Social media has become so toxic, especially for me, as I've been following certain personalities because I love their aesthetic, style, etc, which is only made possible by their sponsors. For the longest time, I've idolized these kinds of people, but lately I found myself getting jealous of what they wear and how they look in their daily life, and I found myself yearning for the same thing in my boring life. Through these people, I felt pressured to actually stand out from the crowd and actually be a "real goth". However, this is the real world and I can't afford all that bullshit cuz I'm poor as fuck. Not to mention that popular brands - from goth clothes, accessories, lolita, you name it - are overpriced as fuck, and if I managed to buy it somehow, I'd only wear it once before letting it clog up my closet. So in the end, it's not worth it, and I shouldn't have to work myself to higher standards or try too hard to fit in. As a poor bitch, necessities are more important than achieving that *lewk*.