SilverEspeon__

Hey guys, it's me, @SilverEspeon__

and @AmberCrystal17

and @TheDragonCharizard11

and @ChaoticFireBall

and @SidoSido11

I just want to come in here and come out with the truth. You were right. I am the same person. All of them are me. A lonely little loser girl in college.

I just want to say that I am truly sorry for every shitty thing I've done, and this will probably be my last post. I'm sorry for all the lies, I'm sorry for all the things I've said, I'm sorry for what I have done. I thank the mods for giving me a wake-up call and making me see the lying attention-seeking shitstain I have been.

When I started out here, in late 2016, I was feeling awful mentally. I was lonely, I was feeling worthless. So I decided to do stupid things on here and other sites that I have long since left (like Reddit) for the sake of attention. I stumbled across this forum because I genuinely do like VK and I was looking around for news about some bands. I found out what got the most attention on here, and it just so happened to be something I liked at the time, and I decided to spam it. Even after I stopped liking it as much as I used to around late 2017, I kept it up because it gave me attention. It was only recently I started to feel better, and I started to see what I had done. I made several accounts to start "drama", I made more of them to avoid consequences, I made them to give myself validation. I was going to stop after my other 3 quite frankly stupid posts and leave. I tried to lie to get away without consequences. But it wasn't until the mods came and told me off that I truly came to my senses. I was a dirty liar, I was annoying, and I was a fucking idiot. I feel terrible about the things I've done here, and I wish I could turn back time and prevent it from happening.

This all sounds really cliché, but I really did feel horrible mentally, and I did awful things because of it. It didn't help that I was very lonely and I was feeling worthless either. I sought attention and validation, and I would get it, even if it was bad attention. I did that instead of seeking help.

In short, I was a lying attention-seeking idiot who just wanted reactions from people instead of seeking help. And I want to apologize for that.

You don't have to forgive me, and you can hate me and make fun of me all you want once I leave. Insult me, troll me, be condescending, spam my PMs, doubt me, be disrespectful, nitpick, harass me, anything. I deserve it. I have been a shitty person, and a dirty liar too, and I regret all of it. I'm going to try and better myself and start over, but I deserve every bad thing that happens to me after this.

Please never talk about this ever again. Try to forget about me. I don't want to be reminded about any of it. 

Take care everyone.

I just want to come in and say that I’m not the original user of this account.

She gave me control of this account after she ”left” and I’m only using it to post news about YOHIO and DISREIGN with it.

It wouldn’t surprise me if she was making new accounts just to cause drama. But I am not the one making them.

I’m just here to share news. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Would also appreciate it if all of you could stay on topic.

YOHIO new single「My Nocturnal Serenade」will be released 2019/03/01

YOHIO new single "Merry Go Round" will be released 2018/11/23

(Move to the correct forum if this is the wrong one)

Why y'all thinking this is a troll? We share a computer. Is it really that hard to grasp? I just want to make TheDragonCharizard11 stop being an obnoxious nerd who talks about things I'm not interested in. And clogging up the computer with ugly drawings of cancer fandoms. I do what I think she would do if she had an account here and wasn't so goddamn shy. I just want to show off how annoying she is. I can't help that she has this stupid fucking username. That's her problem. Even I hate it.

Fuck you TheDragonCharizard11, AKA the dumbest name I have ever seen. This is what you deserve.

2 hours ago, TheDragonCharizard11 said:

Hey, SilverEspeon__

 

I would really appreciate it if you would stop pretending to be me by using a username I use on a lot of different sites and trying to give me a bad reputation.
Just because I like things you don't doesn't mean you should do this.

Yes, I like YOHIO, but I would never post anything about it like you do.

I would only like posts and call it a day.

You did the same thing on Reddit.

It's not cool.

Please stop.

 

For anyone who has seen their posts, please know it was not me. I didn't even know this site existed until I was notified by my brother that this person was impersonating me. I totally respect and understand that many of you don't like YOHIO, and frankly, I am really only still a fan because of his music. I have always had a pretty bad music taste, so it was pretty much inevitable. My view of him has soured considerably after reading about what he is/has been doing in his private life.

Oh fuck off. I'm not trying to lower your reputation. Are you fucking stupid? What I've been doing is not lowering your reputation. I came up with this name first. Besides, this username is way too nice for someone like you who follows me everywhere.

Also "respecting others's opinions" my ass. You got offended by my posts under "your" username? Come on.

It's only a semi-goodbye as I will still be lurking around ocassionally as I'm still interested in whatever is being posted here.

All I have ever done is cause trouble, so I've decided it's probably better that I don't post anything. I regret all of the posts I have made, and I'm sorry for making you suffer through them. I made an awful first-impression with my first post, and I haven't made it any better from my following posts. I have been really stupid on here, and I don't want to repeat the same mistakes.

It's probably gonna be a such good riddance for you all to have me in lurker mode considering what I have done. You all deserve better than to have me run around making stupid posts. I'll still like comments and posts and stuff, but I won't be making any posts myself.

6 hours ago, mahoujin said:

I didn't see the original post, but I can't imagine it could possibly be more embarrassing than everything I just read here. 

I regret making almost all of the posts I have made on this site, including the ones I made here. I'm really sorry you had to suffer through me embarrassing myself like this. I really am.

On 2017-03-19 at 5:39 PM, Zalemu said:

You know, that post could've easily been forgotten about if you hadn't created another thread asking to remove it.

Do not remind me of this or that other post, please. I regret making both these posts. And all my other posts for that matter.

17 minutes ago, Platy said:

Dude, chill out. 

 

You don't need to take everyone's comments so seriously. 

 

Keep in mind most people on this site are jokers, petty or trolls so we make fun of yohio coz he's an easy target for lulz. We're not running at you with pitchforks, so no need to keep apologising. 

Everyone makes posts they regret, just move on and keep interacting. 

Yeah, okay, fine. I figured as much after they told me. I am unfortunately one of those people who tends to take things at face-value, unless it's obvious it's a joke, even if I don't want to. But knowing how people tend to be on the internet and social media, you never know if people are being 100% serious or just trolling :/ Or that's at least from what I have experienced.

7 hours ago, seurong said:

 

you really cant take a joke, can you?

i wasnt tottally serious in that 1st thread....and i was joking in the post you quoted. 

 

How was I supposed to know it was a joke and sarcastic?

Ugh, goddamnit... Sorry for going on a rant then. But I genuinely had no idea. And it was late at night and a time when I shouldn't have been on here. I have a much harder time interpreting texts properly late at night too.

I should probably take a break from this site. All I ever do is cause trouble.

And once again, I don't even remember typing the two last sentences in my reply. I'm very sorry for writing that. I'll make sure it never happens again.

7 hours ago, sheepprincessgara said:

 

If you supposedly don't care what people think of Yohio, then why do you continue putting gas in the fire?

 

And don't pull that suicide card on us; it's not funny.

...Why do I keep coming back to this site late at night? I've told myself it's a bad idea... Because otherwise, shit like this happens and I just embarrass myself and everyone else. I apologize for my entire post. I truly do not care what people think of him. I really don't. I guess I was just wondering if there were reasons for it, but it just came out very badly from me... Damn my inability to word my thoughts properly...

And I did not mean to say that at all. I don't even remember typing it. That was completely unecessary of me to say. I'm sorry.

On 2017-03-17 at 8:52 PM, seurong said:

No that topic is going to ur hall of shame!!!!

Well, that was an unecessary comment.

I don't even remember posting the freaking topic. It's just as embarrassing to me as everyone else. I just wanted it at least locked.

Also, about you saying it probably is the worst choice for a voice actor, why do you think so? Please explain (without saying "He's unfit for the role," "He's not a good voice actor," "There are better voice actors," or something similar. I want a well-developed reason for why you think like you do). I have heard/seen far worse voice acting in my life, especially when it comes to dubs. I honestly wonder if you have some sort of disdain for YOHIO because of that statement. It's at least not the most annoyingly sqeaky voice you'll be hearing (and honestly, if you say you prefer such a voice over YOHIO's, then I'll automatically assume you have something against him, because 1. that'd completely kill the mood of the movie 90% of the time, and 2. it becomes unbearable after a while. I know this sounds rude, but I honestly can't understand how someone can prefer a squeaker over a mostly developed voice).

3 hours ago, nekkichi said:

nah, posts and topics are generally not removed here as long as conversation remains civil.

Well, damn... I hope it just gets buried and forgotten then... Because even I think this thread is pointless and embarrassing.

3 hours ago, gekiai said:

It's not in my place to give an absolute answer but from what I see, topics don't usually get removed here.

 

I saw the post you speak of, and it's fine man. It'll be forgotten and buried soon enough. Everyone has their "slip ups". 

Well, damn. I certainly hope it becomes forgotten then. Because that post is so embarrassing.

Would it be possible to have a post removed or at least locked? Because there is a post I made I would like removed since I don't even remember making the post in the first place, and the post is really embarrassing and stupid. Is there a way to remove it or lock it?

12 hours ago, seurong said:

 

it probably is :S

 

I doubt it. I have heard way worse voice acting in my life. And at least it's not my voice. You must have some sort of disdain for YOHIO if you say he'll be the worst choice ever when there are way worse voice actors out there. But you are obviously allowed to think however you want.

19 minutes ago, emmny said:

Yohio, it's time to delete your MH account.

This is not YOHIO. I can only wish it was. I'm just some random dumbass fan of his music. I highly doubt he even knows about this site.

And I don't even remember posting this topic and I'm just as embarrassed about it as you all are. I want it removed or at least locked or something. This is the dumbest post I have ever made.

1 hour ago, seurong said:

my condolences

 

also your name is getting dubbed in so many languages lol

"Condolences?"

Why do you feel bad that YOHIO is voice acting? At least it isn't the most annoying voice you could choose??? Or am I completely wrong???