well, there's a lot i don't understand about this song still. but it's written from a girl's perspective. 哀愁ぱれっと 詞/霞月 曲/ジルカディス もうどれくらい黙ってるんだろう？ 多分アイツのせいにしたいのさ ビデオテープみたいにホラ、巻き戻して 秩序とか守ってみるの？ 最新の流行りをチェックしたり ダイレクトメール読まずに捨てたり どうにかなるって思ってみたりって… 周りが眩しすぎる ねぇ、どうして？パンダが怖いの？ 「本当は小さなその目が怖いかも…」 不器用なあたしは、長い睫も真っ白な肌も商売道具にしてます。 ウサギの目をしたキミは、案外ずっと気付かないでいたんです。 長いこと悩んでいたって言っても言い訳でしょ？ 機械じゃ無いからね。痛みも感じたよ？ もうどれくらい黙っているんだろう？ 多分アイツのせいにしたいのさ どうにかなるって思ってみたりって… 周りが眩しすぎる ねぇ、どうして？パンダが怖いの？ 「小さなその目がちょっぴり怖いかも…」 解ってるけど、ダメな事だって。でも区別がつかなくなってるんです。 夢去りし、乙女の戯言「約束破ってごめんね。」 もう、愛し愛されたいとか思っちゃいけないですか？ 跪いて「もう辞めるから」って言ったら許してね。 染まりゆく夕日を眺めて、「感情なんか消した」って思ってただけかも… 何も失いたくないのよ。色褪せた過去とか何もかも戻せないけど… -- mou dore kurai damatterun darou? tabun aitsu no sei ni shitai no sa bideo teepu mitai ni hora, makimodoshite chitsujo to ka mamottemiru no? saishin no hayari wo chekku shitari dairekuto meeru yomazu ni sutetari dou ni ka naru tte omotte mitari tte... mawari ga mabushisugiru nee. doushite? panda ga kowai no? "hontou wa chiisa na sono me ga kowai ka mo..." bukiyou na atashi wa, nagai matsuge mo masshiro na hade mo shoubai dougu ni shitemasu. usagi no me wo shita kimi wa, angai zutto kidukanai de itan desu. nagai koto nayndeita tte itte mo iiwake desho? kikai janai kara ne. itami mo kanjita yo? mou dore kurai damatterun darou? tabun aitsu no sei ni shitai no sa dou ni ka naru tte omotte mitari tte... mawari ga mabushisugiru nee. doushite? panda ga kowai no? "chiisa na sono me ga choppiri kowai ka mo..." wakatteru kedo, dame na koto datte. demo kubetsu ga tsukanakunatterun desu. yume sari shi, otome no tawagoto "yakusoku yabutte gomen ne." mou, aishiaisaretai toka omocchaikenai desu ka? hizamazuite "mou yameru kara" tte ittara yurushite ne. somari yuku yuuhi wo nagamete, "kanjou nanka keshita" tte omotteta dake ka mo... nani mo ushinaitakunai no yo. iroaseta kako to ka nani mo ka mo modosenai kedo... -- How much longer are you going to stay silent? You probably want to put the blame on her Hey, why not rewind it all like a video tape and try following the order? Check the current trends, then delete your direct mail without reading them, then try thinking about what happened... everything around is so bright. Hey, what's the problem? Are you scared of pandas? "Really, maybe of those small eyes of theirs..." I might not be talented, but I use my long lashes and this pure white skin as the tools of my trade. And you with your red eyes, didn't notice me at all, surprisingly. It's still an excuse to say you were worried about it for a long time, right? I'm not a machine. I feel pain, get it? How much longer are you going to stay silent? You probably want to put the blame on her then try thinking about what happened... everything around is so bright. Hey, what's the problem? Are you scared of pandas? "Maybe just a bit, of those small eyes of theirs..." I understand, it's not okay. But I'm starting to not be able to tell the difference anymore. Abandon your dreams for the nonsense of a maiden: "Sorry I broke my promise." Should I stop thinking about how I want to love and be loved? If I get on my knees and tell you "I give up already" then forgive me. Staring at the setting sun staining the sky, I might have just thought "I got rid of all my emotions," but... I don't want to lose anything. Even though I can't go back to that faded past or anything like it...
