyrics spoke to  my heart and very much reminded me of her. I still have the video on my NAS so i might re-upload it at somepoint. but its really nothing special - just a karaoke with japanese and translated english lyrics with her picture in the background after a brief introduction at the start of the video. 
late last year i started listening to an Aussie death/symphonic metal band called 'Make Them Suffer' and they have this song called
which greatly describes my exact feelings and thoughts i was having every day during the first year of breakup when i went into depression. The aggression in the song and the vocals describes my thoughts and feelings perfectly. It just makes me think of her every time i hear it... 
 
Oh, And
 was classed as 'our song' when we were together because of the distance between us.

BF4 'feels' alright so far.... it feels more like BF 3.1 then BF4. A lot of the people I play with though arent diggin' it as much and quite a few of them have cancelled their pre-order. 
 
I like the look of it generally, it plays well. but the China map would have been pretty good if DICE didnt give people the opportunities to get onto roof tops - At least make it harder to get onto roof tops or make it so there are only a few buildings where you can climb onto rooms because Snipers are like a nasty infestation of bedbugs - Once they get onto the roof its hard to get them off it then depending on which side is losing the game, everyone on the losing side just morphs into a sniper like a power ranger. 
 
If people are doing it in the beta - they sure as hell will do it in the final game and that just annoys me immensely in the game - faggot snipers camping on roofs picking off stragglers because their too dumb to realise that Battlefield is a team based game and being on a roof doesnt help the team unless their spotting armor for engineers but even then how many armored vehicles are there going to be? Not even 5. youre not gonna be very useful if youre gonna try and spot tanks from a rooftop a mile away from where the action is.
 
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2x MSI 680 OC in SLi
Asus X79 Pro
16GB DDR3 2133Mhz Kingston HyperX Beast.
 
Running on Ultra and easily get a steady 100-130fps. Ive heard people complain about frame drops but i havent experienced any.
 
 
Not too sure if im gonna cancel my pre-order too and put the money towards titanfall, BF4 will be good but it wont be revolutionary by any stretch of the imagination and its definitely not a huge step away from BF3. One thing i hate the most is that im gonna have to unlock everything all over again and i havent even unlocked all of the stuff yet on BF3 as i dont play it 24/7. Thats particularly a big issue for me. 

"Goddess" actually, calling her a God would be insinuating that Cher is male, which at this stage in time neither is correct.
 
I cant really fault her for wanting to carry on working and making money. but there comes a time where enough is enough and its really time to put down the mic and bow out gracefully.
In Cher's case she hasnt done that, all this plastic surgery, botox injections and face lifts. Here you have someone who seems to be obsessed with chasing her youth and 'trying' to look younger so she might appeal or looks more appealing to her listeners more. 
 
 
Better then my fave?? So what is my fave? you seem to know so much more about me then i know about myself when it comes to personal musical tastes.
 
 
 
On a more positive note though, at least shes stopped using that godawful autotune. But i still think she needs to retire. 
 
NOT THAT I LISTEN TO OVER COMMERCIALISED POP TUNES ANYWAY

Inspired from a similar thread on another board and when I say inspire I really mean just copying their idea.
 
The idea of the thread is to encourage sharing music and just sharing your enthusiasm for a certain artist you are really into. Try to avoid just spamming YouTube links with shitty little one liners about the VK boys being kawaii or dis song is so bruutal. This topic should not be like in this thread and should promote discussion. It doesn't have to be VK/Japanese either since I know a lot of us listen to tunes outside of Japan.
  Band Name:
You must write a description of the band and what you find enjoyable/interesting/terrible/whatever about them. Try to really show what they’re about, what their sound is like, what artists they are influenced by/have influenced or some other means of describing their music.

I think animated gifs on avatars and sigs should be banned. Those definitely put more stress on server loads. I go to other forum sites where animated gifs aren't allowed, and they load up fast.

I never liked his voice anyway. Maybe its just his accent but his singing voice lacks any sort of feeling or dynamics, Its almost like hes just reading the lyrics off a peice of paper but in such a way that it sounds slightly musical

I never liked his voice anyway. Maybe its just his accent but his singing voice lacks any sort of feeling or dynamics, Its almost like hes just reading the lyrics off a peice of paper but in such a way that it sounds slightly musical

I never liked his voice anyway. Maybe its just his accent but his singing voice lacks any sort of feeling or dynamics, Its almost like hes just reading the lyrics off a peice of paper but in such a way that it sounds slightly musical

Am I the only person here to think that V.K should only be a japanese thing because they do it so well? Its like being a weeaboo, a few people do it great where as the majority are just bad and get hated on but everyone.
 
Theres nothing wrong with wanting to be like your idols though. though when you enter V.K you need a whole lot of stuff, not just talent and skill and it seems that Westerners arent born with the same 'ear' or the same creativity as Japan,
 
Thats not to say that there arent any great or good western bands - there are millions. but for a western band to try and do V.K it just makes me cringe so bad inside.
 
Ive only listened to seremedy, even though the production and mixing of their album/singles were perfect (thanks to Yohio's dad/contacts) but I fail to really see what was so great about them, I didnt like the vocals and I dont think very highly of Yohio even though id go as far to say id bang him when hes dressed like a girl but hes trying so hard to be Hizaki I rather then trying to be more original that i find him boring and rather spoilt as the studio and all the contacts that are pushing him onwards in the industry are his dads.
 
Leave V,K to Japan!!

Prince - Purple Rain

Scandinavian - Because I can boast about being a viking and going to Valhalla when i die to make it sound dramatic
 
Yohio - yes or no?

I just eated a fried egg and bacon sandwich.
 
it was so greasy I could feel the feel the cholesterol greasing up my veins but for a moment there I didnt give a fuck. delicious sandwich was delicious after 19hrs of no food it was glorious!!
 

He ordered bio-chemical strikes in Syria?

Myriath
Symphony X
Stormental
Angra
Dreamtheater
BioMechanical
Daath
Opeth
Porcupine Tree
Protest the Hero
Stratovarius
 
Its hard to list just 'progressive' bands without breaking into the other sub genre's prog rock/metal and power metal

Double post!
 
How about I fish for compliments by spamming this thread full of my everyday-makeup photos until everyone says I'm fucking adorable? Sounds like a deal? Good! Because shit's going down, baby!
 
I think I look a lot softer in these pics. And not only because I'm smiling and/or showing tongue. Also, the color of my eyes is pretty awesome. Even if I say so myself.
 
Okay thank you everybody! Yuugi's out~ (until tomorrow)

Been single for quite a few years after I broke up with my gf of almost 4 years quite a while back. she was the only person I felt i ever really clicked with. Ive dated a few times and ive got fairly close with a few girls but I generally find that people are full of shit for reasons i will list below.
 
Ex-girlfriend (4year relationship) left me for an older man who used her as a sex slave, lied to her about being single - it turns out he was married with 2 kids. she wont tell me why she did it. I had a job, i had money, i took her out and bought her stuff. but it seems i wasnt old enough for her and i was already about 4-5years her senior - it happened so long ago, im more or less over it now but sometimes I still get depressed and angry about it.
 
First girl - we genuinely get on quite well, we have a lot in common and she makes great company and spend a lot of time together - next thing i know shes gone after someone else and wont talk to me
 
Second girl - Im unhappy with how the first girl turned out - manage to get talking to another girl who comforts me, she is great company and more fun then the previous girl and we get on well, tells me how people are full of shit but I can trust her. time goes by and we talk alot and get on really well. So i ask her out and she says no - reason being was because she was getting cosy with someone else while she was cuddling up with me, so much for all that talk about how people are full of shit and that i can trust her.
 
THIRD GIRL - Ive known her for a while but shes a friend of a friend and we used to talk then we stopped. At this stage Im still mad at the world and i dont care for company. she makes a big effort to be with me even though i told her I dont care for a relationship. after a lot of begging, I eventually relent and decide to give it a go. shes an alright gal, we have the same interests. we spend a lot of time together, she gives me the sob story of how shes always wanted me & this n that because Im an honest guy. etc etc, we fuck each others brains out quite a few times. we're all happy and cuddly and stuff. Shes happy, I think im happy then all of a sudden she doesnt want to talk to me anymore and is really avoidant when i make any attempt to contact her so i just dont bother.
 
 
Well. ive never been a pushy boyfriend, Im not a control freak and i geniunely get a long with everyone i meet. I speak to quite a few girls who say they wonder why im still single because im such a nice guy - even some of my friends say it.
Im either a complete asshole in disguise or im being trolled by the people  asking me why im still single.
 
 
at this stage, im past caring. Im very cautious and weary of the kind of company i keep especially if they're trying to get close to me. I wouldnt say im totally against being in a relationship, but I just cant trust nobody. Better alone and without the extra emotional baggage  

had to order from the U.S as this particular model is quite rare here in the UK and retardedly priced where found. thats a $572 watch, even after i paid import duty it STILL worked out cheaper

Or just men who dress like girls that show a lot of thigh??

Spirited Away?

yonasu3 mixtapes.
 
I dont really have a preference, some instrumental music helps, either some instrumental rock, or anything that involves an orchestra. Hiroyuki Sawano writes some amazing songs/compositions. He wrote if not all then most of the songs for Gundam Unicorn but hes got a huge library of stuff that i would listen to if i was studying