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I love religion. It has helped me quite a lot. I'm a born muslim. I like the idea of a God, because I have always been very focused on justice. Looking around, there is so much injustice created by humans, and even in everyday life, people just getting away with their words and behaviour and deeds, partly even promoted by society. Sometimes it feels as if the bad has become good. I hate that. I like the idea that in the end, everyone will face consequences. In the end, everything will balance out.
I have had many questions in life, I started to question what the idea of a "soul" is. Like, me thinking everyday, is that my soul? That what is going on in my head? Then, learning about neuroanotomy and finding out that our brain kind of works like a computer (0 and 1, inhibiting and non-inhibiting) made me question this idea of the "thinking soul". I was shocked to find out that thinking words and speaking words out are separate areas in the brain. I started to think a lot what a soul is then. Then, I looked into what the Quran was stating about the soul, saying: "And they ask you, [O Muhammad], about the soul. Say, "The soul is of the affair of my Lord. And mankind have not been given of knowledge except a little." For me, I was so fascinated with that reply. I started to think it might be some kind of essence, something divine.
I am fascinated with physics, unfortunately I cannot say that I'm an expert. I always wondered about the source of energy, since energy is the reason why reactions take place. No energy can be "created". Then, isn't God something/someone, a system that works without energy? Stuff like entanglement, or even the thought that reality falls apart at the moment the system, the "box", becomes different, I find so fascinating. I think there is something divine about it.
I imagine us humans being in line, everyone pulls some kind of ticket, and this is going to be their load they will have on their shoulders, for life. Be it poverty, an early loss of a loved one, a disease, whatever. Many people say, you cannot compare people's fate. I don't think so. People cope way too differently. I like the thought that our life is a test, and everytime we are patient and still stay on the "good path" (eg in poverty, one does not steal etc.), it will be rewarded.
I think it is so strange to look around and see everything existing out there. I mean, what is that that we humans and animals do? Eat, sleep, reproduce. Who is getting profit if we make sure our DNA passes on? Definetly not us, cause we die anyways. Why the hazzle, the worries? I don't understand that.
"If love is something you get used to, why even living at all?", is some lyric of Dir en grey's bugaboo. I think about it a lot...like, yeah, isn't love for the most of us like the ultimate goal? Like, this happiness. And in the end, the magic is gone. All our hormones on low level. What are we, as humans, living for? I like to see different perspectives in life, I like VK because their lyrics are so nihilistic. Without God, just as humans, what does it mean to be a human? What are we aiming for at the end of the day?...at least I end up thinking: for nothing. Without God, life is not worth living, except you are a lucky one. Except you numb these questions away with, I don't know, keeping yourself busy and whatnot.
Personally, I think my life isn't easy. I don't have someone who I can talk to and say what's going on in my mind. I have some problems, and think about them: "there is no solution to them, even if I think about it a lot". I can get "angry" with God, like "why did you choose this fate for me?" only to find myself tranquil at the thought that there is a path ahead of me, and I know someone, something is knowing what's ahead. And what lies ahead will bring tranquility to my soul, not in the way I imagine, but it will be good.
I like islam, it is very simple, you have one God and you just directly talk to him whenever you want. I pray five times a day, even at university or at my job. And I choose to do so. Life is just so busy that I'm not bothered to be reminded of God five times a day.
But, there are also some things I don't understand. for example, homosexuality being forbidden. But, since it feels like a have a personal relationship with God, I'm like: "Dear God, I don't understand this no matter how much thought I put into it. Please, one day, give me an answer." I'm not a yes and amen kind of person. But, I believe in every single words of the Quran. I have some questions. And there is obvioulsy the need of a God to answer them.
so yea little stream of thought
