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This is so pretty I didn't realize it was a Biebz song.

Awww I love Frederic. <3 I'm just finally getting around to checking that song out. Always gotta rep the Hyogo bands. I'd seen negative comments about Kanashii Ureshii but I really like it and the energy. Those covers are pretty.

Really prayin' their next album won't be a dumpster fire like Ambitions was. I didn't think the 35xxxv album was great but at least those songs are super fun for lives. Also just really missin' Taka's 2015 blond hair.

Thanks. T_T It does suck but oh well. Now to ask for three different days off over the next couple months and hope no one eats me alive.. Man, I'm so petty about how much I hate Enon Kawatani.. I get that frickin' "lemme smash" meme stuck in my head whenever I think of him.

Apparently they're allowed to not pay us holidays for leaving work early the previous shift. :/ It's somewhere in the contract and company policies. And thanks! I'm feeling better, just very groggy and a constant headache. I spent most of the weekend asleep.

After my last breakup, I spent a week in bed/biking around town crying to every PTP song and I don't regret.

I'm pretty sure if I play Pay money To my Pain one more time in the car with my mother she's going to start asking me if I'm okay.

Actually, I like that he's political. lol That I can get behind and I don't like disassociating music or musicians from politics. Maybe because I'm an artist myself? Not music-wise, but a lot of my own work can get very political. So I totally get why celebs with a platform get political and don't get why people feel they shouldn't considering a lot of music is political.

I kind of wish tarantulas didn't sort of creep me out because they're so cute. Maybe need to hang out with someone who owns one. I have a pug who thinks he's a cat, two fluffy cats, and a senior cat who is almost twenty and is completely blind/deaf. The two fluffy cats are hell spawn. One melts like puddy in your arms and is possessed. The other is declawed (not by me, would never declaw a cat) but has so much power in her punches, hates being touched, will bite if you do not give her affection when she demands it. She is glued to my side 24/7. I adopted baby girl as an adult and pretty sure she's been abused before I brought her home from how she acts. But she loves me and we get along well. She doesn't exactly deal well with the other pets but the younger demon cat and her are starting to get along.

Shortest: Like, 2 years and a month and a half. We dated a couple months before becoming a couple. It's been four years since I left. I've been hoping he'd get married by now or find someone but I don't think he ever got over our relationship after I left him from what his friends have told me. Today would've been our anniversary, oddly enough. He's a weirdo but hoping he's improving and doing better for himself. Longest: 2.5 years. My ex uses our relationship as fodder for his relationship building business (barf). I kind of wish I'd kept the engagement ring because it was super pretty but he didn't get it sized to fit me so I could never wear it. He was so excited to sell it too which made me sad. Still waiting for karma to bite him in the ass. Going on a year and two months with myself and it's nice but would be nice to try dating again. Both times I tried before ended in long term relationships.

The only funny story my ex ever told me was when his roommate's ferret stole one of his dildos and ran off around the apartment with it.

Oh my god, I want one. I came down with the flu today and left work at lunchtime. Monday is a holiday and apparently because I left early I won't get paid for the holiday. Wtf?? Why??? You have to work a full shift before the holiday to get paid. Dafuq? So pretty bummed about that and not getting paid overtime this week because I left early. :/ But honestly I feel like crap and I work with raw fish products so.. I also couldn't stomach any food but was feeling hungry and that is never good when working with smelly fish because I start gagging. Plus I can't be running off to the bathroom every twenty minutes. Hoping it only lasts 24 hours like my sister's did as I have plans this weekend. My mom's been dealing with it all week and working through it just made it worse.. >_< I don't feel like puking my guts out anymore and can actually stomach food so that's already a good sign.

Depends which program of mine you're talking about. lol The certificate course I want to take is only four weeks long but it costs $2500 CAD and sounds super intensive, although there's a part time option for eight or twelve weeks I think for the same cost? One diploma course I can't take without work experience first, it's expensive and I'm not sure if it's split into one or two semesters, I need to ask my old boss because she took it online. It takes one year to complete. The other diploma course I need to contact the school because I have a bachelor's degree so I likely can take the accelerated course, which would save a couple grand, but it's intensive and split into three terms. I may be able to go for a second degree with it but pretty sure I can just jump to an MA or MSW. My undergrad marks aren't so great for the first two years so I'm looking at programs that consider life experience and other stuff besides grades. It'd also give me the experience I need for a ton of jobs I want. Master's isn't that expensive for the program I really want to take and is split into three semesters in one year. The location is the problem, because it's an expensive city.. MSW would take me two years. People in the field I want to go into have worked a variety of different jobs and have very varied educational backgrounds. It might not go as planned but I'm just happy I'm excited about school. But not many people go this route and it's so expensive.. I also have a backup course I'm likely taking next year in case these plans don't work out. Because idk I like to torture myself.

My coworkers are determined to "break" me and make me talk a lot/be extremely silly. Wh-what? Why does this happen at every job I get?? They also have been discussing how smart I must be.. which is weird. I got asked what was my high school GPA and it's super high but don't ask me how that happened (also don't look at my university transcripts lol). Dude who asked me out is trying to add me on Facebook and is very old and has a kid. Nope. Nope. NOPE. --- I found out the government has services provided to help adults continue education and cover tuition expenses which is... helpful? There is one certificate course and one short diploma course I want to complete but both are costly af. Good 2 know I have more resources for this shiz than student loans and banks. I still gotta pay outta pocket for another diploma program and a master's but... This better be worth my sanity. Honestly, at this rate I should consider looking into becoming a professor. But then I remember what professors deal with after getting close with some of mine so haha nope.

I still need to watch the rest of Shunji Iwai's films, but man, I can't seem to forget a single scene from The Bride of Rip Van Winkle? This is a long film, around three hours or more. I started watching it with no idea of what I was getting into and just thought it would be kind of a simple movie..? Idk. It started showing it wasn't what I expected it to be after the first twenty minutes. Each hour is so different and honestly this movie hurt my brain so bad at times I had to pause just to scream and run around until I calmed down. I mean, it's not hard to understand, it's just.. I can't even talk about it without spoiling. I frickin' watched it last September and I still am not over it and the plot.

Only Yesterday - Actually, second time watching~. I finally found the DVD and quickly snagged it up because this is easily one of my fave Ghibli films. I love some of the slower films, like this one and Whisper of the Heart. Also.. Toshio's Japanese voice actor, I can't get over his VOICE. I love the car/train animation, the subtle moments and movements. I think my favourite scene is when Toshio and Taeko are in the car and he's contemplating reaching out to touch her hand and decides against it. I love the way he listens to her and takes everything she says seriously.. because Taeko is kind of an odd character. lol Very relatable. I love how relevant this film can be to my own life and am glad I didn't actually watch it when I was younger because I feel like it wouldn't of been as special to me. Also the music and scenery. Ahh. Needed this after Ocean Waves, which was mostly me and my sister yelling at the screen because we hated that film so much. lol I'm not touching American Death Note with a ten foot pole.

Whoa, actually was feeling the same about his inspirational speeches/captions as of late. When I saw him live in 2010 he didn't really say as much (such a great concert though, I wasn't really a fan of him but after seeing him live I just had such a great experience, he inspired me so much just being himself then). I do like that he's so supportive of his oldest daughter and his posts about his kids, but most of the other stuff he's been saying lately has me all kinds of levels of "boy what you doin". It makes me sooo uncomfortable. I dated a motivational speaker and I can't even begin to describe how much I can't stand those types of people. They're incredibly fake for the most part. Which makes me sad because I love Miyavi, I really do. I love his wife and family. I'm just hoping he's not that sort of person.. because it's starting to really irk me to the point I've almost considered unfollowing him on social media. I haven't heard what he says at concerts but I can imagine it just from some of his captions and other stuff.

My sister and mother were standing ten feet away behind him, covering their mouths and laughing. EDIT: On a side note, I just sort of ditched my weekend plans in October to see one of my best friends to go to a boy band concert. Oops. I sent her a bunch of siren emojis so she knows. As long as I can.. get that.. ticket.. I have to fly to go to the concert but *worth it*... I was already planning a weekend trip to get the eff outta here for a few days and it couldn't have been announced at a better time.

Oh no.. D: I've never been hit on or asked out that much, but once some guy tried to hit on me in the middle of a bookstore. He started going off about how popular his Naruto fanfiction was at the same time. I started crying. I've also randomly been asked out on the street once and legit ran away.

One of my coworkers awkwardly asked me out on a date and I started laughing nervously and answered him with deafening silence. Am I doing rejection right?

omg raphael <3 forgot about them

fanks~ I've been put in purgatory twice but it's nice having people who work for them who care and genuinely want to help you get in and get dat shmoney.

Crying because the JET coordinator for my area is just... amazing? She scared the crap out of me during the first interview I did with them and then when I met her at one of the workshops she seemed to really like me. She emailed me today asking if I want to meet one on one to discuss things for the next application cycle. I'm very... touched.