CELESTIAL CIEL

Glad to hear it, sis~!

(i hope never)

WTF?? 

https://detail.chiebukuro.yahoo.co.jp/qa/question_detail/q1237619567　
https://ejje.weblio.jp/content/もとへ
check this

Have fun!

/that moment when it was strictly confidential sht just a few days ago... WELL/

@Tokage yep!

Wait isn't he married or something

spasibo!!!

@yomii yea, according to Shuuj’s 「身を削って製作する」、 that probability must be high

hahahahahah new vkei folder yeah i have the same thing
i still consider as new everything released after 2000, maybe 2002, but let's face it i have to raise the bar a little

i remember when versailles released noble, what a weird feeling... ugh
and they are still in the 'new vkei' folder

I do, with some older Japanese friends 「２」

@yomii actually,your thoughts are pretty much like mine and makes sense to me.Notice that I've said a "better" life and not "new". I don't believe things can be completely erased either,we just wait for it to lose its power and learn how to live with it, paying attention to other things. But if you experienced death through someone else's death (a loss),you will never be the same, it's like living half dead, many things loses it's taste,the colors of many things are simply drained. Some people can "turn the page" by focusing on new things, some others like me keeps running in circles in the dark.

Feeling absurdly idiot writing all of this,you guys have no idea,but thank you for caring about. I know everyone here has a sad story to tell or some problem to deal with as well. I know that I'm not the only one. I'm not sitting here making drama on the internet and consuming alcohol. Actually,I do the best I can to not lose control and just carry on my life,I live by myself,paying my bills and stuff,but you know what? It doesn't worth it.

Tried to do things right, changing my habits, abandoning my vices, but I've just climbed to fall from a higher place.it was extremely frustrating,but not the first time that I fail,not at all. I'm a "problematic person" since I was 14 when my mother and grandmother died. Nothing works my way since then,I always fail

To say it quickly,I had a nice job and frequenting a nice university ,but I couldn't deal with both anymore bcuz  of "depression" or whatever that was ,it was compromising my behavior and my productivity,so I decided to quit both.Finded a job that I hated, but easy to "execute", something that I wouldn't need to do any mental effort.However,I really hated that job,but after 2 years taking it and a lot of bad things I finally decided to quit this job as well and "turn the page",but again I'm struggling with negative self talking again and anxiety,I'm scared.

I've already said here that I've deleted all the other social media accounts I had few years ago, exactly because I was tired of "shocking" people with these "heavy" posts.tired of my own drama. nowadays all I have is this "small" place in this forum where I can say what's in my head,and honestly,it seems to be enough cuz there's a lot of response,it almost feels like a brotherhood. that's just 1% one percent of all the negativity that's going on in my head,and usually I save it to myself but i was drunk and ended up saying that and fell asleep afterwards.

If you need to talk about it - I'm here. 

oh ebat'

The suckiest thing that everyone who tried to talk with me, or be closer, or told me that this relationships are rotten from the beginning, everyone was ignored and deleted from my life because I was sure this could be a huge gesture of love and feelings if I can forget about everyone for her. I'm such a jackass, I know, and there's no logic in such things, but everything was ruined and there's no way back.

same! ;_;

I can't stop laughing just because when I was lareine fangirl (aah... 10 years ago??) I thought this phrase was my sick imagination or something

I can't stop laughing just because when I was lareine fangirl (aah... 10 years ago??) I thought this phrase was my sick imagination or something

I can feel your exhausting pain through your writing. Even though I don't really understand how a music taste can destroy an entire relationship, especially if she's interested in Japan herself. But I don't need to understand, I just hope you will feel better soon!