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Fuuuuuuuuuck Takuya cried so much 😭

I can't believe nicolas is going to livestream their new dvd after just releasing it on sale... and it isn't even sold out on the website :(( I mean, this is super sweet of them to do and hopefully they can get a bunch of donations during the stream. I think this time I should have money to donate because last time I didn't :(( I miss them and I still feel so bad. They released a new album and then corona happened so they didn't get to perform for their new tour at alllll. And they were going to a bunch of people's hometowns and shit to play these tiny af venues (ok majority of vk venues are small but you get it).  If we're lucky, the final in July can continue but it's too early to say.

TLDR: i miss nicolas, i feel bad they couldnt tour, pls watch their live steam and donate if you can 

Gotta head out tomorrow to search for a birthday gift. Dunno wtf to get though 😧 i have just one idea but if that doesnt work then i'll just buy donuts lmao i shouldve gone shopping today since i was already out but oh well. Thought of it too late and got too tired. 

 i wish i could see the future to know when my next live will be so i know whether or not i can put money into my next tattoo. i'm ready to sweat over ticket hatsu/lotteries and ensei again 😞✌️ and dont get me started on post-live drinks

Despite the reasons behind it, my current break from bands have been pretty nice. I still miss GazettE as always, but I'm still transitioning into this new job position. So being able to focus on just that plus Adulting Life in general is a relief in a way lmao noselfcontrolwhenfavebandsareactive

i think it's still going to be a longgggg ass time before my bands do lives again so.... highkey might get a new tattoo in august lmao

nicolas already cancelled the remainder of their summer lives and gazette is obviously not gonna do anything for awhile until it's truly safe to. i wanna put my money somewhere one last time before i gotta save every penny i earn

oh shit. finally listening to SiM's "Devil in Your Head" and i am  a d d i c t e d

i miss saku and his stupid dance moves 😂💓

if what i ordered still doesnt work then imma have another mini crisis and give up. PLEASE THIS IS MY LAST HOPE.

i am SO ready to spend all my money on aoi again 🥺 t h a n k y o o o o u u u u u 

goddd i want to go to a live so bad i'm tempted to risk it with corona and go to a random indie af vk band just to FEEL SOMETHING