Aferni

Welcome here finally ~

Forgot about that! Thank you for reminding me~!

An inferior chaos dyes the warped past. Was the sentiment violated by a delusion in the brain? The retort which destroyed these innocent feelings discounted to temptation. Seeds were sown in the garden of affection fluctuate distorting this dream which hasn't fully bud. The ideal day which was led to a wrongful and resentful distraction is a dream in a chipped moment. This inferior feeling is the voice from which light is insulated. Is this the feeling which causes spiraling out of control in the brain? Is an echo a brainwash of the voice you hear in perplexity? HATE YOURSELF HATE YOURSELF HATE YOURSELF HATE YOURSELF The ideal day which was led to wrong and resentful distraction is painful. It was led to "today" and the day I say you deplore. You who lost an ideal and love will repeat a crime by the face which realized something again. Wrong and resentful tomorrow.... HATE YOURSELF UNTIL YOU DIE HATE YOURSELF UNTIL YOU DIE HATE YOURSELF UNTIL YOU DIE HATE YOURSELF UNTIL YOU DIE HATE YOURSELF UNTIL YOU DIE HATE YOURSELF UNTIL YOU DIE

COPERNICUS _____________________ "Yes, we must make a choice. For the future." A NEW START FOR OUR FUTURE FOR OUR TOMORROW "WE’LL START TO MOVE" Did you know? That there are different sides to this world we are seeing. "The rain won’t last forever" is something I've sung somewhere, however I want to continue sending “that endless rain” even if its form isn’t that of droplets fallen from the sky. -Fin…?- CRISTATE __________________________ If you don’t know how to kill, then think about ways to hide As long as I’m alive inside you, the music will continue to play every day The sound might not be the same but making it your world and voicing it should be your reason to live It’s okay to live in there It’s okay to just pretend on the outside I’ll do your part too I hope I can stay here and make you my reason to live every day Imagining your world is fun and I hope I can start feeling like I want to stay here a bit longer I’m not forcing you to live every day But why are you over there? I think I understand, actually It’s because you won’t stop singing there You had told me That, “I’m here because you’re alive” so close… yet so far Even with the red shoes Crying, trembling, I am turning cristate Since this is the world we choose to live in, “We’ll make it so that I am you, and you are me” 鳥は泳ぎ方を知らず溺れ亡骸 ______________________________ Shadow dances aflicker, Falling as if directed to A burning, sweet dream They get washed away slowly Black hair, the marionette No bare body to be seen The wings are now broken, Ah, ah… By the colour of sins hidden away And I can forget, Ah, ah… After the scent is buried away Light dances down from the sky, Strikes through my heart And bright red rain starts to fall It’s ending… Isn’t it lovely? Light dances down from the sky, Tears out my outstretched arm, 1 And I die, drowned in the past Streaming down my face I let go of the egoist Who yielded by wanting to be loved Shall we…dance like this? As if covering my mouth, My hair that’s grown longer Rejects the songs of despair Dramatic words will again Make this room lonesome Broken sounds will visit my ears You dance down from the sky Full of dreams, Your shining irises are quite radiant I dance down from the sky Obscuring meanings, I had been blooming In time, I’ll be dead by drowning hatred × tangle red × hunger red _______________________________ RED draws so very near Let’s go look for flowers Let’s go, shutting out even that place where we were suspended in chains You end up disappearing This world is so vast Where is the fiction that makes us forget even the hurtful things? Children dressed as the devil Are soldiers guarding that place Let’s acquire the art of cunning in exchange for common knowledge hatred × tangle red × WORLD ＝hatred × hunger red Just about everyone forces someone to step back so they can thrive hatred × tangle red × WORLD ＝hatred × hunger red This time when I’ve stopped saying “I’m just alive” could last forever too From the hidden cracks The corpse of a kitten is laughing, Telling me to choose eternal sleep if my future will be spent abandoned I am a slave, a slave that’s been forced into something in this world Will the answer I’ve been waiting so much for come? If needed, I’m monochrome ECHO ________________________ Once I had turned away, in those clear days Came beckoning a thread of innocence Was that the “tragedy” slipping through the cracks I had closed off? If I put it into words, I can only send a bitter gift of farewell to the past… And the memories of it will still pierce through my skin, like glass If you want, I will become whatever you wish me to be The past I’d turned away from was shaken by that sound Unable to even make eye contact, I stopped listening to the silence Because I know your pain too If I pretend to smile when once again I begin to shut everything out, Will you cry? Or will you smile at me? Our fingers searched for each other as if we were about to fall You’d cried like a child, and I didn’t want to spoil that image, So I closed my eyes If you want, I will become whatever you wish me to be Taken by surprise, I cried…there is rain outside “If you are not here with me, I’ll disappear” An echo of codependency If suddenly you were to die, I’d surely feel relieved I’d have no reason to cry, Or to be in pain, Or to love… [ “I like you,” A moment condensed into words The past I’d turned away from was shaken by that sound ] [ “Because I love you,” I held you as you were falling apart Taken by surprise, I cried…there is rain outside ] If “you” want, I will become whatever you wish me to be I can count the free spaces on my fingers… Even if a deep darkness awaits in the future I can’t yet see, The past has now bloomed, And is falling into an endless abyss… I calmly gathered the vestiges of dried rain, Along with eternity 瞬間のアイディアル __________________________ Light, Hide the truth now I beg of you For a momentary Ideal Ah…I kick away the countless glass beads that have scattered about I shake with this pain that’s piercing through my body again Ah…I don’t even want to take in that sight, the treachery and the sheep’s eyes I’m deluding myself again, saying things like “is this fate” pray…This world is forever the same ray…I don’t even want to save it Light, Encircle the pain now, So as to accept the hidden wounds Light, Hide the truth now, I beg of you For a momentary Ideal Ah…A jet-black bell tolls, my fingertips are cut off Again my freedom is taken, and swarming eyes are laughing Ah…”Shall we destroy together?” Waiting anxiously for those words, Again I’m attacked by the passage of time and I start running away pray…This world is forever the same ray…I want for you to start saving it Light, Shine on the pain now, So as to outline the hidden wounds Light, Show me the truth now, And draw me A momentary Ideal CREDITS GO TO KII CHECK KII OUT AND MORE OF KII'S TRANSLATIONS HERE: http://heresiarchy.tumblr.com/about sidenote: Thank you for reminding me Seimeisen <3

Once Zess ate beans that tasted like shit, thinking, "what the dick?", so threw them at the cat cause he is such a crazy little bastard. After drycleaning vigorously, everything bursted into some form of hypergalactic flames and the couch started transforming into something sexy like boobs which performed lap dances which seemed very outerspacey wtf? Followed masturbating

They fuckin look like Grieva.

Looks like a very kind person,

No. I want to touch you for 4 hours. Is that weird?

Not at all. I like staring at peoples butts in public, does that make me weird?

Join In An Religeous Orgy and Offer Your Virginity To THE ALMIGHTY GODS...... AND OFFER YOUR PARENTS TOO NO MATTER HOW OLD, THEY WILL BE FUCKED WELL....

..Hmmmm Idk.....If you dont love me you dont love the Shit Noodles

It was about the goodies, which i do care about cause I love my Shit Noodles.

Explain

Welcome to Monochrome Heaven and enjoy your stay, which hopefully is a long one~.

Isn't Trombe Pulling all the strings...?

NON-BELIEVER! WE HAVE A NON-BELIEVER!

This is new religion dedicated to the almighty gods Nekkichi and Jrockdrama ^ U must praise nekkichi or Zeus will ban you and your unborn bastard children You must also Praise Jrockdrama THIS STEP IS CRUCIAL, YOU MUST OFFER YOUR PATHETIC MORTAL SOUL UP TO THESE IDOLS OF SUPREME RULE THERE IS NO BIBLE, NO TORAH, NO WHATEVER THE FUCK PEOPLE GO TO CHURCH FOR THERE IS ONLY PRAISING, AND LOTS OF IT MUST BE DONE OR ELSE..

Thank you. I'll try harder next time qwq

Kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida Atama ga mō shoki-ka shi-sō… shokka-sō… atama ga mō shoki-ka shi-sō… shokka-sō… Kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui omae e no kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida kore wa tsuyoi satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsui satsuida Atama ga mō shoki-ka shi-sō… shokka-sō… atama ga mō shoki-ka shi-sō… shokka-sō… naze kimi o omoidasu no… ryōsan-gata no ongaku dake kin ni kaete ikiru kimi wa… kimi wa… kimi wa… kimi wa… Translation ____________________________ This is strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent It's strong murderous intent murderous murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent My Head begins to realize...Realize that,.... My Head begins to realize...Realize that,.... This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent This is a strong murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent murderous intent Your head begins to realize..believing so.... You remembered why...You who changed only your morals and ideals on living... you...you...you.. NOTE: Satsui can have two meanings, well one meaning just written two different ways, "Murderous Intent or "Intent to murder"

^ Calls my house and screams Mejibray songs to me

Dazzlingly disturbing those who are bothered by the fires of evil karma, such a hazard The devil who doesn't own wings shows himself in front of me Bowing down…Hungry for blood freshly gushing out, wandering to look for any drops of blood Cutting the pentacle shaken by the same merry-go-round You swear loyalty to me Smiling We drink a toast Till my life withers, you will pray for me, oh For this poem, I reward you… Feeling nauseous and confused about the emeralds I eat Being overconfident of my own ability…I sigh owing to this pain The bastard who caresses my head gives me candies today only Intertwining and shaking the given tongue ring, sublimating my body You swear loyalty to me Smiling We drink a toast Till my life withers, you will pray for me, oh For this poem, I reward you… I swear loyalty to you Smiling You take me into your arms If your life withers, I shall shed tears for you For this voice, you reward me…

あなたのもとへ　キチガイじみたわたしが あなたのもとへ　キチガイふりしたわたしが あなたのもとへ　キチガイじみたお土産持って 嫌い…痛い…アカい トんでる脳ミソの上　大事なトコロが裂けた ロンパるあなたはもう　わたしの苺を…！ トんでる脳ミソのなか　出血多量のあなた ロンパるわたしはもうストロベリーなショートケーキ あなたのもとへ　キチガイじみたわたしが あなたのもとへ　キチガイふりしたわたしが あなたのもとへ　キチガイじみたお菓子をもって 痛い…痛い…イタイ！ トんでる脳ミソの上　大事なトコロが裂けた ロンパるあなたは　もうわたしの苺を・・・！ トんでる脳ミソのなか　出血多量のあなた ロンパるわたしはもうストロベリーなショートケーキ もう戻れないでしょ？ もうやめれないでしょ？ 涎を垂らす　あなたは白目をむいて やめて！と願う　わたしはも白目をむいて キチガイたちの最後の晩餐会でした 痛い…痛い…アカイ！ トんでる脳ミソの上　大事なトコロが裂けた ロンパるあなたは　もうわたしの苺を…！ トんでる脳ミソのなか　出血多量のあなた ロンパるわたしはもうストロベリーなショートケーキ 覚めていた…冷めていた…醒めていた… 「わたしはまだイってないから!!」 完全制裁！

ケミカル・ドリップ・チェリーぱい chemical -<trip>- cherry pie (Son of a bitch son!!) もう自慰的ぬらすCANDY いつのまにか「ナニ」の中 もう溶けて固まりました いままでも、これからも。 さあ自慰的ぬらすCANDY でもね、ぼくは「パイ』の方が好き さあ溶けて固まりました なので、犬どもにはバレません！ こちらのほうは賞味期限切れ そちらのほうも賞味期限切れ？ ｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘx？ｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘx？ ___________________________________________________________- リリィさんの整形美容術 醜いワタシは… 二重まぶたにしたい 貴方の好きなあの子のように 鼻も高くしたいな 貴方に見てもらえるように ぬいぐるみを裂いて少し高い機械を入れて さあ、貴方と暮らします。これでずっと一緒だね？ 双子座の貴方は少しずぼらな生活だから簡単にお家にわたしでも入れます 使い捨てのディッシュの中身の匂いが気になるの！ 下心はないわ 貴方がすごく心配なの …ゴミ箱に… さよならを告げるのが嫌だからそっとクローゼットに 身体中ほとばしる忠誠はきっと見た目じゃないでしょう？ 貴方の痛いイイ体脂肪 お金をかけてみても一向に愛してくれないから 麻酔を手に入れて貴方の元へ向かいます ぐっすり横たわる貴方のその綺麗な顔を 今わたしだけの為に美容整形致します …ゴミ箱に… ゴミ箱にあるこれは何？！ 裏切りの数だけ医療メスであなたを刻みます 許さない殺しまではしないわ。けど覚悟はしてね？ さよならを告げるのは嫌だからそっとクローゼットで 血だらけの貴方をみつめながら、そっとオ◯二一をしますううううううう ______________________________________________________ 告白 降りかかる雨は血の色をして 目の前の人たちは殺し合いをしてる 苦しんだ末に手に入れた物は もう明日と散ったあなたの残像 晴れ渡る空で鳥たちは羽のもぎあい 隣の家の少女は親に犯されてる 気が付けば染み込んだ君も消えていて 今願うのはあの頃の昨日 薄暗い部屋で一人佇む君は何を思うのでしょう ぼくは弱い固まりだからまだ君に触れていたい 湿る朝はすごく痛くて 理想なら壊れていたよそっと息をしたままに貴女が溶けた綺麗な部屋で あの戻れぬ夜に告げた告白をまだ消えているでしょうか？ 君は弱い生き物だからきっと泣いてるのでしょう 薄暗い部屋で一人佇む君は何を見てるのでしょう 永遠に落ちてくまで繰り返す残酷な朝 __________________________________________________________ 肋骨少女 貴女は隣の家のお兄さん 寂しいワタシの子宮を食べた そごく痛いけど愛されることを初めて知りました 家に帰るとそぐにパパがわたしの身体を触る それはやめてよ！だって本当に痛いんだもの！ 肋骨をこじあける苦い音 ドリルさんの独壇場！全身が痺れちゃうのっ！ あのね？わたしの真ん中のほうは空っぽだけ どそれでも好きだと言って舐め尽くしてくれる貴方が好きだった でもに、食べれる所が次第となくなってくると知らない人を連れてきてね パパと同じことをしたの！ 肋骨をこじあける鈍い音 ドリルさんの独壇場！全身が焼けちゃうの！ もうこれ以上の愛を絶やさないでと願った 戻れないね…軋む身体を引きづり向かうアナタの傍へ 無視しないで！醜いワタシを最後まで抱きしめて食べてね 肝臓さえも。腎臓さえも。膵臓さえも。心臓さえも！ （毎日毎日減っていくわたしのココロでつくった腸詁 見知らぬ人はそれを生ごみと一緒に炒めて売った パパもおじさんもお兄ちゃんもそう人類全員まとめて わたしの身体に閉じ込めて消えてしまえば楽なのに） もうこれ以上の愛を絶やさないでと願った 残り少ないわたしを汚いからと、醜いからと捨てないで ねえ…これ以上に苦しませて？腐り果てるまで ねえ見つけだして？隠してみたのすごいのを！ 肋骨の裏に！ 戻れないね…軋む身体を引きづり向かうアナタのそばへ 無視しないで！醜いワタシを最後まで責任取って食べてね？ 肝臓さえも。腎臓さえも。膵臓さえも。感情さえも ワタシには要らないの最後に抱きしめてね？ ________________________________________________________ 遺書 暗い未来ですか？？ …明日を諦めました 今からこのビルの最上階から飛び降りますよ けどこのぼくのことを止めてくれる人はいません なぜぼくはこんな殺してやりたい人たちがいたのでしょう そうだ！この際天国にいる先祖様にでも聞いてみよう さあ遺書を書こう こんな夜に暖かい紅茶飲みながら さあ僕を消そう こんな静かな朝に ー読み上げますー 「２０年吸った酸素が身体に入っていません。 苦しいのはあたりさわりなくみんな一緒でしょう。 でもこんな自分が嫌いなのはこの僕だけでしょう。 だから誰かにぼくの命を半分あげることにしました。」 さあ遺書を書こう こんな夜は暖かい紅茶飲みながら さあぼくを消そう こんな静かな朝に さあ遺書を書こう こんな夜にどれ程苦しんだのでしょう さあ今を生きよう 嘲笑う朝まで 暗い未来ですか？？ …明日を諦めますか？？