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Hey guys, it's me, @SilverEspeon__ and @AmberCrystal17 and @TheDragonCharizard11 and @ChaoticFireBall and @SidoSido11 I just want to come in here and come out with the truth. You were right. I am the same person. All of them are me. A lonely little loser girl in college. I just want to say that I am truly sorry for every shitty thing I've done, and this will probably be my last post. I'm sorry for all the lies, I'm sorry for all the things I've said, I'm sorry for what I have done. I thank the mods for giving me a wake-up call and making me see the lying attention-seeking shitstain I have been. When I started out here, in late 2016, I was feeling awful mentally. I was lonely, I was feeling worthless. So I decided to do stupid things on here and other sites that I have long since left (like Reddit) for the sake of attention. I stumbled across this forum because I genuinely do like VK and I was looking around for news about some bands. I found out what got the most attention on here, and it just so happened to be something I liked at the time, and I decided to spam it. Even after I stopped liking it as much as I used to around late 2017, I kept it up because it gave me attention. It was only recently I started to feel better, and I started to see what I had done. I made several accounts to start "drama", I made more of them to avoid consequences, I made them to give myself validation. I was going to stop after my other 3 quite frankly stupid posts and leave. I tried to lie to get away without consequences. But it wasn't until the mods came and told me off that I truly came to my senses. I was a dirty liar, I was annoying, and I was a fucking idiot. I feel terrible about the things I've done here, and I wish I could turn back time and prevent it from happening. This all sounds really cliché, but I really did feel horrible mentally, and I did awful things because of it. It didn't help that I was very lonely and I was feeling worthless either. I sought attention and validation, and I would get it, even if it was bad attention. I did that instead of seeking help. In short, I was a lying attention-seeking idiot who just wanted reactions from people instead of seeking help. And I want to apologize for that. You don't have to forgive me, and you can hate me and make fun of me all you want once I leave. Insult me, troll me, be condescending, spam my PMs, doubt me, be disrespectful, nitpick, harass me, anything. I deserve it. I have been a shitty person, and a dirty liar too, and I regret all of it. I'm going to try and better myself and start over, but I deserve every bad thing that happens to me after this. Please never talk about this ever again. Try to forget about me. I don't want to be reminded about any of it. Take care everyone.

It's only a semi-goodbye as I will still be lurking around ocassionally as I'm still interested in whatever is being posted here. All I have ever done is cause trouble, so I've decided it's probably better that I don't post anything. I regret all of the posts I have made, and I'm sorry for making you suffer through them. I made an awful first-impression with my first post, and I haven't made it any better from my following posts. I have been really stupid on here, and I don't want to repeat the same mistakes. It's probably gonna be a such good riddance for you all to have me in lurker mode considering what I have done. You all deserve better than to have me run around making stupid posts. I'll still like comments and posts and stuff, but I won't be making any posts myself.